Inspired by: Walk with me Lord - Martha Bass

This journey hasn't always been the easiest, God knows that, but I'm thankful for the experiences and what it does to me. How God is shaping me, because He surely is, I'm so much different compared to who I was 2011 before I accepted Jesus as my Lord and Saviour.

What didn't change was my luck. I keep having troubles with people from my past life, I keep getting hurt, I keep doing mistakes. God can change me but sin still exist around me. What I'm asking God to do when I'm so down I don't want to exist, I want my life to this point to just disappear, is for Him to listen. To hear my heart hurt (hhh 😅), and go through it with me. I can't do anything else. And so He gets me through it. And what has happened after many sessions like this, praying and crying, is that when the next thing that knocks me off my feet happens; I'm a little stronger, I'm not prepared but I handle it differently. I know that God has been with me through worse things and kept blessing me and showing me His love.

No, the pain never ends, but I'm so happy for the way God has shaped me into handling pain. 

Walk with me Lord.

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Today I went to my sister who lives an hour away from me. We had lunch, let the kids play, had tea and ice cream and then we were off to a nearby beach. While the baby napped me and the toddler jumped around on the cliffs and had some quality time together, I think that we both really needed that!

I get so inspired by this place! I have only known about it for 6 years (I think?) but I go there every year at least once and take my time to wander around and think about life and love and God and just feel so inspired. I love the view, the horizon and when you can't see land on the other side just sea. And it also brings back good memories from that very spot, special memories and feelings.

Cousins playing. Ines had a lot of fun discovering the texture of wet sand.

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Lately I've been combining housework with looking at kitchen furniture, wallpaper and floors. I figured doing one room and only thinking of one thing at a time is the best way to do it.

Unfortunately this cutie decided she wants to eat all night through even if she's having oatmeal for breakfast and dinner and vegetables for lunch! 3-5 hours of sleep per night for a couple of weeks does things to the brain, can't concentrate anymore and keep forgetting things, and been to tired to do anything but the necessary for a while.


Here's some inspiring pics on what I like, what we like, and what colors and materials we'd like in the kitchen. I'm actually ordering the kitchen tomorrow, so it should arrive just when the concrete in the newly made place for the wood burning stove is dry. Hopefully what we have on our minds will look good!

So lucky for us that the husband can do mostly everything himself, but things that require a certificate someone else is doing and those are the things that will take the longest. I don't really want to think about anything else than getting the kitchen and bathroom and at least one bedroom ready so we can move in already 😁

I've got big plans for the new home! Only it will be doable in one or two years, when We're settled in and Ines is a bit older.

Still so thankful that God made this possible.

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...and just in time; we bought a house! Somehow I don't even have time to write about it even if I thought I'd be posting updates on the work around the house every day.

Anyway, for now it's only been ripping and tearing and lots of work to get all the old stuff, walls, floors, furniture out of there so we can start renovating. And by "we" I of course mean the husband who is doing everything himself. Whenever Ines is asleep I try to do what I can but mostly I'm just there watching and planning on how to do everything. It's very satisfying since everything is going so fast, in my opinion, suddenly a wall is open, a floor is gone and so on. D says it goes too slow 😁

I'm so happy and at the same time it all feels so unreal, I had almost lost all hope the we would ever find a house in the village we've lived in since 2013. I'm feeling so very blessed and thankful for this house. And it's absolutely a dream house at least for me, I'll tell you more once I have more pics!

Right now D is on the ferry to Sweden as he is going to pick up a stove he bought from someone in Sweden. I love the idea of a wood burning stove in the kitchen, so we're trying to design the kitchen with one. I have such a good feeling about the future in the new home and it's all God's work that all of this is happening ❤️ So happy that God blessed us with such a nice house that fulfills our needs just perfectly! The surroundings, location, everything is perfect!

The road to home!

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​Well, I'm not that active anymore here but I blame life. I've got too much to do. But just now two girls are asleep right beside me and I'm not yet that tired and recently I've been grieving the fact that my grandmother no longer exist on earth, so I wanted to write about that. I keep forgetting she doesn't exist because I barely ever visited her the last couple of years. I felt so uncomfortable around her when she always forgot who I was and she seemed so uncomfortable herself. For example she loved getting a massage, and once I asked if she'd like me to massage her shoulders and she didn't quite answer so I went on massaging and she got so upset or nervous and didn't like it at all. Something that she used to almost pay me to do before she got Alzheimer's. And now, same thing is slowly happening to my favourite oldsters, my dad's dad and my mother's dad. Not quite sure if they will get Alzheimer's like my grandmother, but they're both on the verge of getting dementia. 

Morfar, my mother's father. The chef and the golf player. Always cooking for everyone, always has time for the grandkids. I cherish the moments whe we go and visit him and the kids are asleep and we have tea together and he talks about old times. Been living in Sweden for the last 60 years I often feel like he's the youthful and modern one and I'm the old and conservative of us 😅 He's so open minded, and he knew before me about water bottle challenge and fidget spinners 😁 We also look at art together since I brought him to a exhibition once.

Farfar, dad's dad. The farmer and the sport enthusiast. I think everyone in the town he lives in knows who he is and about his interest in sports. He used to be among the oldest in the competitions and still better than many of the young ones. Mostly skiing. When I was a kid we didn't really hang, other than when he'd show me skiing teqniques and talk endlessly about things I didn't care for, or we'd go driving in his pickup and he'd show me big places like Metsä botnia (cellulose factory that didn't interest me at all at the age of 5😂). It was when I was 14-15 and he taught me how to drive a tractor and would take me working with him, show me his fields and forests, when we would talk and enjoy each other's company. In his case it seems like getting older opens him up more, he seems softer and not so stressed or workaholic likes he's always been.

Here seen with my daughter Ines. I'm so grateful to have these two in my life still, since I no longer take for granted that they will remain the same when I see them the next time. I hope none of them will forget me and I hope I get to spend more time with them than I got with my grandmother before she forgot me completely. I took her for granted and when I found out she wouldn't remember me much longer I had so much drama and fighting in my relationship so it took all my energy and I didn't find the time to go and visit my grandmother. That's one thing I'll always regret, and I will keep missing her for the rest of my life.

I somehow got so sentimental now, of course when writing about things like these, but I was quickly brought back to reality when trying to say something to D and he answered me with a fart, not hearing a word I said with his headphones on ✌🏼️😂 Good night

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I've been really tired for a while, tired like in tired of cleaning, cooking, folding laundry, listening to noise and today I thought it was my turn to spend some time alone at an art exhibition but I thought wrong. It made me so disappointed, and I feel like my needs aren't on the priority list at all, and still I'm the one in charge of everything at home, meeting everyone's needs and making sure everyone is fine. A friend of mine said once; no one is thinking of you so you have to do it yourself.

I guess that's so. So I'm going to think of me. Been suffering from tight muscles in my neck for half a year now, as soon as I find a willing babysitter I'm off to a masseur.

And since I'm the only one in the household who doesn't get anything for my birthday, I'm getting me something for myself. A cleaning kit for the car/outside 😂 Doesn't matter what the purpose if it's something I really want!

As for the picture, I've always felt so calm at sea. I think most people enjoy the view of a horizon at sea. Another view I never get tired of is a sky full of bright stars, an old forest, fire, big green fields in my hometown and sunsets. Since I'm the only one caring for me I better start taking me to see these things now and then until I can combine little sleep at night with the dishes, laundry, cooking, shopping, cleaning without going crazy eventually. Maybe in a couple of years I will be a different kind of tired 😁


I actually have the best kids in the world, the most caring and loving persons I could ever share my life with and if it wasn't for them I'd lose it already because of all the bullshit I have to handle now and then. Taking care of them is something I love to do, it's just that I need to be a little bit taken care of myself to get the energy to carry on!

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It doesn't happen often, maybe once a year at most, but today I got a migraine.

It all started when I had my oldest son and the doctor accidentally punctured something near my spine, and after that I had migraine for a week and it keeps coming every once a year. I sense it immediately since it all starts with me losing parts of my sight, at that point I take painkillers throughout the day and I still have headache and nausea, but it's nothing compared to what it would be like without painkillers. Then I'd go blind within hours and have the worst pain in my head ever, can't talk cant write and when I intend to say juice I say orange or fruit, and so on. So I'm happy with the headache and weakness! Everybody who has migraine every week; all of my respect to you!

Today we went to look at a house (what is it, the fifth, sixth this spring? And we really don't do it for fun, we only look at the houses we are interested in buying).

I really liked it and what it can be, but it required a lot of renovation. And sadly, the location isn't the best. But you can't always have the best. At least this is the best so far. Now we'll just pray that God shows us whether it's His plan we buy it or not. To be honest, the part that scares me the most is moving somewhere I don't know anyone or very few.

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No matter how hard life ever gets, there will always be a new morning, and a way back to the light. It is worth the effort of turning around and letting in the light.

I dare to say that I've had more crises in life than most people my age, living in Scandinavia. It never gave me an excuse to turn my back against God however. He planted eternity in every human's heart, deep inside I knew He was reaching out His hand to me and all I had to do was to reach it. And peace came. Because peace is the one true thing everyone wants in life, no matter what you're life may look like and where you are peace is what you need. Peace that lasts for a while the world can give you, but peace that passes all understanding only He can give.

He has made everything beautiful in its time. He has also set eternity in the human heart; yet no one can fathom what God has done from beginning to end. Ecclesiastes 3:11

Then you will experience God's peace, which exceeds anything we can understand. His peace will guard your hearts and minds as you live in Christ Jesus. Philippians 4:7

I'm so delighted it's spring again and there's light again! Nature is awakening! He breathed life into us, he gave us a spirit of life, and as things grow, breathe and live we know it's His will. Glory be to God, for this day, this life and the joy and warmth He fills my heart with even when I'm hurt, I can feel joy because He already felt my pain. (Surely he took up our pain and bore our suffering, yet we considered him punished by God, stricken by him, and afflicted. Isaiah 53:4)

I really just wanted to write about my big zink herb pot where I had some rosemary, peppermint, lavender and oregano growing last year and I think at least the peppermint is coming again this year. The pictures somehow reminded me of greater things, just what I needed.

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Yesterday we went off-roading with the baby. It took blood, sweat and tears before we were out of the forest. The youngest son slipped on a stone and scratched both knees and hands. Despite of the little accident we had a nice little walk. I could go on admiring and studying the colors of nature in springtime forever, and the sons who spend most of their time outside this time of years couldn't understand my fascination at all.

Sadly, my favourite forest, which has shrunk by at least 3/4 since I was a kid, is located 20 minutes from here. It's such a privilege to grow up near a forest I think. I remember as a kid I thought paths filled with fir needles was the most common view and big trees with snow on them, now it's such a rare view to me I find it so beautIful I have to take a picture of it each time.

These here 👆🏼, called struvor, and mjöd (lightly fermented drink), putting a white cap on and going on a picnic in the spring sun could be the most Finnish-Swedish thing ever.

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