The things that were hard to overcome, the reasons why I couldn't smile. The reason was because you both fought and couldn't smile. I don't know but I still remember them all clearly, the fights. I am still traumatized...I sometimes dream that you are making mother cry and scream but you both are actually sound asleep...Sometimes I can't sleep at all so I just sit in bed and think while looking up.. I wish i wasn't traumatized...Because the outcome of it became my depression...but is not also that is also because of the people I have lost and many worries that have caused my depression..."