Have you ever tried to analyze and question the "structure" of your own mind?
Have you ever tried to understand where your thoughts come from and the "duality" within your own mind?
We all "speak" inside ourself and we're all listening...
If you're the one talking then who's the one listening?
Are you both?
I've tried to "follow" my thoughts and understand where my perception is "located" and where my consciousness resides and the deeper i've gone into this question and the more i've meditated on this, the more of a "duality" within my mind has presented itself.
It's almost like I've shifted something in my mind, like i've taken a couple of steps back from myself in order to see the bigger picture and by doing so the perception of myself and my reality has changed.
The entire feeling and experience of existing has changed.
I can almost locate myself within myself but it's almost like "I" am slightly behind and above my own head but on a different "layer" and my physical body's placed in front of "me" and feels more like something i'm wearing rather than existing within.
This feeling has been growing within me for a while now and while i was meditating 2 days ago i experienced something i've NEVER felt before, my deepest meditation ever brought sensations on a whole new level than ever before and after it the "split" or "duality of perception within me changed even more in this direction.
It's incredably difficult to describe and there is ALOT more to this!
I could probably talk for hours about it without making that much more sense but i hope that someone else out there can relate.
Perception is a hard and wierd subject but it's something that i really want to understand.