It seems people in certain circles like to use the words "God's will" quite a lot.
"It's has to be God's will", "according to the Bible it's God's will", and so on. And that the Lord said this and that. I'm no one to tell what really is God's will and what the Lord really said, but I do think that those words are used one or two times too often too. For instance, once I had a very bad anxiety attack, and texted the pastor of my church to pray for me, not mentioning for which reason, and he didn't reply. I simply thought he read my message and prayed. Later on I heard that "the Lord had told" him to not text back since I was just trying to get attention from boys and that's why I texted him. In that case I know that the Lord knew I surely wasn't fishing for attention from a married pastor.
In my case, I'm just too naive to think that my brain works or I could think of any good decisions in different situations so I usually ask people about their opinion on everything. And, sometimes people think that it's God's will to do certain things and when someone says that I almost immediately agree on that too, and later on regret my decision.
Why do people so easily say that "the Lord told me" or "it's God's will"?
I don't know. I don't think I've ever known what's God's will. And after have been Christian for a while, and taken advice from people who like using these terms, I now start getting suspicious whenever I hear those words. They kind of have the opposite effect on me now. I immediately in my mind question whether it really was from God or not. The more people talk, the more they have to say about others and what's right or wrong, the more sceptic I feel towards them. And the same people often leave me more stressed and very chaotic or sad on the inside too. I can't tell why, but some people just seems to spread some kind of disharmony around them. Sadly the same people often have leader positions in church.
I have a friend. He's often quiet when I talk about my problems. He never judges me, never tells me what to do or not, never talk about what other people do or not, but do tell me if I've done something wrong in his opinion. (But the thing is when he thinks I've done wrong it's usually some advice I've taken from other which never felt good).
He never says what's God's will or that the Lord told him things, when he wants me to listen to his opinion on something.
When he prays I can feel God close to me, I feel loved and I feel like I've been a fool trying to do this and that for God's kingdom, I feel like I don't have to do or prove anything before God. I feel peace, and I feel happy. Through the years I've learned that quiet people are maybe the best. I've got maybe two or three friends like this.
Being a Christian is certainly not easy, I understand why it's called the narrow path. You get talked into things, trust the wrong people only because they're Christian and have been for longer and knows more that you, you get judged and you feel guilty at all times. People abuse words from the Bible all the time. It's really hard when the loudest people seems to be the most stupid, but those are the ones who gets heard. And the quiet ones, who's got something to say never gets asked, even if their wisdom is so much bigger.
Sin is not ended by multiplying words, but the prudent hold their tongues. (Proverbs 10:19)
This is what I've been thinking about.
While doing Autumn stuff.