Pink Salix from Valentine's day.
Pink Salix from Valentine's day.
by Moïra Fowley-Doyle
"It's the accident season, the same time every year. Bones break, skin tears and bruises bloom."
"The accident season has been part of seventeen year old Cara's life for as long as she can remember. Towards the end of October, foreshadowed by the deaths of many relatives before them, Cara's family becomes inexplicably accident-prone. They banish knives to locked drawers, cover sharp table edges with padding, switch of electrical items. But injuries follow wherever they go, and the accident season becomes an ever growing obsession and fear. But why are they so cursed? And how can they break free?"
I'm going to be completely honest and say that it was the book title that drew me in. No matter how horrible it sounds, the Accident Season sounded really intriguing to me. It's different, but at the same time it's not. I really loved it and found it very hard to put down. And as a lover of all thing autumnal, it may or may not have had something to do with the fact that the story takes place in October. I hope I can find more books like this one. Let me know if you happen to have any suggestions!
Does anyone else wish they could just teleport themselves to where ever it is they are going? Because if I got to pick one superpower it would be teleportation.
In the fall I am supposed to start educating myself towards becoming a florist. However, I am also meant to be able to travel by bus. And this is where my anxiety kicks in. It's not riding a bus in itself that I don't like, it's the thought of having to battle anxiety whilst being on the bus, around other people, having to be somewhere at a certain time. I've been through the same scenario so many times and it always ends the same. The thought of going through with this plan makes me feel utterly terrified. Not just because I don't want to put myself in a situation I know I can't handle, but also because I really don't want to fail. Working in a flower shop for the past year and a half has made me realize how much I want to become a florist. A real florist. Someone who feels confident in their work and knows what they're doing. If I'm going to do this, I want to do it wholeheartedly, knowing I did my best and be able to feel proud of myself. Knowing I can manage to do things by myself and feel fine, and to feel independent. Putting yourself out there is what's meant to make things better. There is this block in my head that won't let me relax and enjoy the though of doing something I love. Anxiety takes over and right now, thinking about the things I'd normally be looking forward to is not even possible. I want to do it at my own pace and not because I feel pressuered. Because it's something I want and not because I should be able to feel better by now. Anxiety does not have an expiration date. No matter how much I wish it did. I know people only pressure me for my own good, but going on bus rides all on my own, is not where I am at right now.
Can you believe it's already February? January went by so fast and we've now made it through the first month of the year. How crazy is that. Wednesday is my favorite day at work, it's one of those days when we make lot's of bouquets, chit chat about life and buy smoothies from the cafe' next door. There is something really soothing about early mornings, starting your day at work. We had so many new flowers today and as always I could not restrain myself and I had to make a tiny bouquet with tulips to bring home with me. During these past few months I've fallen in love with tulips, which is not something I ever thought would happen as I've never been a hugh fan of tulips before. But these ones I simply could not resist!
I've fallen head over heels in love with the ruffled sleeves trend. I'm normally not a fan of high necked tops and sweaters as it makes me feel a bit claustrophobic. It looks stunning, but I just can't bring myself to actually wear them. Anyhow, I found this white Rebecca Minkoff blouse a few weeks ago and I love everything about it. Sadly when I went back to have another look at it, it had unfortunately been sold out. It would've looked really nice paired with my high waisted jeans skirt and a silver necklace. I've also been eyeing a white ribbed top with ruffled sleeves but I have absolutely no idea where it's from.
"Little victories are everything in a world where worst-case scenarious are on an endless loop in your head."
"Here's the thing about anxiety: it's not rational, but it's still real, and it's still scary, and that's ok."
As you may have picked up by scrolling through my book recommendation posts, I'm a hugh fan of fantasy books like Harry Potter, the Hunger Games, the Bone Season and psychological thrillers like Gone Girl, Girl on the Train and In a Dark Dark Wood. But every now and then I like to throw in a story that's set in modern time, where things that "could actually happen" happens (I say this as I hope the things happening in psychological thrillers won't actually happen in real life). I'm currently reading A Quiet Kind Of Thunder by Sara Barnard. The story is about 16 year old Steffi who used to be a selective mute. She suffers from social anxiety and finds it difficult to speak around other people. Sign language is her way to communicate and when she meets Rhys, who is deaf, they form a friendship. I stumbled upon this book the other night when I went on iTunes in the hopes of finding new books to sink my teeth into. This is honestly such a good read. As I suffer from anxiety myself I can relate a lot to what the main character is feeling and I think the author explains everything really well. I'm about half way through the book so I can't comment on the ending or on what's to come. But so far I'm really enjoying it and I would definitely recommend it.
Spread A Little Love. ♥
I've been looking for a silver heart pendant for the longest time and when I stumbled upon this tiny heart from Blue Billie I fell in love and knew it was the one I needed. I've paired it with a letter pendant from Glitter and since they didn't have the "50cm" length of the chain that I wanted I paired it with a silver chain that I already owned.
Bouquet I made at work today
Today marks 1 year since we brought our little pug home! He's the most precious and furry little nugget I've ever met & I love him to the moon and back.
Ranunculus, Chrysanthemum, Hypericum, Eucalyptus, Cherry Twig, Blueberry & Seeded Eucalyptus. ♥