In this job, when you have days off you don´t want to stay at home and just "chill". Because of the days off are so few you want to actually get up early and do stuff. For example one could take the ferry over to Isla Mujeres and enjoy a full day driving a golf cart around this Island, drinking coconuts and taking cool pictures. At least that is what I did.
Chichen Itza is one of the modern seven wonders of the world. The place it self is just so historically important, mainly for the Maya people. They watched the stars here during hundreds of years to be able to make their calendar. They could also predict eclipses years before they actually occurred. The Mayan where just years ahead of their time in mathematics, architecture and astronomically. That is why this place is so important. There is just so much information and history connected to this place. After visiting this place one time I was then 5 weeks later expected ti guide a tour here in Swedish. Wow! Can you imagine how much I was studying for this excursion?! Loads and loads of compendiums, information and also that i need to remember it when standing in front of the guests. Fortunately I was already guiding guding some tour back in Sicily, Etna and Randazzo for example, so I already kind of knew how to do it.
There is a 2hour bus ride to get to Chichen Itza. So obviously I had to update the world on how the tour was going via Snapchat.
As you can see, El Castillo (the pyramid) has four sides with 91 steps on each side. If you add these steps that equalls 364 steps. Which is suppose to symbolise one year for us. Since one year is 365 days and then a leap day each 4 years. One of the pyramids sides has a snake coming down from the top of the pyramid and down to the ground. This snake honors the Mayan history where a blue eyed man came down from the sky, out of this snakes mouth and down to the Mayans. He then teaches them mathematics, architecture and how to watch the stars properly. So this is why the Mayans where so cleaver. Anyhow once every sixth month, 21st of mars and 22nd of September, when the sun is perfectly lined up with the walls of the pyramid it looks like the snake is coming down into the ground. Thanks to reflections of the walls it looks like the snake is slingering on its way down to give the mayans their knowledge.
I started this day off in the best possible way. Woke up at 6am and went to a really hard Crossfit session. Yassss I´m going to get strong this year you better watch it queens. Anyhow I was suppose to pick up my friends in Playa Del Camren but I was sooo late due to the Cancun traffic. Gooood it´s really bad you guys.
I finally arrived and it was time for beach day! Yasss! We found this really cool not at all touristic place with the best beach! It also had a super cool signed that I took so many photos of (hihi). It was truely a great and relaxing day with a lunch at a beach club in Tulum.
There is actually a place in Mexico that has turtles swimming close to the beach. The place is called Akumal and it is absolutely breath taking as you can see. The turtles come here every day to eat the sea grass that grows here. Akumal beach has quite a lot of rules how to behave next to the turtles and also how to behave among the seaweed. For example you are not allowed to have any sun screen on. You are also not allowed to put your feet down when snorkeling. I got the opportunity to snorkel over the coral reef here and also with the turtles. It was such an amazing experience!!
Mexico is a really cool country with so much to offer. I have many many great stories to tell yáll soon. It is almost christmas and probably freezin back in Europe so here is two of my absolutely favorite drinks you should try if you ever get to travel to Mexico. You have to order a yellow and sizziling Mango Tango. It is a Mango Daquiri. The second one is named Miami Vice and it is the absolute best drink you will try,. Queeeen, Miami Vice is half a Pina Colada and half a strawberry daquiri. OMG double trouble! YASSS!
Do you ever feel mentally exhausted and just beaten down from society? Well kids, let me give you the truth. So do I. Almost every singel day to be honest with you. Society is beating me up and sometimes it just feel like I can´t fight back no more. Let me spill the T for you.
Growing up as a gay boy in a small close minded town was absolutely not easy. I honestly had a really hard time and I will always carry these memories and experiences with me my whole life. Usually I am pretty good at not feeling beaten down and keeping this happy-everything is fine-face to people. Lately that is getting harder and harder and it is really not a nice feeling. When I was living in Berlin I was standing on my own two feet, I decided who I was going to interact with, where to live, what to do, what people to surround me with and so on. That freedom is partly taken away from me at the moment. Or at least that is what it feels like. To everyday being "forced" to sit and hear from the majority of people I am working with that I will find a girlfriend soon and I will get married and have kids in the future. To ALL. THE. FUCKING. TIME. having to listen to those straight people going on about me supposed to have a girlfriend just really makes me feel like my own happy and energetic Oscar personality is dying a bit for each day. Being surrounded with straight people who has no idea what we gay people has gone through or what we still go through is really not easy. I hope I can be honest with you guys. But I really really do miss Berlin. I miss Mitch, that one person who can make me laugh so hard no matter what had happened before. He is such an amazing person and I am really happy to have him in my life. I miss Santi, my queen. Everytime I see you I get so amazed. Because you are always yourself no matter what. You have an incredible mind and this understanding of people that I will never get. Honestly I am not at all the best person to show graditude or affection and for that I have nothing but regrets. I am really happy for having you guys in my life ❤
Where is this post even going now? No one knows and I am just being kind off emotional at the moment. Ugh go away I hate emotions and I want to be a robot. I not so sure what I am trying the get at with this post anymore. I started out with these retorical questions and trying to be all grown up and fancy about it but yeah that passed by pretty quickly. I guess what I am trying to say is that society is absolutely insane. I hate being this gay boy in a straight mans world where pepople approach me assuming that I am straight and that I like naked girls. NO SIR FROM YESTERDAY NIGHT I DO NOT WANT TO GO TO YOUR STRIPCLUB!
2016 has absolutely not been an easy year. Brexit, Pulse Shooting, hate crimes, Trump, terror, Katya did not won RuPauls Drag Race All Stars2... the list goes on and I am happy that there is only 23 days left of this year. Even though the society I am finding my self in at this moment most likely is going to be there even though the world has completed its circle around the sun yet one more time. I have my hopes. I do wish for a more open and loveable society. 2017 please be more understanding. Please be kinder. Please be more loving. And for gods sakes please stop being so aggressively abusive to one another!
Make Love not War
Oscar out, bai!
So what happens when you arrive in Cancun, Mexico? You get to walk through Cancuns International Airport. It´s like any other airport I suppose except for this one thing. When you have collected your bags and done the immigration and everything ready you need to go through some kind of security. Where loads of security persons stands and tells you to press this big red button. I was like, what? What in THE * is going on? Is this a lottery or something? They where like, noo press it press it PRESS IT! I was like okay chill and so I did and this green light flashes so you can keep going? Like what the actual fuck? At least I have not ever seen this thing before anywhere but maybe it is common? I do not know... Anyhow I have later figured out that this button is a slump generator if they are going to check you bags for illegal stuff or if they let you pass. Seems legit?
Anyhow, just landed in Mexico and off we pop to our apartments in Cancun. First impression is good. Almost straight into bed since we had a very tight schedule with excursions going and also ongoing training. The one excursion I have pictures from here is called Sian Kaan. It is a boat safari trip where we actually got to see sea turtles, crocodiles, manatees and loads of birds. It was quite a cool day but absolutely not something I would do on my vacation since I like more adrenaline and adventurous things. Oh yeah we even saw some dolphins which was pretty cool. They really are amazing animals 🐬
We even spotted a Crocodile!
The last day of October was really stressful. I woke up pretty late and had a way to calm breakfast because before I knew it, it was time to go to the train station. My bags were not even closed and my "woke up like this" hair was not at all ready for going on the train to Copenhagen. I thought I was being really smart and booked the train aaaaall the way to right in front of my hotel in Copenhagen. Yeah see, that was what I thought. Only because the danish train stations are almost named excacetly indentical I was on my way to Österport in the north ofCopenhag en instead of Örestad in the south where the airport actually is. Thank god that my sister noticed and told me when I was in Lund. So I actually ended up in Malmö for a very nice dinner with my sister and her girlfriend instead. Ohwell. And also by the way, just need to add now when I´m looking at the photos from that day: daaaamn Oscar your eyebrows where ON POINT! Its actually already 1st of December now and djeez my eyebrows are not looking so fab at all at the moment. Darn!
Anyways my first flight from Copenhagen was at 6.30 in the morning with famous Scandinavian Airlines and all their hot cabin crews. I left a rainy Copenhagen and arrived in the big big big airport of Frankfurt. First time I´ve ever been in Frankfurt actually and the only thing I saw of the city was this major Coal power plant that was sticking its tip above the clouds. So yeah not a big fan of Frankfurt baaaaiiiiii!
Oh god I borded the plane. 6G was my seat for the next 12hours. Gaaaaawd I have never been on the same flight for that long before. I had forbid myself from drinking coffee that day. Just because if I would drink coffee I would be so energetic and crazy in a flying metal tube for 12 long hours. ✈
11hours and many M&Ms later I could see Bahamas down below. Almost there! I have to admit it the flight was actually quite smooth and not at all so bad as I thought it would be. But also just to clearify, I am not going to fly all the way back very soon!
Ps. It is currently the 1st of December and also my name day (thank you for writing congratulations to me when you are reading this). I have been in Mexico now for exactly one month. Photos and good, good, goooood stories are coming up soon-ish! Stay posted
Baaiiii Felicia! Im in Mexico now 🌴
Why do people try so hard to fit in? Why are people always trying to be like everyone else? I mean what is even so great with being like everyone else?
IT'S AHAMAZING BEING DIFFERENT!
On Wednesday night I was out and about and something happened that made me realize it's fucking amazing and grool (great & cool) being unique and not being like everyone else. I felt so sad when I realized what was actually going on. The next morning when I finally understood it, it came slapping me in the face with maximum power, the reality had stricken. So, here's what happened and what it made me realize.
I was out an d about on Wednesday night. Me and my friends ended up at Tank, earlier named Wonk, like we always used to do on Wednesday nights. After a good 2,5 hours or so we decided we would go home. Actually nothing really special or remarkable happened during the time we where at the club so I´m just gonna skip forward to the end of the night with was way more eventful… So we just left the club when Cajsa realised she had forgotten ALL of her stuff inside so off she goes again. Meanwhile I´m just standing outside waiting for them to fin her stuff and come back out. Since it was raining i take cover under a small roof just outside a door to an apartment building. Already hiding from the rain as well stands a very tall and handsome young man. I would say in his late twenties. I look at him and stands next to him. After just a few seconds he says something I can´t really remember. But i remember me answering and starting a conversation. He has the most beautiful eyes I have ever seen. He is tall, blond and you can just tell he has a fit body. OMG why is he talking to me?! I am wondering for myself. Like he is super hot?! Since I hate it when hot straight gus talk to me only to end up being straight and going home with their girlfriends or whatever I decide to find out whats actually happening.
”So are you gay?” I ask him from nowhere…
”Uhm, like no but yeah I don´t really do labels. Why can´t I just be who I am without putting a label of it!” He says and smiles at me mysteriously.
”Uuuh okay? Sure I mean yeah you can” I say wondering what is happening.
”So do you want my number?” He asks.
I ended up with his number and he ended up with mine. I realised I had too tart looking for my friends again since we were supposed to go home already. I head of only to get a phone call moments later. It was no-lable-guy who wanted me to go home with him. I mean, who am i to say no? Right!? So a cab ride of €80 later we ended up at his place. Yes I was totally right, he was so fit and I can´t even believe how someone can get so strong arms. Like it was insane. I´m going to spare you the details of what happened next but the day after was quite interesting.
He kept being kind of stressed and paranoid that I would tell people about it. I was like no don´t worry like no one will find out. Until I wrote about it now HAHA oups #sorrynotsorry. Even though he was really strange the day after and kind of wanted me to leave really fast, I could tell he was a nice guy. Like he cared about things, had hobbies, a serious work and yeah he even had lilies at home (no label yeah right). Actually this is like one of the longest I ever stayed at a guys house after this kind of event so yeah never doing that again since it got kind of weird when he wanted me to leave. I left and took headed for the train station 75minutes away from my friends house!! How is that even still Stockholm?! Whatevaaaaah!
I did not think about this event so much more until some days after when I also told my friends about it. Once again I´m so very sorry for telling, oups! The it suddenly hit me. Like a big slap in the face it suddenly appeared to me what was going on. He was obviously so in the closet hiding from every feeling he ever had (except when he was drunk). This made me think about this even more and I have to admit that it is not easy being gay having to fight the stupid heterosexual society we live in all day everyday. But imagine being in the closet in your late twenties not being able to find a comunity to support you or having friends really knowing who you are. Not even being able to tell your family. Ugh I get so emotionall just thinking about it and it takes me back the the time when I was ”straight”. It really was a depressing and horrible 18years I lived as a ”straight boy”. I believe he was still doing this because of society being so judge about everything and everyone being different.
So to everyone out there, please be yourself even though it might seem hard now. Everyone is different and what is even so great being like everyonee else? I do not get that at all. Be proud!
Some of you might have been thinking I was sounding a bit negative about Sicily in my last post. I read i through and I do understand why someone might maybe possibly somewhere in the universe think that.... Of course there has been so many great moments in Sicily and I do bring fantastic memories with me home from this season. Here are 6 of my most memorable moments in Sicily S16.
- When arriving to Sicily on the 15th of April our manager picked us up at the airport. On the drive back to our house he was talking about crazy italians being shit drivers. Just as he was talking about it, a car was stopping right in front of us the wrong side of the road. Someone took a photo of Etna and then continued driving only to stop again right next to our house. A person comes out from the car running towards us and shouting "Guys, I bought toilet paper." This was the first thing ever Jackie said to me. Love ya gurl❤
- Etna is the highest active volcano in Europe and when visiting it the first time me and Jackie wanted to take a selfie (obvs). She was holding her Go Pro and just taking the shot at the excact same time as I stepped backwards into small little whole. I completely terrified thought I had step over the edge and was falling down the volcano. Whaaaa I screamed and you can really see the panic in my face in the photo 🔥
- Cavagrande with Angelo and Saimi. Cavagrande is really the coolest place in Sicily I would say. Walking from the car park down into the cave took at least 35min. Phuu💦
- All of those really great roadtrips around the island with mah bro Angelo. We where both driving at the same time with a horrified Saimi in the back fearing for her life. We arrived safe and sound all the way to San Vito Lo Capo (north west point of Sicily)☀
- And how can I not mention all the great colleagues and the super carpe life moments we had this season. I have met so many people with great laughter.🇮🇹
- The last one is actually when I met Malin. She came some days later than us and she has the most AHAMAAAZING laugh ever. She can easily make an whole room of people start laughing just by laughing her self. Love you Malin 💓
Oh yeah today I left the Fiat 500 I have been driving now for 6 months. I named her Felicia, so literally BYE FELICIA!