So the thought about writing down my thoughts just slipped through my mind for a split second. The reason why I want to share this with you guys is because this is something very important to me. I may have the mind of a 15 years old girl (well maybe because i am a 15 years old girl) but I still want to share this. A disclaimer; I am NOT posting this to manipulate other peoples thoughts or to change anyone's opinion, i was thinking and hoping that i could maybe change some of you who's reading this point of view. Sometimes it is very important to see things from other's perspectives, not only yours. But how would I know right? How could i possibly be smart? Wait did you just claim that you're smart? That you are beyond the average? Or wait, do you think you're better than us? Hold up, let me ask you something. Would that be so bad? After all, some of us are smarter than the other of us in some sort of way. Right? Could it be so hard to cherish each other instead of always pulling each other down? I know by self experience that the reason behind all of this is jealousy. That is one disgusting word right there, yet it's fun to say (sorry off track), there shouldn't be such as jealousy in this world. But there will always be. Let me tell you something that i should remind myself more often about: you have something that that person over there, doesn't have. In fact, this doesn't matter either it's a person or not, a company or a dress.You will always be sitting on the other side with the thought about the boy she got that you didn't. Was it because she had that unforgettable smile? Or maybe those straight shiny teeth? I hate her ugh. Ridiculous right? And then she will be sitting over there with the boy she loves and is lucky to have, but yet she's not happy because guess why? She is not as lucky as you are who get to spend time with your dad, which she never gets. Oh and don't forget about that endlessly long hair you got and she was lucky enough to even born with hair on her head. Even though this wasn't fair enough to compare (i admit) i still want to get to my point : and that is that you will never be happy with what you've got if you keep being unhappy with what you haven't got. I am not blaming you guys for wanting more, because the feeling when you get hold of it, you will be asking for more of or from it. It could be love, it could be something material, money or the hold of your baby that you've been carrying for months. Another topic; i know nothing about love, except for the cliches that i've read in books, or the little love that i have experienced. But i know how it feels to need someone, so much that it actually hurts. You need the warmth from it, the smell and the closeness from that one person. This will make some people sick, some even choke on my words. And i wont stop you or judge you. I am not one of those who thinks that love can only be found between one person and another. Love is so much bigger than that. You DON'T need that person to be strong, be strong on your own. Find something that you can never lose. But never is an awfully long time. But its only up to you when its time to let go. You can't hold on to someone or something forever. That is when we are starting to talk about an endlessly long time.
Have you ever found something, someone or somewhere that draws you to it? Can it be a person, or a country or a highly fashioned store? And the feeling when you get it, is oddly satisfying. But when you can't get hold of that person forever, or when you can't stay in that country forever, or when you don't have the money to buy this wonderful expensive bag: that's when you know its reality. And sometimes reality hits you hard, in the stomach. But we HAVE to start getting used to it, that this is how we live. This is how life works. We can't always get what we want. And that's when we eventually get over it and find something else to obsess over. Or you can either work for it. Fight for what you want. My point is that we have to accept and handle denying, and no's, and not think that the world is going under because you didn't get that ONE bag. Or that one guy who didn't want you back.
I honestly don't know what I am talking about now. Time for sleep. I want to thank everyone who took their time to read all this nonsense. And i have so much more to share, about so many different things. Please let me know if you would continue reading and if you have any opinions about what I just wrote.