So I know I'm a horrible blogger since I haven't been writing anything for over a month. BUT I have a really good explanation for it: #1 I've been working at a office and #2 I've been kind of sick (I'm still a little sick but my energy is coming back so that's good news). And I think office work is hard and exhausting... anyways I've been so tired and I didn't really know what to write. I hope you guys forgive me...
And now to my actual update. Last Saturday my brother and I were hanging out together doing flowers of wire. It was really fun to get to do something with him because we haven't had the time to do anything together. And I don't even know how I got him to paint wire flowers, but I'm happy he did. It's not really paint, it's nail polish... but that doesn't matter.
So, today has been an awkwardly weird day. Well, I started it off by celebrating with my mum, my dad and my little brother. Then we went to see my other grandmother, since we went to see my mum mum yesterday.
No for the past I don't know maybe three hours I've kind of tried to figure out how to ask a guy to be my dance partner. One of my friends, Sofia, has tried to tell me I should just tell him that I'd like to dance with him. You see, I socially awkward and there's like three to five guys I actually talk to at school, but I don't know them half as well I should. I kind of feel like I talk mostly to him than the other boys, but I'm shy and can't help it that I so strange when I'm around boys, like I can't be myself because if I were myself I'm sure no boy would talk to me after that. I've never been good with boys and I love dancing, so the hardest part is to know how to ask him. Well after I had been texting him for a while it turned out that he had 't planned to dance at all and that made it even worse. Sofia was telling me to just ask him, that if I asked him he might change his mind, but I can't. I just can't ask him! Sofia still thinks I should ask him, but I don't know I'm not going to ask anyone I guess. He's the one I think I know most of, but probably not. I don't really know anything about any other boy than my little brother. And I'm totally done! I just don't know how to talk to guys. Maybe I should give up. If anyone reads my blog and comes up with good advice on how to talk with boy, what to talk about with boys, how to not get nervous around boys, or anything else please comment below. I would be very happy if someone wanted to help me boost my self-confidence a little bit. So so comment below and help me become more confident around guys.😊 So thankful for help!
Ps. Here's some pictures from my trip to my grandmother's house.😊
Hard work comes first, then after that we can relax. Don't you think? School work can be so damn stressfull! So I haven't had that much time to write to you guys... Last night I had to write a five pages long essay for Swedish! I love learning, but right now I just feel way too tired for homework. I'm so glad it's friday night and I finally get to relax. It's been such a hard week, maybe mostly because on monday we're supposed to choose our courses for the second year of upper secondary school and one of the courses is a course for the school dance. Me and my friend would love to ask these two boys to be our dance partners, but I guess we're just too shy and scared to actually do it. You see we're not exactly the type of girls who would talk a lot with boys. We're just too weird for any boys to like us or to even understand us. Our other friends don't even stress about the course, well their not thinking on asking any boys to the dance they're just going to wait for course and see what boys are going to be there. Maybe we should just take the chance that the boys already have pairs... maybe it's for the best. Anyways, it's nice to get a night without homework. No runs today because it was raining, I do love rain but today it just felt a little depressing. Somehow it feels like the fact that I got to wear comfy clothes when I got home makes the day a little better. Well, now I'm off to drawing, it's going to be nice to see what it turns out to be!
Today was stressfull and long.... I felt so lucky when I went for my evening walk. A little meditation session on the little hill near my home and I feel as good as new! I just love nature and I don't know what I would do without my relaxing walks... 😁😊
I'm sorry about such a short update... I love you all!😘
So this year I went to my friend Sofia's place to celebrate first May, witch is like a holiday here in Finland or sort of a big thing. We had alot of fun watching movies and going for a walk the night before. Sleepovers are just a fun and girly thing to do. And when it was finally first May we went downtown to have some more fun. It was kind of cold outside that day... so what's a better thing to do than to go to Robert's Coffee for hot chocolate? Well, everything went great and I hope people didn't think we were too weird. And we're even planning on going for more fun little adventures, we don't know when and we don't know where BUT we will... someday, sometime, at least we have a little more time to think where we'll go next. Maybe we'll see you soon, or probably not sice I have a feeling most people don't come back here after they have been here once, but that does not mean I am going to stop writing :)
First May is also my dear little brother's birthday. He's fourteen now! So my baby's a big boy now, but he'll always stay my little baby brother... "I know you love me!" (poke's brother).
Hopefully everyone else has had a good time this year, I know we had. Maybe next year we'll have just as an amazing time as we did this year.
I wish you were here by my side like you used to be, Now all I can do is run away from the truth, I put my headphones on and sink deep down, I sink to the melody that we once sang, I love you my friend and so it will be, They can't tell me to give up, I know you're coming home some day.