sad post but I need to vent.
friday september 8th, 2017 I received the worst text message someone could receive. It was from my friend's father letting me know that my friend had suddenly passed away. I'm not going to go into the details of her death because that is not why I am writing this post. I am writing this post because in these past 5 days I have never seen so many fake people come out.
You know when a celebrity dies and then all of a sudden people act like they were that celebrity's biggest fan? That is kind of what is happening to my friend and it is fucking pissing me off. These people were not her friends. These people did not hang out with her. These people do not even know her fucking birthday.
Post after post of saying "RIP" and "I miss you so much. You were such a great girl" are making me so angry because they are not genuine. WHERE WERE YOU ALL WHEN SHE WAS HERE?! Just because you went to high school together, saw each other a few times at a party or the bar is not grounds for calling someone your friend. It is disrespectful to all her loved ones that actually gave two shits about her to say these things. AND along with the "RIP" posts, they add photos from years ago when they hung out drunk. Someone even made their Facebook profile picture about her but used pictures from 4 YEARS AGO at a high school party, LIKE ARE YOU KIDDING ME?! It makes me so frustrated because they are literally milking her death to get sympathy that they don't deserve.
I have known this girl since preschool. We did ballet and swimming lessons together. We were partners for class projects. We graduated together. We experimented together. We dealt with breakups together. We've dealt with shitty people. We laughed all the time together. Our sisters did baton together. Our mom's talk to each other every time they run into each other. She was like my fucking family. I grew up with her. She is the longest relationship I have with someone that I am not related to.
I know anger is part of grieving but I feel a lot of anger when I see people have her initials in their Instagram bios or make posts saying "I wish I had known you better". It just doesn't seem right. They knew of her, but they didn't know her.
Maybe I am wrong for saying this but it is just how I feel.