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Today is a very exciting post because it's not only about me and my boring life.. it's actually what this blog was supposed to be about, EDM. Jasmine (aka Swevicii) kindly helped me and she is gonna talk about the person that I guess you could say introduced me and Jasmine, Avicii. I'm so happy and hype she helped me. She sent me this the 7th of November and it took me up to nw to post it.... shame on me. But anyways.... such life sometimes.

And if you wanna know about my personal life because I haven't blogged in a while I will do that soon. I do still have bad days and okay days but in general it's better than it was. I don't know what else to say but I will update you guys more now.... or at least try. If you want me to blog about any topic in specific, just let me know in any way and I'll do my best to make you guys happy. But enough about that and more about what you came for; here is Swevicii's post. Enjoy!

"Today it is november 7th 2016. In the world of Avicii this year has been a turning point. Tim Bergling has retired from being a DJ to focus on himself and his main interests; being happy and producing music. A good choice that I am very proud of!

How did it lead up to this point, with the retirement? I have been listening to Tim’s production since Fade into Darkness and it is still my favorite to this day. Back then he was not a household name (no pun intended) but merely well known in the electronic dance music scene before it became mainstream. In the late 2012 he began to produce his first ever album. The single for the album True was Wake Me Up. Two days after I graduated senior high school it was released. I came in contact with other fans and that is how my Twitter account @Swevicii came to be. At first people came to me and asked me if I could translate interviews, articles and so on. When the Wake Me Up wagon really took off during the summer of 2013 a community started to form; the Aviciifamily. It was because more people started listening to Tim’s production and they eventually became friends. At the most I think I got 200 new followers daily.

Even if it has been more than three years I look back at the experience with happiness and warmth. I am so lucky to have met the wonderful people within this community. Even if the days of Avicii are gone, the days of Tim Bergling have just started. It is hard to say what is going to happen now with this community but one thing is certain; we are one. Everybody may not be the best of friends but that is also part life. If you like Tim’s production you are already part of the community in spirit.

After the very hectic touring Tim decided to retire. He was doing so many shows it was inhumane to watch him go on, and on, and on. His body started to get affected and eventually he realized the best thing to do was to retire. Tim started this whole journey by producing music and I believe that is where his core interest lies. It was fun to be part of this journey and I am excited for what is to come.

Best regards

Jasmin (@Swevicii)"

So me and Jasmine hope you enjoyed this post. Don't forget that I love you guys and there are people who care, just don't be afraid to reach out to them. Listen to music and keep raving. Have a lovely week and we will talk more soon.

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Hello House-lovers!

I don't like Mondays.... although I'm free from school today..... I hate being of school because that means a million more things to do. When you go to school, you go to school, do your homework and your done. When you don't have school you have all the things you need to you in school without being in school. Although I like working on my own and I feel like I have a better flow when I do that, I still feel like I'm never done and what I'm doing is never good enough.... Maybe it's just me and my unconfident ways....

Anyhow, lately I've been better, but I do have good and bad days. Sometimes I have days were I just feel like there is no point in living anymore and sometimes I feel like I'm a f*cking boss that rule the world. I still cry quite often and I still feel a little like something isn't quite right. I have a constant feeling of that I'm fucking up or like everything will fuck up soon. I was talking to my boyfriend and he told me the first signs of depression and it actually fitted scaringly well. I'm not depressed though and I donät think I'm in any risk of being but still though.... the feelings sometimes can be so close....

I'm still trying to work hard with school and I feel like I'm doing okay. Also I got promoted a few days ago so that's extremely exciting. Somehow I feel like I now how to work. I have although i'm only 18 already experience in recruiting and administration and somehow I feel like working is my thing. I feel like working is something I can do and that I'm good at. I find purpose in my work. I hate school! I hate being in a classroom of 30 clones of me that are studying the same things as I am, that is learning the same thing, doing the same thing as I am and pretty much think in the same way as I am. At work I feel like I'm needed and special and as my flaws isn't reflecting my future and need to be changed. I feel like my flaws are a "work in progress" and having that feeling is unbelievable. Maybe I'm a workaholic...?

Anyways.... I've been taking tests for my stomach but lately it has been so much better. I still wanna know if there is something wrong though so I'm gonna keep going until I get real answers. As I've said before, "take some painkillers and come back in a week if it's not better" is not acceptable.

But that's all for now. I'll probably check back in later this week and tell you more cause I have a feeling like this week in school is gonna suck!!! But yeah, we'll see. Take care you guys though. Don't forget I love every single one of you out there. Work hard!

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Hello House-lovers!

For the past few days I've been worse in my mood than an unhappy 5 year-old. I've been so stressed and grumpy and all of those things and my stomach is still bad... I am going for some tests on Thursday though so fingers crossed.

The reason I decided to write again is to say that I do feel better. Although it's still a lot to think about and I still feel fairly alone I feel like I'm making progress. I think the main reason is cause I can see the light at the end of the tunnel now. I thought I would write this because I know many in my age are in this phase now so I hope this might be helpful for all of you. I'm just share my thoughts and how I'm thinking and if you happen to follow this blog you'll get to follow my journey.

So first of all I found out my main goal in life. What do I know for sure that I wanna do? What do I wanna fight for? My answer is that I wanna move in to my own apartment with Oskar. I know, I know.... you all might have a million things you wanna say right now, but I don't care. I don't care what I work with, I don't care where I live, if I do university directly after high school, with some years or do it at all. Those thing I don't know and I keep changing my mind all the time. So why not actually put some effort into the thing I know I want for the rest of my life for sure?

That leads up to a lot of other things. I don't know if you all know but I'm lazy as f*ck! I do as little as I can and half the time not even that. I wanna change that but I've never done it. Something Oskar said to me was "I see you everyday in that sofa with your YouTube. If I ask you to clean up your dirty cloths of the floor or do your studying you are always too tired or have excesses. If you can't even do that, then how in the heavens are you gonna move away at the age of 19?" And you know what? He has a solid point. Although I wouldn't compare our relationship with studying or cleaning, he has a point!

So what will I do? I will start to studying more, take my dirty clothes away, do something! My plan is to do things before dinner and after dinner relax and start to unwind. In that way I have plenty of time in the day and I'm able to slowly go into sleep mode which in return hopefully can make me sleep better. I've also had a lot of sleeping issues, did I say that?

So I know I've said this a million times, but now I actually see a purpose in what I've doing. I've tried thinking I'll be more active for my own sake or my parents sake. But since that hasn't worked, maybe I can change that to do it for the fact that I'm planning on moving out. I hope that will happen at least...

Anyways, I hope you guys found this post a little helpful if you're in that stage that you don't know what to do with your life. Figure out what you wanna do long term and go with that. I hope the rest will fall into place.

So until next time, take care and don't forget that I love you all very much!❤

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Hello House-lovers!

Today is one of those days where I just have to sit down and write. Just write my heart out... and I will! Lately I've been really down. Not only mentally, cause I just am like that as a person, but also physically. I've been having stomach pains for over a week now. It usually comes after I've been eating bigger meals like dinner or lunch. I don't know why I have them, they come and go. Yesterday it was good but some days I'm afraid of wearing jeans because they squeeze my stomach.

Also I've been having back pains and headaches. I never get headaches and even less back pains. They headaches isn't s bad though, It's usually just to think about something else or go to another room and it gets better. But the back pains is what really messes me up. Last Monday they were so bad that in the evening I couldn't stand up or lay down to much cause then it just hurt so badly. I know I should seek a doctor but I can't stand the answer "Go home and have some painkillers and come back in a week if it's not better. We have other thing to worry about like.... doing as little as we possibly can....." Jk, I was unfair there.

But that's my worst nightmare, not being taken seriously... and for the past few days I feel like no one has taken me seriously. People in school laugh at it and say "haha, you're pregnant! How's the baby doing?" which I don't really care about because most people don't know everything I'm going through so I can't blame them for doing that. It's actually pretty funny sometimes and most of them are actually concerned for me.

But what really messes me up is when my closest friends seems to be the one that cares the least. That jokes the most and when I try to make it clear they are just quiet or say "have you checked it up yet? .... Okey" and changes the subject until they next day where the same thing happens again. When they people that knows that me being pregnant right now would literally ruin my life and when I have had pregnancy-scares before I've cried over the fact that I could be pregnant. When they joke that much and don't even care that my stomach pains could make me roll on the floor I really feel like I have no one. Because they are the people that tell me how much I mean to them and they can't be in my corner and give me a hug and say "it's okey! I'm here for you! Tell me how you feel!" and tell the people that joke to "fuck off cause this is actually a problem for her!".

I don't blame them either though. I do get stressed really easily. If I have lost of stuff written down in my calendar I get stressed cause it seems like there are a lot of stuff to do. But if I don't have it written down I will forget about it ans stress over it that way. So I get my friends. If I were they I wouldn't be my own friend. It still sucks though.... that every time I've stepped in my school the past few weeks, I've felt like no one take me seriously or even cared about me. I guess I've felt alone in school...

There is one who care though and that person is Oskar. I know I talk about him a lot on my blog but he is seriously one of the few people who makes an effort to care. He just give me a hug and ask me how I feel, and If I don't answer long enough he won't stop until I tell him. Ans when I teel him he doesn't make the problems grater nor make them smaller and make me feel stupid. he just hugs me and tell me to do something, come with his own thoughts and stay by my side. That is what I need, but at the same time the people at school don't know me like he does. They have their own problems, their own struggles and they don't have the time to care about others. Which is fine. Just cause I choose to focus on others, they don't have to do the same. I get that!

I don't know.... All I've been trying to figure out now is why I'm in so much pain some days and why I'm not feeling well mentally. I just have to figure that out and not tell so many people because I've learnt that they don't care.

That's all for now. Love you all guys and stay healthy and happy fro me! See you soon!

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I haven't written in a while, but life has just gotten in the way. I feel like this blog is too much responsibility. I feel like I'm failing on keeping it in the value that I want and therefore I just don't do anything. So I've decided to just keep this to write whenever I feel like it. I know this may lead to that less people read it, but also that the posts will be more naked and pure. I'm gonna keep this more personal and write about things that is going on at the moment. Maybe do a review every now and again, maybe do some song-updates, I really don't know. All I know is that this will be my way of reflecting. So if you're interested I hope you'll stick around with me.

Love you all!

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