Why can’t I kiss you on the dance floor?
I do glance your way and I long for your smile and when you no longer are in my present, I wait patiently for the next encounter. I imagine your lips on mine and how they will taste and when you look at me I’m in love again. In this moment nothing could go wrong and nothing else puzzles my mind. Only you and that smile you give me, that smile is not just only white teeth and red lips, its moment of magic. I get high, I feel warmth, joy and how it fills my lungs with.
You may not want to kiss me on the dance floor and that is okay. You give me joy no matter what will happen. A day might come where we no longer can share a conversation or even a brief moment of eye dialog. That day will be a miserable day but it will be okay, for all days I have spent with you I will cherish.
When music plays I see you in front of me, you speak to me in a soundless way and you smile. We are close and I can feel your heartbeat. We kiss for the first time and nothing else exists in this moment, you are here and with trust in your eyes you kiss me again. I’m losing thought and I only see you and you are the reason for my heart fuelling with joy. I can no longer hear the music and reality sets in. You are gone.
I stand next to you and we are sharing a moment of friendship, you long for love and I look at you with hope. Will there be a moment of trust and warmth between us? Will everything change after today? Will I end a friendship or build a future?
My joy slowly fades and I long for an encounter with you, a heavy silence comes to me. As I lie in my bed, complete bare and vulnerable, I wish you were a part of this moment and the only thing that breaks the silence is the sound of our breathing.
But then again we stand alone and I can’t help smiling at you and I just want to hold you close and all I can think of it that you are not mine. Our chapter might never be written and it may never be shared between us. A story not for this life time. Everything happens for a reason, one life that we share and in one were we go separate ways never knowing what could have been.
I’m I in love or I’m I just a foolish boy?
On one day you make my world spin and the next I don’t give you a single thought. Then again you are the one I think of when I want to explore life and then you are the person I want to be furthest from away from.
I wasn’t expecting to feel this way,
I have been building walls to spare me pain and so have you done, a week ago we shared a moment, it was just you and me. We were talking about…You and I saw what was hiding behind the walls and for a night I was in love. I longed for a kiss as I stared into your eyes and the night ended and we parted. We might share a kiss and we might not, the importance is that I enjoyed being near you and even if it was for a short time, you made me smile. A friendship might be enough for us, for a long time I haven’t felt anything for anyone and then you came around. I’m falling and I’m not sure if I’m in love or just a foolish boy.
We feel more alive when we live out our emotions.