I have come to that point in life I just don't know what to do any longer..
I miss the feeling of being loved.. but at the same time, I'm afraid of commitment...
But at the same time... it feels so good being close to you..
Should I give it a chance or should I pass?
I'm afraid of being used again..
I don't wanna be someone's toy..
Not again..
I wanna have the feeling of being free in the relationship..
but at the same time, I don't wanna be to free..

At least I have been self-harm free now for around a week.
I miss the feeling but I wanna be stronger than that.
This time I gonna win over you.
Even how sad I get and how dark my life gets.
It's time that I show who's the strongest.

Life sucks being transgender.. all that hate you get..
But at the same time its one of the best thing that has happened to me...
This is a wonderful journey.
And all of you that's part of this means a lot to me.
Thank you for being here!
So much have happened even without hormones...
The left picture is from when I started feeling transgender...
And the right is few days old.

If you read all this. i just want to tell you i love you.

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I wanna get my lip pierced...
I wanna do the spider bites...
I'm scared to tell mommy since I know she doesn't like piercings.
And I'm afraid as fuck of needles
GIVE ME TIPS HOW TO TELL MY MOM THAT I WANT PIERCING Please <3

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I don't understand...
I'm doing my best to be there for everyone...
But I just hurt people...
My dark thoughts are back...
My thighs hurt again...
I have felt back to all the self-harm again...
I really wish it was so simple to stop...

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Today was the last day that I help my grandpa
Tbh it has been good to be outside for once!
I have had a lot of time just by myself and music as I work.
And i gonna ask my mom if i can let Mimmi color my hair!!!
I'm not just sure yet what i wanna have for color.*
Comment down below what color i should dye

I got my schedule for college
I going to have long days..
I going to start 8am and my day ends at 5pm.
Even the long days I can say I really are excited to start!

Should I go to school with choker or without? I don't wanna scare away everyone from me that I will get to know

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Today I spent the most of my day at my grandpa and helped him with little stuff
I was there with my younger cousin.
And we are going to go back there tomorrow to finish up what we started today.
And I gonna apply for a job today
I really hope I get it.

The days are counting down, It's 25 days left until I meet my best friend
I really cant wait until I meet you!
I can't wait to spend the weekend with you!
Your my pill that makes me happy when I'm sad!
Thank you for always being here for me <3

Love you guys and I hope every one of you is having a good day or had a good day!

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Why do I always hurt people around me?
I hurt them or I push them away....
I'm just getting so tired of myself....

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Sometimes I just don't know if I should cry or not... right now I feel like I'm gonna break...
I don't have anyone that I can talk to like I used to...
I know I have people around me that care about me... but I'm so afraid of letting someone close...
People are using my weakness against me...
I have to be strong... but that's really hard to be when you never get time to heal before getting hurt again...
I have got used to getting hurt... but it still hurts every time...
how can you deal with so much pain as I do?
I more and more want to just leave this life...
But I won't...
Since I have so many that cares about me and since I love my girlfriend

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I can't until I meet you now.
it's getting more and more real every day
I can say I see you as my bigger sister
I'm not sure yet what we are gonna do.
But I think we will find something awesome to do.
I CANT WAIT UNTIL I GET A HUG FROM YOU <3


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I don't understand people...
I got to know a girl....
And when some people started to hurt her...
So I said it's enough and leave her alone...
Then all of them started to jump on me and give me shit
ALL I WANTED WAS TO HELP
So they started to call me stuff
So I'm a retard, fucktard and more...
Why can't people just be nice
maybe I should stop helping people...?

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Why is everyone throwing all their shit on me...
I know I'm unstable... but that doesn't mean you can start throwing on me....
That's not the first time that people makes their problems mines...
I struggle so hard to smile and you are the only thing that brings up my light from all this darkness...
Only cuz I easy get sad doesn't mean I'm always sad.
I'm doing my best to make people happy... why can't people just see that and instead of throwing shit at me for trying....
I don't understand people that can't stay out of other problems...
IF IM UPSET CHEER ME UP OR SHUT THE FUCK UP.
Don't come here and think you know me.
Can't you see that I'm hurt?
Thanks to you im crying more then ever...

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