Everything that is happening in my life right now is for a reason and that is to glorify God. I know that God has a Perfect plan for me but sometimes i want what i want when i want it and waiting on God is hard, really hard but not impossible. The reason why I'm saying this is because it seems like everyone is in a relationship but me. However, let me start off by saying that i don't need anyone but God. Although it would be nice to share my life with someone. I am at the point in my life where i don't want to date just because i can. If i want to date you it's because i want a future with you. Yes i may be young but i know what i want and what i want is a relationship with someone where the foundation of our relationship is based on Christ. Where we lift each other up, pray for each other, worship together, and love God more than we love each other. Now keep in mind i am 20 years old and boys my age do not think the way i do at least the ones I've met. But what i am having a hard time with is letting God take control. Seeing other people together makes me upset and i don't want to bitter and i do not want to hear from people "oh you're only 20 you have time" if i hear that one more time i'm going to lose my shit. All i'm saying is it would be nice to feel wanted.

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Big brother oh how I look up to you though I would never admit it, until now. From boyhood to manhood you have grown in your faith. With your unconditional love you have learned how to love a crazy and wild girl like me. By loving me you have learned how to love your bride to be. Big brother You saw me as your sister from day one. You were colorblind to this colored girl. You accepted me for who I was and not my appearance. For that I will never be able to thank you enough. Big brother it's not just you anymore, it's you and your wife. be the man I know you are for her to see, be her back bone and her strength but most importantly love her. Talk about God together, worship together and pray together. Big brother you have truly found a rare diamond, cherish her. Because you will never find another Calia. Love her like you have loved me. Protect her like you have done for me. James and Calia I am so happy for you may you have long happy years together love you both so much

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Yverline. I am so glad to be able to call you my little sister. I will wont tell you this in person because i know you will never let me forget it. But i love that you love God with all your heart and how you don't care that you can't do a lot of the things other kids can do or that you never complained that you had cancer. I know i am the big sister and you look up to me but i look up to you in so many ways. you are fearless with your faith and worship God with all you heart not just every Sunday but everyday. You are strong not only in your walk with God but in keeping this family together. to be honest i don't remember you not being apart of this family you were always there and i know i don't say this enough but i love you little sis don't ever forget it.

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Good friends are very hard to come by, one of the things I struggled with in High School was being liked by the people I thought were my friends. I think the biggest and hardest thing about High School is learning how to love yourself rather than being liked by others. Be careful who you decide to let into your life it's okay to say no, it's okay to be picky when it comes to letting people into your life. Some people are only there to bring you down, I am lucky enough to have found an amazing friend who lifts me up and isn't afriad to tell me when i'm wrong and that's what people need not someone who tells you what you want to hear but what you need to hear. Once you find a friend like that keep them close, i know that the friendship that i have with Carli is rare and i'll never find anything close to our friendship ever. So be choosy, i was and i found the most amazing person to call my best friend. People come and go but the people who fight for you and lift you up when you're down are the people who are worth having in your life and cannot be replaced.

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Being transracially adopted I never felt like I fit in anywhere. My parents are white and I am African American and Latina. Needless to say growing up in a white family I always felt like an outsider. I was Adopted when I was 3days old, I was born in Texas and moved to California when I was only a week old. It was an open adoption which means I have contact with my birth mother so at a very young age I knew my mother and my sisters, although I never knew my birth dad. I went 15 years without knowing anything other than his name and that he is also African American. I never had any pictures, nothing.  One day when I was 15 my birth dad called my birth mom and told her that he was in jail the past 8 or so years that's "why" he lift my mom and that he also wanted to talk to me. I was so excited that he asked about me and wanted to see me but what happened next I will never forget no matter how hard I try. My adopted parents sat me and told me why he was in jail and why I wasn't allowed by law to see him until I was 18. He was in jail for rape of multiple girls under the age of 18. I had dreamed of the day my birth dad would come and tell me that he loves me and take me away from the "hell" I was living in, for 15 years I made up this amazing dad in my head that could do no wrong and was pretty much superman. But right then and there my whole world stopped and changed forever. Being adopted is hard not knowing who your father is and only knowing half your family is equally as hard. But it can also be amazing and wonderful, I am so blessed to have been placed in the family I have now they have helped shape me into the person I am today.

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