Before starting this I just want to apologize beforehand, this is going to be one messy post. As I'm writing this its almost 4 am. I've had trouble sleeping the past couple weeks and I don't know why as I stopped taking naps during the day. It bugs me so much that each night as I try to sleep, I keep having the same thoughts in my head;

I know that going to medical school should be tough, but these days it just makes me feel miserable. The thought of being a doctor both excite and scares the sh*t out of me. I mean, saving lives and helping people sounds absolutely marvelous, but I keep having those what ifs in my head. What if I'm not smart enough? What if I'm not strong enough? What if this wasn't really my thing? And as dumb as it sounds, I'm scared I'm going to be a disappointment to everyone I know. What if I won't even be able to finish? My mother often asks if I'm sure I want this and I always say yes because I can't really think of doing anything else, so I know for sure that this is what I would want to do. This probably doesn't even make sense, but what if??? I'm so f*cking scared.

Ever since the semester started, I've barely gone outside of my apartment - got to make those rent money's worth you know. Jokes aside, I've been awful at taking initiative to contact and making plans with my friends. Even when they message I wouldn't keep the conversation going as I normally would. Why? I don't even know myself. I have the greatest friends and I appreciate them so so much, but I don't know why I am like this.

I've never really had this conversation with anyone - mostly because I will joke it off if we even get into the topic. And if you're reading this - congrats on making it this far into this nonsense post! You are one patient human being.

I don't even know anymore. I feel like I'm a worthless piece of sh*t, but it's ok. This whole thing is just a big question mark for me as well.

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Eeeeek!

I cut my hair today! Its probably super duper uneven considering I did it myself, but whatever. I've been wanting to cut it shorter for quite some time now, but never had the courage to do so. I also just dyed it purple and was a little scared that if I cut it, it would be all dark again. But as for recently, my hair started to break off after all the bleaching and me not taking good enough care (ironically enough, I cut my hair with kitchen scissors which is actually pretty damaging for your hair) it did not look good at all. The left side of my hair had way less hair than my right side! The whole process was pretty spontaneous so I didn't think of taking any before pictures, sorry about that!


I need a crash course for how to pose for pictures. Also I feel very awkward posing in my bathroom with my camera set on self timer

Hope you all had a good day!

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Guys, I've honestly never been this grateful for mackerel in tomato (makrell i tomat; I don't know what it's called in english, but it is literally mackerel in tomato). I am so sooo incredibly broke and this thing I brought back from Norway is saving my life. Leaving my leather jacket back home to avoid excess baggage and bringing this instead was definitely worth it. I spent waaaaay to much money on impulsive 3 am internet shopping this month and kinda regret it, but not really because I loved everything.

This morning I woke up super thirsty (hehe) and I did what any broke person would do; looking around the apartment for change enough to buy myself water. I eventually found enough and went to the store and guess what! Highlight of the day: I had enough to treat myself a bread as well. And don't get me wrong - I'm not complaining! I love bread and I still got a roof over my head so hey!

I still feel kinda awkward doing this, but if you guys would like to see outfit posts, hauls or anything like that, holla! Exam period is really close so my life is only about studying, eating and sleeping these days so I'll save you the pain of reading about my boring ass life.

​Peace and love

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Hi and welcome to my blog!

As this is my very first blogpost, I guess I should introduce myself. My name is (obviously) Anne Mai, Norwegian born and raised. My parents are from Vietnam. I currently live in Hungary for studies. This is actually my third time trying to blog - I could never keep my older ones updated and I don't even remember my password for the log in. The reason I want to start again is because I need something to ease my brain off and I feel like writing would do so. I will write in english, but as it is my second language I will most probably have some writing errors here and there, please bear with me!

I am not too sure what I will be writing about yet, as I all ever seem to do is to stay home and listen to sad music, but I'll figure something out!

Oh, I forgot to mention the most important parts! My favorite color is black (I got asked if I was emotionally ok once, because apparently I was wearing too much black. I mean what is even too much black?!) and I absolutely LOVE everything with melted cheese on. Is it socially acceptable to add an emoji heart on a blogpost? No? Ok.

Anyway, I'm super excited about this blog! Let's see how long I can keep this going.

Love,


Anne


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