I really don't know how to start this. I am sitting here, at the dinner table I have spent so many dinners together with you these last months, and I feel so empty. I have been looking forward to this day so many days, when it's been hard, and now when we finally are here it completely breaks my heart. This morning when we were gonna get you dressed you asked "how many days is it until you leave?" and I answered that my last day together with you is tomorrow. You asked me if I am happy about leaving and I, without thinking, answered no. These past 10 months together with you have been overwhelming, terrible, amazing, funny and you have taught me so many things. You have made me both laugh and cry.

There have been days when I have completely hated to be here. When I hated to work with this, because of how hard it is. Maybe much harder than people actually imagine. I can honestly say that I never thought it would be like this and I was on my way to leave in the middle of my year, but now I am sitting here with tears on their way and I realize how much I will miss my little dear Faustine. I have no words left to write down. Can't you just come home from the doctor now so I can give you a million hugs and kisses? So I can read you a good night story one last time.

Je t'aime tellement et tu vas me manquer.

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It feels like I am going crazy because of everything that happens right now. My friends and I are counting down the days and weeks we have left here. Every now and then it hits me how incredibly fast this year have passed and even if it's gonna be nice coming home it, in the same time, feels like I'm leaving my home. After almost 10 months I have moved my entire life here, except for my best friends and family of course. Although I really wish they could be here with me. Lucky I am only gonna be home for a few weeks before I go back here to my second home. And even more lucky that France and Sweden isn't very far away from each other so I can go home and see all of my love ones (and they can come down here)!

Right now everything in my everyday life is taking me closer and closer to the move. I have signed in at the university and I am now looking for a place to live. It's both amazing and very scary. Me moving to an apartment? Alone? In a country where I (so far) do not speak the language fluently? Wow. Maybe the Scandinavian "jante law" is coming in the way now but - I am so proud of myself and I feel amazing about myself for doing this. For taking a step in the exact direction I want to go. My dream about moving to Paris already came true a few months ago, but during these last months it changed to wanting to live here on my own and study french, and now that's the next thing I am gonna do.

I am so grateful for everything this adventure so far have and will bring me. All the good things it have brought up on me. But one of the things I am most grateful for is all of the things I have had time to learn about myself. It's been a long journey, but I am still here, and I am still doing it! 



. laugh louder

- discover more

- new amazing friends

- confident

- create a new life

- found new places

- feel like I am home

- fall in love with a new city that I can call mine

- happy



Hello everyone! I am back in Paris and my last vacation is going towards it's end. Weird knowing that my year here in Paris have gone this far already. Feels like this is the only thing I am writing about, how fast everything passes. During last weekend I took a trip home to Sweden for the last time before I move back for the summer. I love being home ever since I moved here. I appreciate my hometown in a completely different way today. The absolute weirdest thing about going home though is that it doesn't feel like you're home 100%. Not having a Swedish phone, or even Swedish money makes it feel like I am out of my own country. Paris have during my stay here turned in to my home, and this is the place where I have everything and everyone (except for my family of course..). And even if that's the case, it's always very hard to go back here.

But as I said - now I don't have much time here left before my time as au pair is over. Which feels both good and sad. Working as an au pair has given me a lot of good experience and it's been great, but in the same time it's not a job I would love to do another year.. So one year have been perfectly enough.

Tomorrow I will see my host family again. They have spent their vacation in LA so hearing what they have been up too is going to be fun. From Sweden I brought a flu so right now when I am writing this I am tucked in the sofa with some music and my coloring books haha.



Maybe not everyone knows that one of my biggest interests in life is photographing. After all the hours I have spent on trying to learn how my camera works and what to think about when you are gonna take a picture - I have to say, I am pretty good at it. Last summer I did my first ever paid job as an photographer. This really gave me a kick and ever since then I have thought back and forth about if this might be something I will be able to do as a "part time-job", at the same time as I am doing something else later in life. Just because I think it's very funny.

So, in the beginning of the weekend, my boyfriend and I started to discuss this. We talked back and forth about how I should let people see my photos and yesterday I decided to take the first step by creating a portfolio online. So from now on, you can find a link in the top menu saying "my portfolio", and I am sure you guys can figure out where it leads!



Ever since I was a small girl I have been listening to my mom's all adventures around in the world. To hear her stories about when she went to China with train and met some of her best friends in the same compartment, or when she fed kangaroos in Australia. I think all of her stories have created a longing, for seeing the world, in me. Because if it's something I'm dreaming of, everyday and always, it's to travel. I have a few friends who are out traveling in Asia just as I write this and I am following them in all different social medias.

It's a little bit over one year ago I came home from my first trip outside of Europe. It was also the first trip I did all alone. For one month during the winter I took my stuff and left for volunteering on Bali.

During these weeks I lived with a bunch of other girls, worked just a few hours everyday (working as an english teacher) and the rest I took advantage of by exploring Ubud, where everything was located, and spent time with new found friends.

My trip to Bali changed my life in many ways. It was the first time I met people who lived in a completely different culture and people who had nothing, comparing to what I have here in France or in Sweden. My friends have heard these stories so many times already, but I never get tired of talking about these few but yet amazing weeks.

Living in Paris is, as I have said so many times, amazing. Every day I am thinking about what I will do next. So today I have started to look and plan for a new volunteering trip. To another continent and to do something new. Except for the actual travel, planning it is the absolute best thing to do, so that's why I'm starting early. I will tell you more and more about it later on!

But for now, BISOUS



Finding the perfect host family is hard, it can feel like it's impossible. But to find the perfect one easier there is a few things that you should ask them before you sign any contract. When I for the first time talked to my host family I was way to shy to ask all those question I might would have been brave enough to ask today, but lucky me, it went fine anyway. Although, I do know that some of my friends weren't that lucky. When they finally arrived it showed that their host families maybe wasn't as perfect as they first thought, and this you can be able to figure out before the move - just by asking the right questions.

I know and understand that asking the things you really want to know can be hard because you do not want to ask the most challenging ones, even if that might be the questions that most of the times determines wether it's a good host family for you or not. Because honestly, what kind of host family is it if they can not answer questions you want to ask them? No question is too stupid or too much to ask.

When I had my first interview with my host family I asked, for example, these questions:

- What kind of punishments do they use when their kids don't behave?
The reason why I asked about this is because here in France it is legal to hit their kids. And for me it was really important that I did not work for a family who use that as a punishment.

- How many kids and what are you expecting from me?
A pretty accurate question, right? Still do so many au pairs forget to ask the second part of this question - "what are you expecting from me?". Am I gonna clean the whole house? Only the kids room? Is it only the kids that is my responsibility? Should I cook for the whole family or just the kids?

- Do you have any animals?
Are they also my responsibility?

- What's the kids personality like?
You do want to know if you will have to deal with a kid with unexpected tantrums. If yes, it's also important for you to know how you are supposed to deal with that.

Nowadays, when I have been here for a while, I have realized that there is a few questions I wished I would have asked before I left. Like these ones:

- Is their any rules that apply on me only?
As in, is there a curfew? Can I have people over? Can I have activities in the weekday evenings?

- What relation do the au pair have to your family?
Do you want me to be a part of the family as much as possible or am I someone who only works for you?

- Will you be there helping me if there is a problem?
Will I be able to trust that you take care of the discipline when the kid have not been acting nicely towards me? Because one thing to remember when you are working as an au pair is, you are not their parent, so you can not discipline them more than that you tell them that what they are doing is wrong. The rest is up to their parents.



When I decided to take a job here in Paris as an au pair, I didn’t know a thing about what this life would be like. I have been growing up with my mom alone without my siblings near me which left me with no experience of what it is being around kids daily. So when I landed here in Paris it came as a shock. I must have called my mom 10 times everyday in the beginning because I didn’t understand a thing of what actually happened. Why my host kid was crying, why she was mad at me for what I thought was nothing, why she just refused to do everything I ever told her. Of course I had heard about that kids will try you and see how far they can go before you explode, but when it had been going on for a month and a half I felt completely exhausted. I think it’s human that you don’t have the energy to fight every single day for that long. Today, eight months later, I am always prepared. Now I am able to read my little girl and I know what days are gonna be hard and then I can adjust to that. Working as an au pair is absolutely one of the hardest things I have ever done, and I wish I would have been more prepared than I actually was, so here is a list for future au pairs of a few things I wish I knew before I moved here:

Get yourself some experience

I am hired through an au pair agency here in France, and all au pairs are required to have worked with children for at least 200 hours. For me 200 hours sounded very much when I applied and I understand now how necessary it actually is with experience when you go for a job like this.

Living in a family that isn't yours is hard

In most of the cases you live together with the family you are working for, and this is a perfect example of things I didn't expect would be as hard as it actually is. You have to remember that even if it's your home the upcoming months, it's not your real home. It's not possible to do what you want and things that is as clear as the sky at home is not the same here.

Be consequent, it's a real job

Which means you should also be treated like a normal employer. I have tons of friends here who have to work overtime and weekends without extra pay. Everybody knows that if this was any other job (with equity managers) you would be payed extra for extra hours, so you have the right to demand it if they don't see that as something obvious.

You don't have to feel guilty for not spending time with your host family

As I earlier wrote, I spend a lot of time in my room (or at my boyfriend's or just somewhere else) when I am not working. This is for me really important. I have to have time for myself and when you work as an au pair your working hours always change. I do never feel 100% free from work until I am out of the house, and I am sure that this is a pretty common way to feel. So let your guilt at home and do just something alone. It can be a walk, reading a book at a café or a whole day in the city. Either with friends or alone.



As people already know I have spent almost eight of my ten months here in Paris now and during my stay many people have asked me "why Paris?". Along the way more and more people have figured out that my boyfriend do live here and have then answered that now they know exactly why I wanted to move here. And I have to say, living in the same city as your boyfriend is great, but it's not why Paris felt like my city.

My dream of moving to Paris and learn french goes far back, and I cannot say exactly when it started but I do remember it came like a bolt from the blue and hit me. Hard. It came before I even visited the city of lights. It wasn't until 2013 I for the first time came to Paris. It was thanks to a project between a few countries in Europe that my flight tickets was booked and took me here. Even if I only had one (or two) days in actual Paris during that stay, I fell completely in love and haven't let the thought about moving here go ever since.

​This is a short story about me and about the start of me moving here. Posts like this, where I tell you stories about me (myself and I) you will be able to find under "About" in my dropdown menu! 

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Lots of love!




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I want to remember that I in an earlier post mentioned that there is a lot of fun things to do here in Paris that do not cost much, if they cost anything at all. For all citizens of countries that are included in Schengen it's free for entering many museums for example. But now the spring have started to come to Paris and then, at least I, don't feel like hanging in a museum when I can finally be outside again. So this weekend, my friends and I decided to try one of the many things you can do the days when the weather is nice.

Since one month ago my friends and I are trying to save as much money as possible by doing things that do not have to cost a lot of money. This weekend we decided to visit one of the over 400 parks in Paris. This time my friend Rachel had set her sight on Buttes Chaumont so there we went. This is a gorgeous park in the 19th arrondessimont, and it's huge. We spent hours in there just walking around, and in the middle of the park there is a hill where you can climb up for a very nice view, although this what not something we this time decided to do.

Me and my friends are all coffee lovers, which means that the next moment we sat down in a small café just a walk away from the park. Our Saturday was after a lot of laughter and nice walks soon over, and meanwhile my friends stayed at a bar the whole evening I went home! 

I have created a category with tips on what you can do for free or a cheap ways to entertain yourself in Paris. You will be able to find this post there and others the more I write!