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The other day something really small yet significant happened.

I was stood in the car park of church, on a busy Sunday, waving cars in. My hands were full of radios, phone and a red wand we use to wave to cars. I was really doing my own things until someone tapped me on the shoulder. I turned around and there was a man I'd never seen before. All he did was saying:

"You have a really nice smile" and then he left. I barely had a chance to thank him for it before he was gone. It was such a brief moment and literally 2 seconds, but it meant something. I jokingly told people about it, radioed the other people saying "this weird guy just told me this", but on the inside I really appreciated it. It really made my day.

What can you do?

Who can receive an act of kindness from you today? Who can you encourage? Even if it's really blunt and honest, who can you bless? 

Go do iiiiit

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Studies have shown that if you add up the wage of the 5 closest people to you, the truth is - your wage is probably gonna be like theirs in 10 years time. That's how much your friends affect you.

You know they say that you are what you eat. If you eat trash - you'll feel like trash. I think that saying is more applicable to who you hang with. You are going to turn out like the people you spend your time with. If your best mate loves Mcdonalds, you're probably going to find yourself in McDonalds a lot. If your friend loves to discuss faith and different bible verses - you're probably gonna find yourself reading God's word a lot more. I'm not meaning McDonalds is incredibly bad and you should never ever go there, just that compared to the bible it just does nothing for you really.

Make a list of your closest people. What are their habits? What are you habits?

Make a note of where you want to be in five years. Does it match with your people?

Know your circles.

Jesus was very intentional with who he had around himself. He would dine with the sinners, he would make sure he included everyone, but the circle around him, the 12 disciples, he chose carefully. It was none of the disciples that just tagged along for fun, they were all carefully chosen by Jesus. 

Make sure you stick around the best people in your world and invest in people who needs it. You can do it. 



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There are a number of spiritual disciplines we can practise through our christian journey. A lot of them are obvious, things we do every day, sometimes without thinking about it. Those can be praying, reading the bible etc. they just happen because we are hungry for more of God, we want more of him, and if that's a reality, these things will happen of its own.

But there are others that takes a bit more discipline. There are others where you have to stand your ground and really show Jesus you are all about him. One of these are fasting. Whenever fasting is brought up, a lot of people look at it as in something unhealthy, something that is too extreme to go about. We have been programmed to think that we are starving if we don't have our three meals a day with snacks in between, but that's not the truth. We have to drink water, we have to breathe and we have to sleep. But we can last 40 days without any food whatsoever. If you go one or three days without food, your stomach might tell you that you're starving, but the reality is not the same.

Jesus didn't say if you fast, or if you are comfortable fasting, he said "when" (Matthew 6:16) you fast. He's making an assumption that all people will fast for his kingdom, not if we feel like it or not.

But please don't go straight into a fast after this. You have to make sure you are doing it for the right cause. Make sure you have established some answers to the following questions. Make sure you are doing it to get closer to God, to show him that all you need is him, instead of doing because of some other reasons. A lot of people fast these days for benefits with health, or to loose weight. Make sure you know why you are doing it. Make sure you keep it real. Make sure you keep it close to God.

1. Why am I fasting?

2. What will I do instead of cooking/eating/shopping for food?

3. Is there anything special I want to hear from God during this time?

4. How often would I like to fast?

Start off easy. Try one day. Don't throw yourself into a long fast if you've never fasted before. Keep it real. Don't tell everyone about your fast, like the pharisees did in the bible. (Matthew 6:16) When people get impressed, that's your reward. But if you do it privately with God, you're collecting great rewards in heaven. Keep it strong, keep going.



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Jesus likes to remind me to breathe with him. I am still figuring out exactly what it means, but I've noticed something that happens when I do.

When I breathe with Jesus, it's like everything slows down.

When I breathe with Him, all my senses get calm.

When I breathe with the Son of the living God, nothing seems as important as that.

God doesn't want us stressing out, chasing small things and running around. He wants us in control, he wants us to trust him and let him do his work in us. It's really that simple, or if you'd like - that complicated.

Today in worship, I simply took a deep breath, and everything heavy inside of me just floated off. It was amazing. I like to think it as I'm breathing in more of Jesus and exhaling everything that's not him.

Make sure you breathe today. Breathe with Jesus.

Matthew 11:28

"Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find your rest for your souls."



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Been raised in church, I have heard a lot of stuff that I should do. I should get involved in serving, I should read my bible every day, I should know all of the worship songs, I should raise my hands, I should, I should and I should... There's a lot of expectations sometimes and I have felt drained occasionally of what I should do. Well here's some news for you: you don't have to do a thing.

People look to actions, but GOD looks to the heart. God doesn't want you to do a billion things for him, all he wants is to be with you. He just wants to spend time with you. Think about it as if you were hanging out with a friend. You wouldn't want them to feel forced to be there, and forced to read the amazing book you wrote. You'd want them to want to be with you. God just wants to be with you, and love you!

If you're a worship leader and struggling to find songs that are good enough every Sunday - relax. God is not depending on your songs, He's depending on your heart. It's not like God will go "Oh that song? Nah, lyrics are too bad, can't do anything whilse you're playing this one". I just want to ease out the pressure. God doesn't care, all he wants is US.

There's a great song called "A little longer" which sings about this. That we constantly look away from God because of everything we have to do and prepare. We think we have to do so much so he'll love us, but the truth is, he has always loved us, no matter what we have done and not done. Let that sink into your heart. Just relax with that God wants YOU, not your achievements.

1 Samuel 16:7

[ But the LORD said to Samuel, "Do not consider his appearance or his height, for I have rejected him. The LORD does not look at the things people look at. People look at the outward appearance, but the LORD looks at the heart. ]

If you have seen High School Musical 3, please imagine God singing "I just wanna be with you" right now. Truth and it's hilarious. "No matter where life takes us, nothing can break us apaaart, (you know it's true) I just wanna be with you"



[ Testimony Tuesday ]

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Matthew 7:7

[ Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you. ]

I know I've recently written about this subject, but I want to bring it up again. This is Testimony Tuesday, and I want to share something that I received by just asking. 

When I was home for Christmas last year I made my mind clear of a couple of things. Like I've put in another post, I really wanted a job and I got that. But another one was a bit more challenging. I wanted to preach to someone. I didn't care where or what it was, but I wanted to preach to more than 5 people. That was the goal, the expectation. I knew that I am designed to preach God's word, so I made myself ask God to step out and preach to someone.

The 2nd week we were back in College they announced our assignments, one of them being giving a spoken word for 10 minutes. When I heard the news, I looked to God and said 'thank you', with adrenaline in my heart, because that's what happens when I get up on stage. 

So the day came and I delivered my word, shaking, but trying to convince the audience I was confident. I did a great job. I stood there, delivered what I thought God wanted me to say. It was amazing. Even though I was shaking, I know God looked down on me and smiled as I took another step out of my comfort-zone, and closer to all that he has called me to be. 

God listens to what you ask of him. Make sure you ask for wisdom, opportunities, for new things, maybe for a girlfriend? What do I know. Get out there, stretch, go for God's kingdom and love on everyone you meet. 

Thanks for reading.



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The bible is full of God's promises. Full of great visions and promises, that he will keep us secure and favoured in his presence. But something I've made a mistake of, and I think a lot of others have made a mistake of is that we think God keeps our promises as well. Let me explain.

I've very often put down stuff in front of God, saying "Can you please fix this before Christmas, thanks", like God is some kind of source which will fix everything coming our way. That's not really how it works. That's a promise you make God take on, that's not a promise from God. There's a huge difference. We often ask God to take onto some kind of promise, and get heavly dissapointed when he doesn't tick the boxes we created. But he never promised to stick to your every command. He never promised to do everything you asked him to. He promised to stay to His promises. To what He has commanded, and said he would do.

[ Deuteronomy 7:9 ]

[ "Know therefore that the LORD your God, He is God, the faithful God, who keeps His covenant and His lovingkindness to a thousandth generation with those who love Him and keep His commandments;" ]

Keep asking God for stuff, but be well aware of that He has only promised to keep his promises and not yours. Read the scriptures about everything He has promised you. It's beautiful!



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[ Proverbs 4:23 ]

[ Above all else, guard your heart, for everything you do flows from it ]

Read that again. "Above all else". Beyond everything else, look at your heart. What does it look like? Because everything flows from it. Your language flows from your heart. Your actions flows from your heart. Your thoughts flows from your heart. Make sure you guard your heart.

Okay great Nellie, but exactly how do I guard my heart?

One of the most famous and absolute best ways to guard your heart is by filling it with love. Fill it with reading God's word. Even though you don't understand a word you're reading sometimes, it changes your heart as you spend time reading the love letter your saviour has given you. Pray, spend time with God. He has the best heart, and if we want to be like him we have to spend time with him. We become like the ones we spend time with. Guard your heart by taking thoughts captive. When you notice bad thoughts hitting your head, and you are thinking things you don't really want to think. Stop what you're doing and just tell them to go somewhere else. Demand those bad thoughts to leave your mind and focus on God. Focus on what he has for you today.

You got this. You and your heart, you got this.



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[ 1 Timothy 4:12 ]

[ Don't let anyone look down on you because you are young, but set an example for the believers in speech, in conduct, in love, in faith and in purity. ]

This is an amazing scripture. This is yet another way of God calling you. One of the many excuses for us not to go when God calls us is that we are too young. You might be sat there, thinking "I'm only 16? What does he want me to do in this big world?". Well let me tell you; he wants to prepare you for the rest of your life right now. He has so much in store for you, and he's just waiting for you to get going. Don't hide behind the fact that you're young.

I have struggled with this. Being the youngest of 5, and constantly being the youngest in school, I've always thought of myself as small, not really making a difference. I'm young, who would listen to me? (Well, everyone!) It doesn't matter who we are, it's how and what we say that matters. My last year in secondary high school, I finally stepped up and spoke about stuff I knew was important. But that was because I finally was one of the oldest. It's so important to not see yourself as little just because of when you were born.

Step up - step out.

If God is for you what can be against you?



Please excuse the lack of posts the past days.

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Matthew 18:19-20

"Again, truly I tell you that if two of you on earth agree about anything they ask for, it will be done for them by my Father in heaven. For where two or three gather in my name, there am I with them."

This is an amazing scripture. This is one of God's greatest promises, but it might be confusing as well. It makes me ask a question. The last sentence, "there am I with them", what does he mean with that? Isn't he always with us? Never leaves us or forsakes us? Would he run away if there wasn't two of us gathered in his name?

No of course not! God is always with us (Joshua 1:9, Matthew 28:20, Revelation 21:3 Psalm 23:4), no matter what is happening in our lives, God is with us and for us. He never leaves us. So what's the meaning behind this scripture? Why is it so significant that God is with us "extra much" when there's two of us?

The reason for it, is there's power in unity. When we share our burden with each other, when we stand together with something, it becomes more powerful than when one pray alone. When we turn to God with unity, when we raise our worries and concerns to him together, he takes it into his arms and he moves in our hearts. Of course he does this when we're alone as well, but there's a significant power in unity.

When I went home over Christmas last year, I didn't want to go back to England. I really felt like staying in Sweden. I didn't like my job and I just felt alone whenever I was in England. But my last night in, me and Joakim sat down and we prayed for the rest of my year. We prayed for a job where I would meet people, get great coworkers and do something I actually enjoyed. Two months later I got the right job of that description. The year turned out great, and I got my best friend Lydia. There's power in prayer when there's two of you, so stand together. I know this works from experience.

Talk to someone your trust about your worries. What is coming up next, is there something you're thinking about?

Pray together. God will move in your hearts. God is on your side.



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We are encouraged to dream all the time. Famous quotes are "DREAM BIG" and "Never give up on your Dreams!". This is all very good, and very encouraging to believe that you can do whatever you put your mind to, but there has to be something else to it. You can dream big your whole life without getting anywhere. If you only put your mind to dream you won't get very far, but if you put your mind to ACHIEVE, you'll get far.

Let me clarify this, let your heart dream, let it imagine where you want to go, but make sure you don't stay there. Make sure you get further than that. Get going, set goals to get yourself to that position.

Let's say you want to become a great singer. God has blessed you with a unique and incredible voice and you want to be known across the world, spreading his kingdom through singing. Great, that's amazing - you have a dream. Now, what are you doing to make it come true? What steps are you taking today to make sure that's your future in a couple of years? Sometimes we need to challenge ourselves and break it down to practicals to get us going. Could you get lessons? Try different techniques? Learn difficult song, practise? Introduce yourself to someone who's a producer! Surround yourself with people who are going to get you where you are.

There's so much you can do, if you put your mind to it.

Believe it - and achieve it.

Jeremiah 29:11

"For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future."

Come on! God is on your side - get going.

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[ Testimony Tuesday ]

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What I'm writing about today is something I am still struggling through. It is something God reminded me of as late as a few hours ago. It's something that I can't wrap my head around and because of that I tend to fight it, and I have a hard time accepting it.

Today I'm writing about my journey of understanding how much God really loves me.

This Sunday our senior pastor Charlotte Gambill was speaking about fighting the right fight. How we so often put our focus on the wrong instead of the right fight. We put a lot of energy into fighting the fights we don't need to fight. As the worship band was about to get on, God showed me an amazing picture of what my life has been like the past years. He showed me that I've been walking on a path, just strolling through the path and been okay with my surroundings. I've not been complaining, but I haven't been praising him either. Things has not been ideal - but it has been alright. I've always thought God was above and slightly behind me, looking after me, just watching me, making sure I was alright. But today God showed me a completely different perspective of how his love took action in my life. God hasn't been behind me, he couldn't be, he's been too busy to do that. He has been too busy kicking down sicknesses, fighting back strongholds, pushing back addictions and constantly rescuing me from the enemy. It's like there has been a rain of daggers thrown at me and God has saved me from every single one. When I thought he wasn't even bothered to listen to my prayers, he has constantly been keeping his hand over me, saving me from all kinds of things I can't even imagine. All of this without me even being aware of it. All of this, with me complaining, not understanding what he's going through to keep me where I am.

Today God showed me another side of how he loves me. He showed me a side of how he has fought for me all of my life - all the way through getting me from a road when a truck was driving towards me, until today. The devil has tried to kill me more than once, and it's a blessing to be where I am at the moment.

Knowing this, it makes it a bit easier to understand how and what ways God really loves us. He doesn't quit on us, he never gives us up, he's never resting, he looks out for us and he listens to us. There's nothing he wouldn't do for us. When will we realise how pure and amazing his love is?

The amazing story behind this picture is that it doesn't only go for me. It goes for everyone. God has protected you from loads of stuff - even though you might feel like you've gone through hell and back, imagine what the Lord has kept you from. We will never know, and we will never see what could've been. But remember that God keeps his eyes on you and that he will never give up on you.

He has just kept showing me ways he loves me this week and I'm crying every single time because hey, it's me. I cry when God speaks to me. Wrapping your mind around God's love is an impossible task. But that's also what's so utterly amazing about it.

Have a blessed week, hope you enjoyed reading this.

oh the overwhelming

never ending

reckless love of god

it chases me down

fights til i'm found

leaves the 99

i couldn't earn it

i don't deserve it

still you gave your life for me



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It's easy to worship God when everything is great. It's easy to worship him when life is all good and he just gave you that promotion you wanted. But it's a whole other deal to worship him when you're sick. When you have to walk through the rain. When all your money is gone. When someone you used to be close with just shuts you off.

God is good all the time and he deserves to be praised at all times. Let's not forget that.

Today, I went through a hard time. Some things happened at work and I felt really down. I was really expectant of things going my way, God had even asked me the night before what I wanted, so today I thought I would get it for him. Turned out it was the opposite. It has been a rough day, but even though I feel like cuddling under my duvet, crying in self-pity, I won't. Because there is not reason for me to feel any pity for myself. I live in a beautiful house, I go to college every day, I get to worship my God without having to keep it a secret. I have an amazing boyfriend, I have an amazing family. I have money left over after every month. I am healthy, I am strong and I'm surrounded by amazing people.

It's so easy to see one situation in your life and think that everything is miserable. But hey, it's not. Looking at the bigger picture, I have a dream life. There is so many people who would give anything to have what I have. So instead of focusing on that little thing (yes 'pity-Nellie' it's a small thing) I will just turn my eyes to my heavenly father and thank him for everything he's doing in my life at the moment. Thank him for being so good to me. Thanking him that he has a plan even though I can't always see it. He's amazing.

Thanks for reading.

[ John 16:33 ]

[ I have said these things to you, that in me you may have peace. In the world you will have tribulation. But take heart; I have overcome the world. ]

[ 1 Thessalonians 5:18 ]

[ Give thanks in all circumstances; for this is the will of God in Christ Jesus for you. ]

[ John 10:10 ]

[ The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy. I came that they may have life and have it abundantly. ]

Let your prayer be that even if you don't understand what your circumstances mean, know that God is with you through it all, and he still has his hand over everything. He is always worthy of all praise, even when it seems like the world is crashing down.



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We are all going through tough times. We are all going through seasons that's worse than others and we need friends. Today, I spoke to a girl in church and she told me she was so happy I came up and spoke to her, she'd felt lost as she came into church, but when I went up to her, she felt some relief. Can I ask you to be that person? Be that friend.

When you know that your bestie needs something, give it, do it. They need a hug - you're there even though you live 15 minutes away. They just mentioned they would really like a nice candle in a random conversation - surprise them the next day with the nicest candle you could find in IKEA. You know what to do. When you're being intentional with friends, they notice. They will be intentional back. The second greatest commandment is to love your neighbour. Make sure yours stay close and feel loved. Maybe giving gifts isn't your love language, but hey, maybe it's theirs? Find out what your bestie likes and do it for them. Serve them, compliment them, spend a lot of time with them, buy them gifts and just be there.

Be that friend.

The one they will brag about to their kids. The one who throws a surprise party. The one who stayed up late listening to them even though they just wanted to go to bed. I can think of thousands of things to do to love your friend to a new level.


I know I look dead, but it's okay. 



There are some worshipsongs that have taken my heart the first time I've heard them. These two are examples.


The first time I heard Extravagant was in a Focus rehearsal. We were singing it over and over again and I loved the melody of it. But what really shook my heart was of course the lyrics. It described in a really beautiful way how God loves us so entirely and wonderfully. Just read through the lyrics and you'll get what I mean.

You were a lover before time's beginning
You gave Your love freely withholding nothing
Jesus, my Jesus
You carried the weight of the world on Your shoulders
You stopped at nothing, to prove You were for us
Jesus, my Jesus

It's extravagant, it doesn't make sense

We'll never comprehend, the way You love us
It's unthinkable, only heaven knows
Just how far You'd go, to say You love us
To say You love us
To say You love us

This second song I heard for the first time today. God's love hit me like a bomb and as the girl I am, tears were flowing down my cheeks. It just overwhelms me every time how much he loves me. How much he loves his church and how many fights he has gone through to get to just love on us. This song is called 'Reckless love' and it's my absolute fave at the moment.

Before I spoke a word
You were singing over me
You have been so, so
Good to me
Before I took a breath
You breathed Your life in me
You have been so, so
Kind to me

Oh, the overwhelming, never-ending, reckless love of God
Oh, it chases me down, fights 'til I'm found, leaves the ninety-nine
I couldn't earn it
I don't deserve it
Still You give yourself away
Oh, the overwhelming, never-ending, reckless love of God

When I was your foe, still Your love fought for me
You have been so, so
Good to me
When I felt no worth
You paid it all for me
You have been so, so
Kind to me

There's no shadow You won't light up
Mountain You won't climb up
Coming after me
There's no wall You won't kick down
No lie You won't tear down
Coming after me



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There has been so many times I've tried to do it myself. I've prayed "please God, be with me" - but still acted like he wasn't.

I've tried. Fallen. Tried again. Prayed. Tried again. Cried. Tried again.

The other day, I found a picture with a word that hit my heart straight away. It said "Try again, this time with me - God".

I've lived a whole life believing God is real, that he is true and always with me. But I still find myself praying and asking for him to be with me every day. Why do I pray that? He is always with me! I think it subconsciously became a lie that I believed in. That sometimes, God would abandon me. He would let me stick with the troubles and see how I did. That he would cross his arms in heaven if I didn't do it all right. But that's all a lie.

I've tried too many times on my own. I've told God that I want him in it, but also been pushing him away as I've prioritised other stuff. I've asked him to be my number 1, but when troubles came, he wasn't my number 1. Solving it myself has become number 1, calling mom has become number 2, asking my leader has become number 3, crying my number 4 and praying to God my number 5. Why isn't he the first on the list?

When I ask for God's strength, when I ask for his wind to push me in the back, I have to put him first. That is as practical as waking up, saying "Good morning Holy Spirit" instead of "Good morning, scrolling through Instagram with one eye barely open". It's very simple yet somehow it seems really difficult to push through. This is something I've been working on my whole walk with Jesus. To let his strength be my strength, and not my own. I've tried my strength, and trust me - it fails every time.

I'm ready to walk with you God.

I'm ready to try again, and this time, now and forever - with you. 

[ Matt 22:37 ]

[ "You must love the Lord with all your heart, all your strength and with all your mind. This is the greatest commandment." ]

Loving him with all of our hearts is a lifelong journey. Make sure you start yours today.

He loves you so much. Don't forget that.



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Take a moment to ponder this question:

If you could add a hour extra to your day every day, what would you do with it?

Imagine that you all of a sudden have 25 hours instead of 24. What would that extra hour do to your life? Imagine what oppertunities it could lead to! Imagine the books you could read, or the places you could go. The extra time you had! After all, that's an extra 365 hours a year!

What was the first thing that came to mind?

What would you do with your extra hour?

I know what I would've done with mine. Lately, I've been inspired in college to read more. Read more of God's word, dig deep into it and read other books as well. There's so much wisdom out there! Not a chance can we read it all, but not a chance we're going to miss out on all of it! I want to get a bit nerdy on my nights and get reading. If I had an extra hour to my day - I would start reading more.

I'm sorry, but here's a newsflash for both you and me.

We could probably add a hour to our day if we planned it right. I don't know about you guys, but I could easily add an hour to my day by just getting my dicipline right.

If I would choose one time per day I could check instagram and facebook, instead of having small five minute checkups now and then, I could probably save myself at least 20 minutes. If I had a organised list when at College with everything that needs to be done and putting them in a good and specific order, I could probably save a lot of time, probably about 30 minutes. If I didn't drag myself from getting out of bed for 30 minutes in the morning, I could get up early to do some reading and praying!

There are some really easy steps we can all take to make our days longer. Sometimes we wish we just had more time, but would we actually take care of it? If you had 25 hours, would you not spend that 1 extra hour like the rest of your 24? Think about what you're spending your time on. I'm sure you can, just like me, think of a couple ways you can save time throughout your day. The bible speaks about stewarding the little you have (Luke 16:10) before you can receive the big stuff. Take care of the time you have and I'm sure that God (maybe not with more time though...) God will bless you in ways you could've never imagined!

[ Ephesians 5:15-17 ]

[ Therefore be careful how you walk, not as unwise men but as wise, making the most of your time, because the days are evil. So then do not be foolish, but understand what the will of the Lord is. ]

[ Luke 16:10 ]

[ Whoever can be trusted with very little can also be trusted with much, and whoever is dishonest with very little will also be dishonest with much. ]



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Since I was a child I've always opened all my prayers with "Father..." and ended with "...in Jesus name - Amen!" It's a really simple way that I've learned from my parents and church. That's how you pray, that's how all people pray right? But somehow along the way I feel like we've misunderstood prayer.

If you look up the definition of prayer, it says: "a solemn request for help or expression of thanks addressed to God or another deity.", but I would like to view it in a different way. What if I told you prayer was a conversation with God? What if I suggested it wasn't only us asking things, and thanking Him for dying on the cross, but that we actually stopped and listened to what he has to say?

I am too fast sometimes. Too quick to say "In Jesus name amen" and fall asleep. I'm sure I prayed some really good stuff and that God is going to bless me through it, but what if God had something more important to say? I know his words are so much wiser than mine, so why wouldn't I take time to listen to him?

If Albert Einstein, Steve Jobs or anyone successful and wise was in front of us, we would stay dead silent and listen to every word they have to say. They have achieved some amazing things, so why wouldn't we? I know for certain I wouldn't ask Steve Jobs for an iPhone X, thank him for all the other iPhones I've been through and then wrap it up and leave. I would listen to what He had to say, what his thoughts were. It should be the same with God! The master of the universe, the one who placed the stars in the sky, the only one who knows how this is all going to end, the one who put time in place, the one who formed me and the heavenly Father who loves me more than any love on this earth - wouldn't we listen to what He has to say?

I know Moses did. I know Noah did. Abraham. Daniel. Paul. Job. Would they really experience what they did if they would've chosen not to listen?

Stay silent for a little while after your prayer and let God to speak to you. Write down what He says.

[ Jeremiah 33:3 ]

[ Call to me and I will answer you, and will tell you great and hidden things that you have not known. ]

He hears you every time you open your mouth. Now, let you hear Him every time he opens his.



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Sometimes when I wash my dishes, I say - "that'll do." and it's washed, I'll put it in the wash stand on it and let it dry. It's good. Good job Nellie, you washed up.

Or, I will hoover. I will go around the whole room, but intentionally I will not hoover some areas thinking "that'll do". It's good. Well done Nellie, you actually hoovered. Thumbs up for that.


This is not agreed upon! Let's not settle for good. Lets settle for AMAZING.

When you do things halfway, when you settle for good, guess what - your life will be good. Sounds great right? No, not great - good.

But if you keep going the extra mile, if you wash your dishes AND dry them with a towel to put them back in the cupboard you are going for AMAZING. If you hoover every single inch of that floor you will not have good results, but amazing results, and guess what - your life will be amazing.

I'm not only talking about cleaning. I'm talking about your soulmate, house, dreams, career, visions - everything. Don't settle for a guy/girl who you think is nice and kind. Settle for someone who's passionate about Jesus, someone who takes you to the next level, someone who challenges you and someone who won't shut up about living to the fullest. Don't buy the first house you see. Go around, don't settle for the good ones. NO, God has so much in store than that! God wants you to live your best life! He wants you to have the best of everything. He wants to spoil you.

From now on, make sure to be intentional about your relationship with God. If you put some work on it, it might not just be good, it's going to be AMAZING.

Psalm 23

[ "The LORD is my shepherd. I lack nothing. He lets me rest in grassy meadows; he leads me to restful waters; he keeps me alive. He guides me in proper paths for the sake of this good name. Even when I walk through the darkest valley, I fear no danger because you are with me. Your rod and your staff - they protect me. You set a table for me right in front of my enemies. You bathe my head in oil; my cup is so full it spills over! Yes, goodness and faithful love will pursue me all the days of my life, and I will live in the LORD's house as long as I live." ]



[ Testimony Tuesday ]

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Coming to do 1st year College in England was scary. I was coming on my own, trying my wings for the first time. The environment was different than what I was used to. I didn't know how to take care of myself, I barely knew what responsibility meant, and leadership was something I'd never touched on before.

Coming here, I would say I knew God. Coming here, I would say I was confident. Coming here, I had absolutely nothing together.

I ended up feeling exhausted for 3 months straight. Since I barely ate, and when I ate, it was toast, my body could not deliver any kind of energy. I was pulling through, day by day. Talking to people became a chore because I didn't want to seem alone, but it was exhausting because of the introvert I am. Term 1 shook me hard. I had friends, I would hang out with people, but I felt very alone. Not having a family to come home to, made me very sad. Jess, my best friend at the moment, decided to leave college as well. It was devastating. I know she did it for the right reasons, but I was all of a sudden even more alone.

One time in one of our sessions in College, we were asking God for things we wanted or needed. As it says, "Ask, and it will be given" Matthew 7:7

I was crying. I was crying because I was scared that no one in England would actually be affected by me. That I would leave, and no one would notice I was gone. I wanted to make an impact, being intentional with people around me and really leave a mark - but at the moment it seemed like nothing of that had happened. I decided to pray for something I'd wished for a long time. Even before I came to England, I prayed the simple prayer of: "God. Give me a friend." I continued to go deeper, as I know God likes details. "Please give me someone I can share everything with. The girl that everyone knows is her best friend. Sleepovers. Long chats. Best. friends." Because honestly, that was all my heart was longing for.

About a month later I found myself talking to Lydia in a room after Honors Ball about her new crush. I was mostly laughing and trying to get her not to walk away. But in my heart I knew something new started. We suddenly found a connection we hadn't seen before. I decided I wanted her in my life. As I boarded my second flight to Sweden, going home for Christmas, we were texting. I always thought I wouldn't be funny enough to be Lydia's best friend, but hey - there she went and sent me the message "you crack me up". It made my heart go warm. As term 2 came around, we spent more and more time together. We ended up having a photo shoot on wapping road (scroll down for a blog post about it) and when Joakim came to visit, she introduced herself as my best friend. I will always remember that moment. It meant the world.

God gave be a friend. God gave me Lydia.

Having all year gone, I was still scared I wasn't leaving a mark big enough. That I really wasn't doing anything. I wanted to influence people where I went. But as we had our last words in the Lecture Hall during graduation week; God really showed me what an impact I had made without even realising it. and not by doing amazing crazy stuff - no, by just being me, and by living my life.

Talking to friends, talking to people and just sharing last words before we were no longer a class together was very emotional. It broke something in me. It broke the lie of me not meaning anything to other people.

What I'm trying to get through this post without crying too much, is that God really listens. When heaven seems dead silent, it's because God is listening to your YOU. He heard me, he saw the desire of my heart, he knew I needed someone; and just as it says - when you ask it will be given to you.

Is there something you need in your life? A sister you never had? The love of your life? A mentor? Someone to help you fix stuff at home?

Whatever it is - pray for it! Ask! God sees you. He sees your heart.

I really hope this story encourages you to stay faithful to God, but mostly - that he will stay faithful to you.