I don't understand what's with the obsession with names. I know people who keep using quotes from some well-known person, or who ask me if I've read some book or seen some documentary or heard of a person who has been a known follower or a creator of some ideology, or a person who preaches an ideology...

But every time that happens, I think to myself - what the fuck does it matter? Tell me what you have in mind. I'm talking to you, not to some idiot who wrote a book ten years ago to make money from traveling in South America or to "teach" his ideas to people. And I don't care about who created Linux, started IBM or Microsoft, or who is the person with highest IQ in the world.

I don't care! (even though I do know some of the aforementioned names, unfortunately)

What I want when I'm conversing is to hear your thoughts and feelings. And if your feeling is that this guy who's trying to make money with his stupid books that don't even match my own beliefs, well, tell me! But don't get pissed off because I haven't heard of him or if I think he's an idiot, and don't think that I'm stupid because I don't know that. By that logic, I can think that you're fucking stupid because you don't know what's the perfect temperature for making green Sencha tea. Same thing, but at least my knowledge comes in handy if you drink tea. The knowledge about some guy's book or thoughts or that he invented something is absolutely useless to me. I don't know nor want to learn those names.

Maybe for others it is different. I don't know. I'm just annoyed when people look at me as if I was the stupidest person in the world because I don't know some useless fucking stupid name. How about you ask me about quantum physics and we'll see who's the idiot, if knowing or not knowing things is the determining factor whether or not you're stupid. Which is also stupid. If I was like that, I would think that pretty much everybody I meet is stupid. And I have met a lot of awesome people in my life, people who are not stupid and don't know nearly as many things as I do.

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Infectious season is starting (or perhaps it has already begun), and a lot of people both hate and love getting sick. A part of me always liked it back in highschool - then I could stay home! But of course it sucks being sick, so I never wanted to get sick anyway. Not a good enough tradeoff, haha.

However, there are some very easy ways to avoid getting sick, and these ways are actually proven by credible scientific studies.

Keep in mind that none of this is useful if you already have a cold! In which case, just get yourself some homemade ginger tea with real honey and lemon juice. Preferably not outta bottle with a bunch of preservatives, haha.


One thing I do is try my best to eat three medium-sized cloves (or the equivalent) of garlic daily. Since the taste of raw garlic is so harsh (and like most raw plant foods - it has some self-defense-against-mammals toxins - that's why you probably never get a craving for raw garlic taste), the best way to prepare garlic for eating is to cut it up into pieces (or crush it), let it stand for a few minutes, then throw it in a pan that isn't set to extremely high temperature or a pot with water (if you're making soup, for example), then just let it cook for at least a couple minutes. That way you will preserve most of the beneficial things and destroy most of the harmful things in garlic. I just add it to pretty much any food that I'm cooking that day, that way as a spice - I love the taste of garlic in my food.

Note that you have to slice garlic and let it stay for a few minutes, and know that you absolutely cannot microwave it.

Now, what garlic does, is it reduces the chance of getting sick by 60 to 70%! Insane, right? Not only that, but it also reduces the severity and duration of sickness by around 20%. Not as much, but hey - chances are you aren't gong to get sick in the first place if you eat it daily!

And if that's not enough motivation to supplement garlic daily, just Google up (or if someone wants me to - I'll write an article, just ask in the comments) on Garlic's benefits. It has an insane amount of benefits for your health in almost any department.

Vitamin C

Supplementing between 0.5g and 1g of Vitamin C daily (part of which can be gained by eating a healthy diet) will not do much good for not catching a cold unless you do much heavy physical work, but it will reduce the severity of symptoms and duration of sickness by a tenth. Not much, but considering other benefits of Vitamin C, it's worth taking anyway. My favorite way to do that is to use pharmaceutical-grade pure Vitamin C powder. Just don't dilute it in water - it's acid, hence it's bad for your teeth!


Taking 75mg of zinc lozenges when you start feeling very slight symptoms of an oncoming flu or cold might reduce the severity and duration of the sickness, however it can also cause nausea and change your taste perception... If you do decide to take it, you should divide the dose and take it throughout the day rather than in one go. Personally - I would not do that because of the side-effects.

General things to do to avoid getting sick

Wash your hands when you come home from a public place

Eat a healthy diet (do not follow fads!)

Getting enough sleep (depends on your genetics, but for most people it's around eight hours)

Avoiding stress as much as realistically possible (for most - it's not a realistic goal, unfortunately)

Hope this helps someone to avoid cold and flu! Please share your experience in the comments, or any other thoughts, questions, feelings or ideas - I always appreciate input!



I was chatting with someone today, and I wrote something that made so much sense to me...

I was thinking about how much understanding I had (ability to just know the answer without knowing formulas or even hearing the teacher out, reading anything, etc.) in the first few grades, and how it diminished later on, along with my ability to code in various programming languages, and many other things. Somehow all my ability to do these things just diminished immensely over time.

Today, when I was texting with that person, I realized that it could be due to lack of sleep. Back at school, since the very first grade, even since the kindergarden (haha!) I was at my peak performance around midnight, so I would only sleep around 1-2 at first (because I was really, really trying to fall asleep), and later on - at 3-4 (same story, sometimes laying in bed for an hour or two), which eventually turned into 4-5am. I had to wake up at 7:45 or so, and I would often fall asleep way past 5am, meaning I would get between two and three hours of sleep most of the weekdays.

None of that is upbringing, my grandparents - for example - would be tight asleep way before nine in the evening. My mom would try to sleep before ten. I just have a different circadian rhythm - my body starts secreting serotonin later than that of most people, which means that my circadian day starts later than for most people.

Now, another problem was that I only learned things that I was interested in (meaning I would learn a lot on my own, but nothing that they teach at school, or some things that they teach in 12th grade or university, and I was in third or fourth grade, or I was learning things that are up-to-date with the scientific research instead of what they would teach us at school - back from the forties or sixties.

So my problem was that I just had no interest in most things that they taught at school, and those things that I did have any interest in - I either already knew, they were taught in a way that was unacceptable to me (I find the teaching methods to be extremely inefficient, and inefficiency in learning annoys me - I'm very fast-paced at getting things done), or the information was simply outdated, which - when I realized - lead me to being unable to trust what the teachers told us.

How Kids Prepare for Tests

Back at school I used to just read things over and over before the test. I would remember some things, others - I would not due to lack of sleep, very poor diet, and because I was simply not interested in the things I had to remember to get a good grade. I never cared for grades, I always thought it's stupid to learn things that you have no interest in (hence things that are useless for me).

Later I saw a video from TED (very good website - you should watch a lot of those videos... I love it) that was about how kids these days prepare for tests at school. Apparently a lot of kids do the same thing, except they do not have the thinking that I do, which means that they give a lot more time than an hour or so to prepare for the tests. But after the test - they barely remember anything at all! That's because they study for the test, not to have the knowledge (most of it is outdated or useless anyway).

So if you think about that, the school system is absolutely broken and rather useless, it's a waste of at least twelve years of your life. Not to mention that a lot of schools try to indoctrinate various belief systems into their students, and I don't know about you, but someone telling me how to think or what to feel - or worse of all, manipulate me into that - that's the worst thing anybody can do to me.

How Lack of Sleep Affects Your Health Long-Term

Along with everything that I mentioned above, I always had a problem - ever since I was very young - with waking up early and going to sleep early. And it's not my upbringing. It's my genetics.

Lack of sleep during developmental years - when you are growing up - disrupts your brain development. Not only that, but it also disrupts the way you interact with your environment. Meaning that it's harder to concentrate, form memories, access memories, physically interact with your environment, and even severely increases the chance of obesity! I'm a really thin and fit guy though, so somehow that didn't affect me (must be genes), but the rest - I can definitely attest that I had trouble forming memories, I became more clumsy, and I stopped "just knowing the answer". Which basically means that I felt a lot less smart than I was before, which affected my self-esteem a lot. I identify as a smart guy with insane memory, and if I do not feel that - I feel bad.

Lack of sleep - and especially chronic sleep deprivation - also leads to depression, hyperactivity, inattention, impulsiveness, eating disorders (I feel like eating all the time when I am sleep deprived, for example; luckily it doesn't show, haha), anxiety, substance abuse, it increases your chance for heart disease, diabetes, it severely weakens your immunity system, affects your balance, sex drive, makes you irritable, paranoid, affects your digestive system (and pretty much every other process in your body negatively), your body clears less toxins out of your body (even those associated with Alzheimer's, disrupts your creativity and ability to think and reason, severely shortens your lifespan -- I could go on and on... If you don't believe me, all you have to do is Google "sleep deprivation" or "chronic lack of sleep" or something along the lines of that.

And while I would suggest you getting your sleep, I also suggest you following your natural genetic circadian rhythm no matter what. So if you are like me, and you follow this advice, you are basically fucked... Unless you somehow manage to get out of this society, which is a really, really hard task.

Bottom line is - this society is broken for people like me - there isn't many, but a few percent of the population should be enough for the society to be able to account for such people. It angers me that I have to be a part of a society that does not accept it.

My experience in being chronically ​sleep-deprived

I can tell you that I have experienced a lot of these symptoms. For example, by the end of the week I could feel heart palpitations, I wasn't able to concentrate, I would sometimes even forget what I was about to say, my memory formation was impacted, I wanted to eat all the time, I was increasingly more irritable and impatient, my immunity was shot (even though I have really good immunity - must be genes, again), sometimes I would feel paranoid and anxious, and I would simply just feel heaviness in my body... I mean, I was basically unable to operate properly, and eventually I adapted to work around a lot of these things, but it still did not change the fact that these symptoms were there.

The only thing that I did like about lack of sleep was when by the end of the week I was able to lucid dream, or hallucinate in m mind. It was like taking psychedelics, so eventually I just waited for those days and embraced it by daydreaming for insane amounts of time. And sometimes I even miss that... But I know it's not good for me and I do not do it on purpose, because you either have to be awake for over forty hours or stay really sleep deprived for four or five days.

That's my experience. What's yours? I would love to read about your experience in the comments - please share if you wish!



Most people have their preferences for absolutely anything, and that includes on how they use their computer - whether there's many icons on the desktop or not, if their keyboard is loud or quiet, if it's a laptop or desktop rubber-dome keyboard, etc., I could go on for hours!

My preference for typing - and typing is really important for me - is mechanical keyboards. Cherry MX Blue switches, to be precise. However keyboards with those switches cost a lot (namely Das Keyboard), so - being realistic about my budget - I had to look for something cheaper.

That was when I discovered that there are rip-off switches and cheap mechanical keyboards. And since I am very sensitive to everything I experience (light, sound, taste, touch, etc.), I of course wanted to investigate if I would like the blue rip-off switches. That's when I found this comparison of mechanical keyboard switches . Check it out, after you read the rest!

Why use mechanical keyboard?

I used simple rubber dome keyboards since I was a kid, that's the most common type of a keyboard. I don't like them so much, and after a couple (or a few) months they start becoming rigid and the rubber hardens, which makes it rather uncomfortable to type on - at least for me.

Then there's the low-profile rubber-dome, which is the laptop keyboards. Those I am kind of okay with, but... I'm still not that big a fan of them. Not to mention that laptop keyboards often feel rather flimsy.

Then there is the mechanical keyboards, and there are many types of them. The most common denomination is Cherry MX switches - reds, blues, browns and blacks. There are different types from older keyboards, as well as a lot of rip-offs from newer ones. But the idea is that blacks are for gaming - when you press the key, it goes very smoothly, without any feedback (you do not feel it when it is registered as a keypress physically), browns - you feel when they are registered as a click, but you do not hear anything, reds are a mix between browns and blacks, and blues - you feel the click and you hear it pretty loud, it's like a typewriter. Those are the ones I like, although I have not owned a keyboard with blues yet.

Now, the reason why you would want to have a mechanical keyboard is... Well, the feeling! And if you are a practical person, then in theory the keyboard will last you a hell of a lot longer. But that should not be your buying point. Feeling should.

Currently I am looking at one of these two keyboards: E-YUANSU Z-77 87 Keys or TOMOKO 87 Key (backlit). I'm leaning towards the one that isn't backlit, because I noticed that I never look at the keyboard when typing, and when typing I also dislike lights in the background. I also prefer the font on that keyboard over the even more strange font of Tomoko. Although you can always buy new keycaps for mechanical keyboards (that's another advantage!). But, if I had more money, I'd just buy a Das Keyboard, because they - as far as I know - are the best keyboards around for a very reasonable price (around 120eu, I think).

Let me know what you think, if you have experience with such keyboards, and if this article gave you any useful information!

And feel free to ask any questions in the comments, even if you need help choosing a keyboard!



All of those support chats, they keep thanking and thanking you... Do people actually want and like that? Personally - I hate it!

Today, this guy wrote "thank you for being on hold," and sure, it's a nice thing to say in the society, but what I have a problem with is the way he phrased it - as if I had a choice. If I had a choice, I would tell him what to do, he would reply "yes sir, it will be done in five to seven minutes," go do it, then call me back and tell me "It's done sir. Thank you sir, goodbye sir!" and hang up. That's the perfect support that I need. On the other hand, at least this particular guy wasn't an idiot, unlike most of my experience with support guys they hire for $2 an hour from India. Or whatever they do when hiring that's not right, because 14/15 times - they are not qualified to help me and just waste my time before transferring me three or four times and in the end just opening a ticket so that a senior representative could take a look.



Now I have a guy in my life who has an idea of how one should live his (or her) life. His idea is to change yourself to the image that he has for a human (which is heavily based on genders and the widely-accepted theories about gender roles in primal societies).

So according to him, you should want to be that way, and you should also want to change. Whereas my idea is that one should get to know his subconscious mind, his soul, instead of chasing some image, more so - the kind of image that he has for humanity...

One of the things that one absolutely cannot be interested in in his mind, is the occult, the dark and hidden things, the night, the moonlight, the... Basically anything that isn't in the daylight, that isn't in par with the idea of hunter-gatherer human's routine.

And one of my biggest interests - one that is ever-growing - is the occult, the darkness of the night, moonlight, ancient symbols, the supernatural, the unseen... The older I get, the more I feel the need for these things to be a bigger and bigger part of my life. Not sports or exercise (eww; and I'm actually very fit), not having a beer in the evening (ewwwwww!!), not fucking around like a disgusting slut, not waking up at six in the morning.

I like being interested in the occult, the dark and unseen, I like it and I want to stay this way. I hope with all my essence that I will stay like this, and that I will find a girl who wants to be a part of it, together with me, who finds it as attractive in me as I would find it in her.



I feel like some people around me, they just want to make me feel better because they know I'm lonely as fuck, but they do not act genuinely.

By which I mean that their actions - if you take them at face value - are very nice and caring. However, if you look at what they are feeling when they are doing those things, you see that they are pretending and lying and holding back, so SO much, bringing all their feelings and thoughts and emotions behind your back, talking about you and laughing at you. Sometimes, someone says something by accident about someone else, because they see that you know something they don't want you to know, so they have to divert your thoughts towards someone else.

All so complex, and so... Well. I do not know if I want this to continue. I mean, it gives me the possibility to socialize, but at the same time, it takes away the genuineness from the social interactions. At least from their side. I'm genuine, which is why the behind-the-back thing exists in the first place - my personality is too... Unusual, different, alien..

Someone came around earlier today for another reason and he met me, and he was nice and gave me some attention and asked me some weird questions, but wasn't even listening too much... And when he was leaving, I could see that he just wants to get the fuck outta here and doesn't even want to talk to me, and that he is angry about something. Well, in this case I know why, because he is attracted to me, and I am not attracted to male body whatsoever, no matter what's going on in the brain. Which of course frustrates the hell outta him...



I just logged in into my Google Analytics account and they sent me an email (because I've traveled a lot and I don't log in often). The email says "You're getting this email to make sure it was you." but... I don't have to do anything or click anything, they are just letting me know that somebody logged in from Sweden, that's all. They also offer me to click a link to check my "Activity Log", which is basically a list of log ins.

In other words, they aren't making sure shit, they are simply letting me know that someone logged in, and essentially I cannot do anything if they are using my account.

Sometimes, especially if I'm on caffeine, such "nice" language, or "cute" language (or whatever the companies employ these days to make people feel all warm and fuzzy inside in hopes that you are an idiot and will use their service because of the feeling rather than their service) just annoys me so much.

The funny thing is, if you contact their support (although as far as I know, Google doesn't even support email support!!), they give you a standard answer that looks like a copy-paste answer for your question. In fact, since the type of questions I usually ask when I contact support of any company are not standard at all, the standard answers make it absolutely clear that the replying person hasn't even fucking read my message!

Usually after two or three emails I get a more... Human answer. Even so, usually it sounds like an answer by an extremely rigid accountant who's been constipated for the past seven days and hasn't had sex with his wife for past twenty years.

So, save your cute imprecise, indirect, warm and fuzzy speak, and use direct, precise and correct language with me, companies. After all, it's a business transaction, isn't it?

And while I'm at it - fuck anybody who runs a company that operates this way. I don't care how big it is. I would never let my company work this way. It's disrespectful towards the customers and it's annoying as fuck to deal with.



I have always had trouble understanding people who just believe things... My mom, for example, hears some "scientist" speaking on a stupid TV show and she believes them, no matter what they say. She just does. My boss, he goes to lectures of some known people or scientists or gurus, and he just believes them. Doesn't matter what they say.

I just don't get it... I will only believe that peanuts are unhealthy after I read actual research on that, extensive and credible research. And peanuts are unhealthy actually, hah.

On the other hand, I am also annoyed when people don't believe me, but that is because I always do extensive research on the subject, so every time that happens (quite often actually) I get annoyed, but I've to act on that and keep it to myself, because I also understand that, why the fuck would someone trust me? I'm just a simple person who is separated from the rest of the society, and who both knows and believes in a lot of weird shit. Not to mention that my social status is very low, as I have not achieved anything in this society.

But either way, I wanted to express my frustration towards the aforementioned people, as you simply cannot have a discussion with them, because they are not willing to do the research, and since they think their source of information is so credible, there is nothing you can tell them to change their mind or even question the knowledge they have received.

I sometimes think that this is how older people might be, but then again - I need more... Experience with younger people to be able to decide that.



I have always felt like an outsider, and I have been shown that many times throughout my life, too. I accent that, and in a way - I have even grown to like it. Actually, the longer I live, the more I like it. The only thing that bothers me about it is that sometimes I feel bad about it, for it is rather unpractical to be an outsider...

One of my problems is that it's quite hard for me to hide my true emotions, and even if I manage to do that, I feel horrible about it. And since recently I have been quite dependent on other people, I had to devise a way to be with them, when I cannot relate to them, and when they are telling me how to feel and how to think (which is the worst thing you can ever do to me).

That said, I have a very, very strong need to express myself, by which I mean that I just need to be how I am, not pretending or hiding parts of myself. When I do that, I feel so bad.. And to be able to do that, I need a girlfriend rather than people around me. People are there to satisfy the extroverted need to interact (I'm an extrovert).

And so I am back where I began - I need a girlfriend. Now the question is, how do I find a girlfriend when I am not into party girls, when I live in the middle of nowhere, and when I cannot pay 300-400sek/month for each dating site?

However, if you are in a different life situation, where you have full control over your life and are not dependent on anyone whatsoever, you can simply be yourself and let people leave you if they do not accent you as you are. That's very simple to do for some, but others need to be told that, for they feel like there is something wrong with them. But don't! There is absolutely nothing wrong with you, especially if you are different from most people. Then, you are actually an interesting person!



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