A world filled with many distractions,
Temptations and trials.
Its where I live in.
Not surely proud, not entirely ashamed.
But this is where I really live.

Activities that are floating around with no limits,
No restrictions, and nonstop.
It gets my attention all the time.
Faced with this kind of crisis,
The power of my purpose taps my reserved energy,
My determination, and my courage-
That I didn't know I had.
My mission was clear,
It was clear as a crystal.
My goal was irresistible,
Enthralling me at its finest.
My focus was laser-like,
The accuracy was steady.
And my potential was utilized.

Most of us- dearly humans,
We live our lives by focusing on what we have to do.
The endless, mountain-like tasks continues,
And we even wonder-
"Why do I feel like I'm not getting ahead?"
Yes, it feels like we're sprinting on a treadmill,
Running in loops- just trying to keep up.
Then hopefully,
Finish the task completely-
And replace it with new ones.

But with a clearer sense of our purpose-
It'll enables me, you, them, to focus.
Focusing all our efforts on what matters most,
Compelling us to take risks,
And push forward regardless of the odds,
Regardless of the obstacles, of the hindrances.

Life gets simpler-
When we know our priorities,
When we discover what's really important,
When we always ask why, or ask questions.

These things might sound simple,
But that doesn't make things go easy.

In a world full of expectations-
Expectations placed on us by others,
Expectations placed on us by ourselves.
Some people, Some of them,
Will look at us strangely.
However,
Once we examined our life,
Examined eagerly, with determination,
A lot of patience, and through the lens of WHY-
We'll start questioning ourselves,
"What's important to me?"

Step away from what society expected of you, from you.
Start focusing, Start refining-
The expectations you expected of yourself.
Do it-- and when you do,
You'll see the world I live in,
You live in, We live in-
In an entirely different view.

Running through the maze of life,
Bumping into a lot of troubles and glooms,
Meeting different kind of individuals,
Facing what society really, truthfully is,
Doing the best we can to find our way out,
Our way out ​of the seemingly unending nightmare-
It's not easy. It was never easy.
But what we're doing here, right now, matters.

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If I'm being honest, I knew I'm not good enough, for me and mostly for you.
I really wanted us to be right for each other; a match, an even pair, and equal partners.
But I knew that wasn't the truth I have to face with.
Throughout all of the this and that, these and those.
I kept coming back, and still coming back to that one thought;
"I will never be good enough for you."

No, you didn't do anything wrong.
You didn't do anything to make me feel this way.
It's just something I knew in my bones, deep within me.
And still find myself babbling the words;
"I will never be good enough for you."

You are good.
You are a good person who wants and does good things.
Everything about you are practically made of sunshine.
And look! Look at who we are in an objective way.
I will never be good enough for someone as wonderful as you.

I will never be the person you want.
I can be but a shadow of that person, working my ass off to get there.
But even if I do strive really hard, I never will.
Something will always be missing.
Some flaw and something that isn't right.
My clothes are wrong.
My hair is out of place.
My skin isn't behaving.
Now this I ask of you,
"Am I good enough?"

And no, that's not it. There's more!
I'm not funny.
Not entertaining.
I'm not good at holding your attention.
I'm not smart enough.
I don't know about the things I should do.
The right things.
Whatever I'm contributing to the conversation just isn't working.
I'm trying too hard. I'm getting desperate. I'm being aggressive.
Because I just want to be good enough!

I can try as hard as I want, but.. there's too many but's.
I can't be, I will never be as good as you are.
Or as the man you want me to be.
But that's why I want to be around you.
The more I am around you,
The more worthy I'd become.

That's not the way it works, I know.
I just started to feel worse.
I was that bad news bears,
A check in the negative column,
A no-good influence on your life.
I'm all messed up.
But you- YOU ARE GOOD.
You are amazing.
You are perfect and honest and loyal.
And you, you are good enough.

You're like a butterfly.
You're the rainbow after every storm.​
And me?
I'm just some less-than sticking a pin in your back.
Stinging the words that I can't spout;
"I will never be good enough for you."
The idea depresses me.
It's depressed me since I realized it-
That it was true.
But I don't know what to do.
You deserve so much better than someone like me.

I want to be worthy of you.
I want to make myself- deserve to have you.
I just don't know where to start.
The how's and every thing in between.
How can I ever grow into that person who deserves you?
That person, if they aren't me, will be amazing.
That person, will be good enough.
That person, will be the person I failed to be.
That person, isn't just good but better.

But for now,
I will try.
I will try my best to be worthy because-
I want to be good enough for you.


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