It´s has been two years since I returned from London and I felt like a big part of me was missing when I came back. I felt a bit down and it really stayed with me for a few months. This wasn't like a depression but it reminded me a bit of the feelings that I had during my minor depression about five years back. But the more time went by the more I felt like myself. I finally got my life cleaned up and got on the right track for me until last fall. Last fall I wasn't allowed to continue at my work(due to that I had to have a permanent position to continue.) and it hit me harder then I thought. I feel like am struggeling with moving forward and work towards my dreams and goals. And I am not completely sure what I should do about it.

During these two years I feel like I finally found my style which is great. I feel that I can mix styles and looks to reflect my mood and feelings and at the same time I feel that I have room for improvement and evolvement. When I lived in London I experimented a lot with different looks and styles, and that was great because I found parts of me that was hidden before. Living in London helped me grow a lot and helped me found out who I want to become.

Since I left London my plans for my education and career have gone back and forth, my original plan was to save up money to continue to study in London at LCF and get a bachelor degree there, but I had a bit of a problem with saving up. I had really become a shopaholic since I moved to London. Another thing I has changed my plans are Brexit. Due to Brexit the education that I want is probably going to cost a lot more( original price for the tuition is £9000 per year and you also have to consider rent, food and other supplies) and might harder to stay in London after I end my studies.

My plan B was to apply to fashion schools in the US. But thanks to Donald Trump that is no longer an option for me. I don't want to live in a country where he rules. Plan C have been a few different alternativs, Internships, Schools in Finland and for now it might be a fashion school in Germany.


Love, Natalie


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Spring has finally arrived to Helsingborg and it felt so good ditch the winter jackets for spring coats. In honor of the arrival here is my spring wants from Boozt.com

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Because spring isn't here yet, I decided to share a collage of what I would like to wear on cozy days. Because it is still cold outside I want to wear layers with comfortable but stylish sneakers. And as you can see I like to wear black, white and grey during those day.




Love, Natalie

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What mostly gets me inspired is my surroundings. Some environments makes me want write more than others, London is one of the places that inspires me the want. When I lived there I used to blog and write all the time. There were so many things happening and so many places to visit. There was always something to write about, new amazing music, Fashion and schoolwork that I did at LCF. Back in London I went to museums, trade shows, fashion week and long works to discover my surroundings.


But here in Helsingborg I don't get the inspiration that I feel that I need. Helsingborg can be a very boring city, especially during the winter months. It´s even worse when you don´t have any money. That is why I have barely posted anything lately, it´s because I don´t feel inspired and that is something very important to a writer. If the words don´t come to you, you won´t write anything.


Right now it feels like I am a bit stuck here in Helsingborg and can´t get out. The feeling that my life just hit the break and stop moving for a second. Next thing I know everything feels like it´s moving very slow and I am taking a detour. But I have a plan of becoming more organized and I hope that it will help me feel better and less stuck.



Love, Natalie

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Family, Helsingborg

I mostly spend my Valentines day quite low key, which I also did this year. I didn't have any plans at first but the evening before my best friends Molly texted me and we invited me for dinner with some friends. We ate marinated chicken with root veggies and chocolate mousse for dessert. Later we play Guitar Hero Live (which was much harder than I expected) and watch Magic Make XXL.

I didn't get any real gifts but I got some scratchers and chocolate from Mom and Dad which was perfect.

I hope you all had a good valentines day!


Love, Natalie

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Coffee, Denmark, Food


Yesterday me and Amanda took the ferry over to Helsingør for some shopping and lunch. We walked through the old street and looked arournd in a few shops. I just bought a few thing, which you can see down below. And we ate an amazing late lunch at Café Vivaldi, I ate an omelette with chicken and mushrooms and to drink I had an Vanilla Ice-coffee, Amanda had an homemade burger with fries. After the late lunch we took the boat back to Helsingborg and went home. At home I had the biggest food coma ever and just relaxed.


Make up brush, bath bomb, hair rings, golden eye mask and another package with gel eye masks.

Fizzing bath bomb with lime and coffee.


Love, Natalie

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Food, Movies, Relax, Tips!


During the cold days in January and February, it's always a good idea to cozy up in the sofa with a good movie. Here are some movie tips from me that are on the Swedish Netflix right now:


  • Singin' in the Rain - This is one of my favorite movies of all time, I think I was 7 the fist time that I saw it and fell in love with all the singing, dancing and humor.
  • The Intern - This movie is about senior citizen(Robert De Nero) that becomes an intern for an fashion e-comers company with Anne Hathaway playing the founder and boss. What I love about this movie is that
  • Breakfast at Tiffany's - Just a classic!
  • Letters to Juliet - Romance movie set in Italy!
  • Just go with it - Funny comedy with Jennifer Aniston & Adam Sandler.
  • Clueless - Classic 90´s movie with amazing outfits!
  • Midnight in Paris. - A lovely Woody Allen movie.


If you click on any of the movie title you get to their imdb page.


Love, Natalie

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Beauty, Helsingborg, Interior, Sweden


Now the days between Christmas and New Years I have just relaxed, watched movie, reading and taking a bubblebath. I have also gone to the gym a few times, which actually makes me feel relaxed.

Now I have had time to work a bit with my new camera and I love it! I think that it actually it taked better photos than my system camera.



Love, Natalie

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Beauty, Alice in Wonderland, Disney, Family, Helsingborg, Sweden


This Year my family decided to have two Christmas tree, One ordinary green one and one metallic tree. During previous year it have often happen that our tree has fallen and some of our favorite ornaments broke. Also a lot of the ornaments from Disney are to heavy for the Christmas tree here in Sweden. Luckily this year I found a solution, IKEA started to make a metallic tree which can handle the heavy ornaments.

Here are some photos of the trees and ornaments.


Love, Natalie

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Beauty, Make-up, Books, Family, Helsingborg

This year Christmas me and my sister started the day with making som gingerbread cookie and a Gingerbread house, usually we do that before Christmas Eve but we didn't have time before. When that was done we just relax until my Mother came hoe from work and then we opened the Christmas gifts (Photos are further down) and when two friends of my sister came and joined us for Christmas dinner. After dinner we played some games and we became obsessed with Ellen Degeneres game "Heads Up" which is a charade game and it was the most fun I have had in a while.


Christmas Tree.

My By Malene Birger Snowglobe, which I bought at their store in Malmö.

Here below are my christmas presents!

Nikon 1 J5 camera and a summer kit.

Mac Cosmetics Christmas Lipstick Set in Sweet Nudes.

This years Gingerbread house, which has a Frozen inspired colour scheme.

Our metallic christmas tree.


Love, Natalie

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