I really do not know whether I should post this or not. But we'll see where this ends. And I really don't know why I'm writing a post totally in English either. But It's kind of exciting and different actually.
First of all I'm in this mood where I'm constantly speaking to myself. In English. I've done it for like an hour now and I just felt that It would be fun to try to write everything down to see if i can keep the same "flow in my English speaking as well as writing". The one that only exist when I'm alone and not at all during my English classes when I actually need it... And obviously I can!
Today has been a really weird day. It's like everyone I've passed or talked to have been sad or angry or just really down. Every conversation has turned out into misunderstandings or a bad atmosphere. And almost everything I've done has ended in a bad or even dangerous way.
Enough of that! Something that I've been thinking a lot about recently is one specific thing. One thing that I got scheduled and confirmed today. And it's everything about this cartilage piercing that I'm doing in two weeks. And it's such a big thing now, whether I should do it or not witch I really want to. And I've wanted it for so long! But I haven't had permission to do it before now and now that I do I feel that it's my chance to finally get it done! But there are so many different opinions about this cartilage piercing. Today I made an appointment and I fell that there's no turning back now. I am going to do it with a gun, which a lot of people have told me is a really big mistake and that I should go to a real piercer and get it done professionally with a needle. But since it's way too expensive I know that I'm really greedy, but I don't think it's worth 500 when I can get it for 300 crowns less if it's done with a gun. And I know about the risks. The Brooklyn ear and everything. I've talked to a few people whos' piercings have gotten infected or just bad. But on the other hand I've talked to the same amount of people that haven't had any problems at all.
And yes, it is a risk. But so what? Everything in life is a risk. Life ITSELF is a risk! I mean... I'm tired of living inside a pair of frames. And that's not how we should live in general. I don't mean that everyone should run to the closest hairdresser or piercing studio tomorrow to get their cartilage pierced just to take a risk. But we can't live in fear of doing anything that contains a risk. Giving birth to a baby is a risk. And despite that it's after all something that the human body is meant to do. Most people survive it while a few others don't. But that can't stop us from reproduce? It's the way we are created to live. Most surgeries are fatal and you can't really lay down in the OR and be one hundred percent sure that you'll make it out alive. On the other hand surgeries are there to give us prerequisites to live.
I don't know where I want this to go or even what my point is. I just really wanted to discuss my thoughts about everything around this piercing. And it's so easy to connect other thoughts and reflections to this topic. It's all about living outside the box, outside those frames and ignore the fears that may appears. There might be a lot of things that contains risks. But I don't think they're wort stopping you from what you want. We are made to take risks. And even if our decisions doesn't end up the way we wanted them to, there's always a solution.
This is actually really stupid and awkward. And I'll probably regret posting this in just a few minutes. But even though this post makes no sense at all, I'll see this post as another English exercise! And it was really fun to try something new.
Goodnight! Sleep tight!