when i lie awake at nigh gazing up at the stars many thought cross my mind. only at this time of day can my mind drift of and the process of overthinking begins and consumes me. to identify ones feelings may be hard but to work through them and expressing them can be harder. i am a person full of emotions ripping the inside of my ribe cage to get out and to fill this world with its passion but to pass they need to be identified. I am a person full with feelings i can not express. i can only explain how they feel and ill try to do so. the warm tingly feeling you get in your belly when he compliments your eyes and touches your hand. it’s exiting and new and every time he leans in to kiss you, you can feel your heart skip a beat. the wave of anxiety that hits you when the person you trusted your life with is the one to barry the knife in your back. the feeling when your eyes tear up and then roll over like a flood during raining season. i realized that all these feelings often haunt me causing me different amounts of distress. during me years i have discovered that the only way to let these feeling out is to let them consume all of you. let them take over and dominate, be one with your madness and be one with your happiness. let the passion pulsing in your veins explode and cover everything around you. The only way to get rid of the emotions that are causing you to not sleep at night is to accept that they are a part of you and to learn how to co exist with them. they re a part of you and just like a human they grow, feed and evolve into bigger and stronger beings. baby, the thing i love the most about you is that the passionate glow in your eyes, the child in you is still not dead and i hope you do the best to never lose that part of you. as we grow up we learn to cover and disguise our emotions because we know that simply nobody cares, so why cant I. writing helps, writing helps a lot. the ink that fills the paper at the same time drowns my soul. so i fill papers to avoid to feel. but sometimes even that is not enough and i only have one last resort left, to bad i haven't found what that might be yet.
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