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I was fine this morning but now I'm depressed again.
I fucking hate my bipolar disorder...
What have I done to deserve all this shit?!

Been taken 8 calming pills now and they work because I'm kinda relaxed and tired, problem is that something in my brain won't shut down...
I'm taking my anti depressive pills and my pills for the bipolar everyday... but it's still like this at the moment...

My psychologist said that this happens like 3 or 4 times per year even though you're taking all your medicines so they can't obviously don't don't do anything about it...

I'm dead and broken inside and I don't know what to do anymore..
Just have to try to stay strong and trying to be positive.
I'm really doing my best to keep a smile on my face etc etc. But it's hard...

Doing all I can to feel better, exercise and taking walks everyday, writing and stuff like that...

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Hey guys!
I just wanted to give you guys some tips of what I'm using for my hair. plus vitamins I'm eating.

2 months ago I had a meeting with my doctor because we needed to find out if I have fibromyalgia, and I have that shit unfortunately.
They took tons of blood tests plus pee tests.
They saw that I had lack of D vitamins so he wrote me a prescription of D vitamins that I'm eating now
Weird thing is that I'm out everyday and taking long walks but I still got lack of D vitamins.

Yesterday I also bought B vitamins with ALL B vitamins in it.
I also take pills for the hair that makes the hair grows faster, getting thicker etc etc.
You have to take 2 pills per day and I'm getting 60 pills every month sent home to me. It's a prenumeration, very cheap too!

Anyways I will post some pictures of what I'm using for my hair.

So guys, buy these things, it's amazing for your hair!

(The Pantene oil you use after washing your hair, it's E vitamins in it. The Revlon unique One you use in wet new washed hair)

And remember to ALWAYS use conditioner after the hair mask.

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There's no sense, the fire burns, when wisdom fails, it changes all, the wheel embodies all that keeps on turning...
Blood red skies, I feel so cold no innocence, we play our role the wheel embodies all, where are we going?
All in all you'd expect the wise to be wiser, fallen from grace all and all I guess we should have known better because...
What about us, isn't it enough?
No we're not in paradise, this is who we are, this is what we've got, no, it's not our paradise!
But it's all we want and it's all that we're fighting for, though it's not paradise...
You and us, or I and them, there comes a time to take a stand, the wheel is watching all that keeps on burning, the venom works.. it's like a curse...
A Trojan horse when will we learn, the wheel embodies all that keeps returning...

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I have strong feelings for you.
when I look in to your eyes I can see the whole universe and I'm melting inside.
it hurts but it feels right..
My heart is beating for you, only you.
I want you, but that will never happen.
You make me smile and you make me happy.
I dream about you every night.
I can't stop thinking about you.
You're always in my head.
The strong feelings are painful but I can handle it.
I can see the sadness and pain in your beautiful eyes.
All I want is to make you happy.
This world may have failed you, it doesn't give the reason why, you could have chosen
a different path of life...
You know I'll find you, I'm there behind you...
We must face our truth..
I'm calling, I'm crawling, towards you..
I cry out your name afraid of what I'll find..
I'm frozen to touch your hand, but I'm ready to start over again...

(I won't mention the name, you know who you are)

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