I made it back home from Florida. My mind is still on Florida time, even though I've been home for some time already. I never really took some time to write a post about the last few days that I spent with him. I wanted to enjoy my last days with him as much as I could before we had to say goodbye. I'll write everything down now though so the future me, and of course you guys, can take part of my adventure.
30/12 - 16; I'm going to write about this day quick since we didn't really do much. Ben had to work so took it easy before we had to drive to his job. I sat there with him through the whole time and it wasn't so busy during that day from what I can remember. Well... Maybe not busy for me but Ben might've been stressed or something.
31/12 - 16; WE WENT TO IKEA! We drove down to Orlando pretty early and went straight for Ikea. As we were walking around in the building Ben asked what some furniture was called (since they were all named in swedish). Sometimes I'd even walk up to him as he was looking at something and I'd tell him what it meant. Of course there was some words that I couldn't really translate (mostly when it was a city or a word that just didn't make sense to me either). It makes me happy that he's interested in learning my language even though he doesn't have to. Every now and then he'd ask me about our grammar but, everything is so easy for me that I had a hard time talking about our grammar. It's usually nothing I think about when I talk so when he'd ask those questions it tickled my brain and I had to really think about my own language.
I am quiet disappointed in the food that Ikea served. Every ikea ( I believe) has a resturaunt in the middle of their store. When we were there it basically said '' TRY SWEDISH FOOD BUT ALSO EAT OUR AMERICAN FOOD BECAUSE 'MURICA ''. The only thing on the menu that was from Sweden was of course the meat balls. Mashed potatoes, meatballs, lingon berry sauce and some of our gravy. The other food was like chicken nuggets with mac and cheese and just.... 'MURICA! So I got a bit disappointed yeah. Ben found a nice desk that he bought since he needed a bigger one and this one was prrrretty big. There's a lot of space now to do school work.
After Ikea we drove to a big mall and I searched everywhere (not really) for a perfume that my mother wants. I couldn't find it so after the mall we drove back to Bens place and started to build his table. We/He noticed that some parts didn't fit, even though it was the right parts that we got to assemble the whole desk. After som frustrations he got it all set and we took his little brother to the park around 9pm to watch some kind of fireworks show but... We bareley even noticed it because of how far away it was from where we were standing. So after the fireworks we drove home and watched a movie, new years kiss and then we fell asleep, hahahaha.
1/1 - 16; This day was reaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaally boring. Ben had to work from 10 am - 5 pm and even though I could've stayed at home I went with him anyways. I was his moral support all day long. However, for the first 2 hours or something there was no person in sight. Around lunch he had his first customer in the store but after that it was pretty damn slow. We played pokemon go while waiting for time to pass by and eventually another human being would walk in to the store and have some job for him to do. I had to walk to Walmart all by myself to buy us some lunch since we forgot to bring us some from home. When I came back tot he store I saw a person walk into the store with his computer and I didn't know if I should walk in there or not. Eventually I did and I stood in the store and tried my best to not stress either the customer or Ben out by just standing there like a dumb nugget that I am. It must be the swedish-ness in my that made me stand there and just wait instead oif walking intot he back office and wait there.
After his shift we went home and then drove back the Pokemon park and walked around there for almost 2 hours again. It may not sound as a romantic but I do love being alone with him. The pokepark was basically by the water so you could hear the sound waves. We were walking around the park and sometimes holding hands but most of the time our hands were occuppied with our phones (yes we are geeeeeks).
2/1 - 16; On this day, I got hit by the homesick-feeling. I called my grandma on my ipad and we talked for couple of mintues. Our call made me realize how much I actually miss her and after that call I felt a bit sad that she's not closer to me right now. The plans for that day was that we were going to the theater to watch Fantastic Beast and where to find them. Still being homesick, I was silent the whole car ride there. I had no idea what to say but I didn't want him to think that I was mad at him or anything. So when we arrived that I apologized for not talking so much and I explained myself. Everything seemed fine and we bought tickets and went straight for the movie. I must say, a ticket in the US is A LOT cheaper than in sweden. In the theater that we went to you couldn't really reserve your seats either, which is something that I'm used to. A normal ticket in Sweden cost around... 12$ meanwhile, our tickets together was 14$ in total. And you couldn't reserve a seat in this theater. The commercials in the beginning lasted for like 20 or even 30 minutes.
The movie however, was really good. I enjoyed it a lot and there was this scene that made me giggle for minutes and just as I stopped giggling, the exact same thing happened again and I started giggling again. After the movie had ended we walked to the car and I started to laugh hysterical again because of the scenes. We went home again and took it easy before falling asleep.
This is the first scene that made me giggle real hard. If you haven't seen this brilliant movie yet, you really should!
3/1 - 16; On this day we went to the last disney park called Epcot. It was only me and Ben this time. His brother had to go to school and his mother probably had to work. This was one of our better days at the park. I loved Animal Kingdom but Epcot was also pretty cool. First thing that you see when you notice the park is a giant golf ball. Inside that golf ball, they had a ride that took you through parts of our past. We also had great FastPasses and were lucky with the lines at the park. We first went to Test Track, which is a ride where you create an vehicle and I told Ben that I wanted it as ugly as possible. He went bananas and made the ugliest car I've ever seen.
After you make the car you get to sit on like a rollercoaster and they 'test' your car on different things. Our car got first place in something but otherwise it was pretty bad but the whole ride was so much fun. I love how some rides are really creative and different from everything else that you usual ride in amusement parks. Test Track was really fun but we had a FastPass at one of the rides. It took you back in the past and you could see parts of our evolution as humans. How we developed writing and other keyparts from our past. It was a really interesting ride. In the beginning of the ride they take a a picture of you. Ben said '' Smile for the camera '' but he looked pretty bored and I stared into the camera and felt a bit uncomfortable. By the end of the ride the ride made you answer some questions on how you'd like your future to be. Depending on the answers you get a different future and they show you a small clip on how your future would be. The picture they took in the beginning was used here and Ben looked bored out of his mind and it was hilarious.
Epcot has this kind of area where some countries are introduced. Canada was the first one and they were lined up together so you walked from one country to another. We walked around in the different countries. France had this movie that you could watch. The movie had a lot of beautiful content of landscapes in France. and the theater was beautiful. The screen was a really curved one and you can really see everything that the director wanted you to see because of wide the screen was.
After France we walked passed other countries but we stopped in Japan. They had a huge anime-related store (they also had other Japanese things to buy) and I wanted to buy a lot of things for me geeky friends. After the store we walked to a woman who sold japanese beverage and I got a Ramune. I have no idea really what Ramune actually is but it's like a soda and there's this glassball that you have to press into bottle to be able to drink. Most people doesn't know how to open the bottle but I knew exactly how to do it and the woman looked impressed. Of course America had their own section in Epcot. Ben and I shared a funnelcake, which is fried dough with some powdered sugar on top. It was pretty good but there was a lot to eat and both of us got full pretty quick.
Even Norway had their own part! They had a store with some winter clothing but I thought it was funny that Florida was selling those warm jackets. Ben pointed out that it was weird how they had Norway and not Sweden as a country. They also didn't have much scandinavian items to buy in the tiny little store. They basically only had winter clothing from Norway and Frozen merchandise. As we were to exit the store I saw swedish chocolate though! It was really expensive so I didn't even think about buying it.
We had two other FastPasses that day. One called Soarin'. You sat in this seat that took you up the air and took you to a big screen where you saw beautiful landscapes. The whole idea was that you were Soarin' through the skies with the view of a bird. It was beautiful. The last FastPass was a boatride that showed how disney is using their own plants to provied some parts of the food for that park and they talked about agriculture and how to make it better for the future. It wasn't the best ride but it was pretty interesting.
The whole day we walked around catching pokemons. I got a pretty big Snorlax and it made Ben jelous (höhö). He also caught some other pokemons that his little brother jealous. After the park we drove to Orlando and ate at Pizzahut. Ben got a pizza and I ordered a Pasta Chicken Alfredo. When we got the food they walked up to us after some minutes and said that they forgot to put the chicken on the pasta so they'd give us a new portion. I stared at Ben thought '' How could you forget the chicken when it's a chicken dish?''. Anyways, we got food over from both of the pastas that I got. My stomach hurt a lot though on the way home but I was lucky to fall aslep in the car. I guess I just ate a little bit too much or something.
4/1 - 16; Our last together. All I wanted to do that day was spend the last hours with him and enjoy the little time that I had left without having to think that this is the last time in couple of months that I will see him. So we went to the beach, I walked around in the water for the last time and we talked some on the beach. After that we went to the poke park, ate lunch (left overs from Pizzahut the other night) and after that we head home. We watched a lot of movies that day and we cuddled up to eachother whenever we could.
5/1 - 16; Time to say goodbye to the person that means the most to me. The whole night I felt so sad and I couldn't stop thinking about that I had to leave in the morning. When the morning came I packed my bag and I from time to time I was crying and Ben was there to comfort me. When I had to say goodbye to his mother, I got teary and I could barely talk to her. Even saying goodbye to his mom made me want to cry.
In the car to Jacksonville I tried not to think about what I had to do the next hours. We held hand whenever he didn't need his other hand to drive and we drove to a thai place. The waitress came running everytime that Ben drank some of his water and he refilled the glass. It was a bit annoying that he came running so often but I was trying not to focus too much on him. I had a beautiful person infront of me and I wanted to focus on him more. After the food we drove to the airport and we checked my bag and myself in. There was a woman who helped me with the bag and everything but when we checked me in the first flight was delayed with around.. 30 or 50 minutes and I ' only ' had 40 minutes to get from gate to gate in Washington. Which was fine by me. So after that process me and Ben sat on a bench and it was so damn difficult for me to sit there and hold back in the tears. Whenever he wasn't looking I tried to look at him as often as I could ( I know though that he probably figured out that I stared at him like the creep I am).
After some time he asked me when I had to board the plane but I didn't know since my ticket said the old time. I waked up to the board with all the flights and I noticed that the flight was not delayed with almost 2 hours, doing the math I only had 8 minutes to run from gate to gate and I did not have that time to do so. We went backed to the desk and they rebooked my whole flight. My only fear was that my bag wouldn't comet o Sweden so I asked her if it would make it with the whole new route I was forced to take. She said that it would and I trusted her. We walked back to the waiting area and had some minutes before I had to walk through security. As we sat there I felt better and I knew I wouldn't cry so I figured that we could say goodbye for real now but... Here comes the tears and Ben pulled me in his embrace. I knew that saying goodbye would be difficult and I never thought that I would start crying at the airport but I did. The longer we were with eachother, the harder it would be to say goodbye. Eventually we walked up to the entrace to security, hugged and then I stood in the line. Ben was watching me the whole time and I turned around and saw him smile at me a few times as the line was moving and then all of sudden... He was gone and I was on my own.
Security went fast and smooth, walking to the gate took 1 minute. There was some delay on boarding but the boarding went fast. We started taxing and then when we were just a few seconds to start the take off there was a man that needed medical needs. So we had to drive back to the gates so the meds could check on him. An hour and a half later he walked into the plane and nothing was wrong with him.
So I had 20 minutes in Houston to get from B gate to E gate. Luckily they had a tram and it only took me about 10 minutes to get where I was supposed to be. While on the plane from Houston to Frankfurt, we got some delay because of some baggage troubles. As I sat in my seat I could start feeling the uncomfortable feeling of urinary infection and I paniced. One of the things you want to do when you have urinary infection is to sit on the toilet or shower. But the plane was getting delay and I didn't want to use the bathroom while we were still on the ground. 5 minutes after we were safely in the air I walked to the toilet and felt so uncomfortable. The whole flight I felt uncomfortable and I tried to somehow make my body fall asleep.
In Frankfurt I had to walk fast to my gate but they had changed the gate of course. So I walked to the wrong gate at first before I looked it up and I walked to the right gate. When I arrived at Arlanda, which is our airport I was terrified that my bag wouldn't have made it to Sweden. After waiting almost an hour for my bag I realised that it probably wouldn't show up so I asked some assistant where it was. She told me that it was in Washington. So the lady who helped me with rebooking my flight NEVER changed the route on my bag. So I stood there on the airport and I felt like crying while talking and giving my information so they could ship the bag to me.
My dad was waiting for me at the airport to pick me up and as I sat down in the car and closed the door I broke down. Flying for almost 24 hours and being in an emotional roller coaster for 24 hours and finally being to just cry it out felt good. I texted Ben on our way home and it felt so odd texting again.
The day after the gave me my bag left but... I really wanted my bag to be there when I arrived in Sweden.
Words cannot describe though how thankful for the time that I got to spend with my Bemmie. We talked about that he might visit me in Sweden in the late summer or something like that. I don't want to get in the way of his school so we're still not stressing about dates etc.