I have Always been scared of things later on in my life, When I was younger nothing bothered me. So why does it now?
Why do I Iet fear Control my Life?
Earlier this day I recorded a video where I sang along to a song called Master made by the band Ravaged. The song is Amazing and I'm really in love with it. But why am I so afraid of showing my video to the singer? The drummer have seen it and like it and want me to do more videos like that. I let fear control both what i do with Music and my Life.
One person that have helped me get ride of a lot of fear is my husband, I never thought that on the exakt same day as I turned 22 I would say Yes to sped the rest of my Life with the man I love. We have beentogheter for 4years now and I soo thankful that I met him. He isso increadible and been so good to me.
However, still the god damn fear keeps me from Believe in myself and it bothers me. Most of my friends or people who know me thionks I'm so out going, but on the inside I'm so confused and scared. People tell me how good I look, but what do I care Idon't agree so it doesn't mean a shit what they Think. I've Heard I have a nice and good singing voice, I don't care 'cause I've Heard while growing up that I'm NOT a lead singer, maby a background singer. I love singing and do what I do, but I'm to busy be afraid what other people Think of me to try and reach for what I really want. Music is my Life and will Always be, my Dream is to somehow work with Music and not only as a teacher.
So this is the first blog of the new year and hopefully a new begining for me, where I challenge my fear even more and make the most out of my Life. <3 Until I write again I'm giving you a sort of acoustic gig with Ravaged and their song Master. Take care and love yourself and I will try the same :) <3