Hello there beautiful!
Today is Self Injury Awareness Day and I was planning on writing something really smart and fancy (
and not all over the place) about it all and wear more orange than you even would have thought was possible. But it's now less than 30 minutes left of this day and I still don't know what I want to say...
Which sucks because I want to say something that magically makes all the fucking 'cut, cut jokes' stop and make the staring and the pointing and the whispering and it all go away! I wish I could make everyone understand that self harm is not only young girls posting pictures of their cuts on tumblr, it's a serious issue that needs treatment! It affects people of all ages, genders, sexualities, etnicitets... anyone(!)
I wish I could make people understand that self harm is a lot more than just cutting.
I wish I could make people understand that really it's just the worlds shitties coping mechanism.
I wish I could make people understand that they can't expect people with scars to always wear long sleeves, even Sweden get's hot during the summer!?
I wish I could make people understand not everyone who self harms want to die
I wish I could make people understand everything about self harm! That would be really fucking great actually!
But mostly I wish I could travel back in time and tell 13 year old Penny that nahh, that whole self harm thing really isn't a good idea. (now I probably wouldn't have cared because I'm stubborn as fuck but still...). I wish I could have told myself how fucking hard it is to quit and how god damn annoying it's going to be to spend all of your teenage years hiding and lying because the world is offended by scars. I wish I could've told myself that some of the people I will call my friends will tell me "remember, it's down the road not across the street" and laugh. Because apparently that's supposed to be funny... you will never really understand why it's funny, but they'll tell you it's just a joke and that you shouldn't be 'overreacting'. However, I have all the right in the world to be offended because jokes are supposed to be funny and that is not funny in any way.
But I guess I just have to realize I can't do any of that, because nothing I say on this day will change the world or the way the world sees self harm (and I'm not a time traveler). I can however talk about it today and every other day, because that's really what's going to make a difference.
Oh and I can share this video that Laura made on SIAD in 2013, because it's pretty darn good and it's real cute.