When I logged into my blog this morning, I saw that I updated last 30 days ago. 30 DAYS??! Where is the time going? I was thinking it was more like 7 days ago...
Time really does fly by so fast after you become a mom. In the beginning life takes a completely different turn. All of a sudden you don't decide when you eat and sleep and meet your friends. The baby does. It was hurtful to realize that you are no longer the same person you used to be. You have to give up a lot to become a mom. You are stepping into a completely new life and your priorities change, your way of thinking change and you change. A small part of you gets broken down in order to be able to build something so much stronger ❤
After almost 6 weeks of being a mom, things do get easier. You get used to letting the baby decide and you find new ways of doing stuff. Right now I feel so much better than I did in the beginning. The first week was very rough and I was very emotional. I think it's very normal to feel overwhelmed and lost, but just know, it gets easier. I just had to get used to this new life, when you plan only 2 hours ahead, and spend a lot of time indoors.
There is a lot of stuff happening every day, even though the days are not packed with program. Me myself, I hate being indoors a whole day. I have to go out, even if it's only for a walk. I don't like to be alone either, and so far I have not been alone with the baby much. I try to plan something to do every day in order not to go crazy. But. Forget about being on time anywhere. Just when you are about to step outside the door, she will demand food or attention. You have no other choice then to sit down and give her what she needs and then try again when she's finished. I hate being late so this is really something I had to accept.
It's all really about expectations. When I expect that I will be somewhere 2 pm or I will do laundry and it does not happen as I wish, I get stressed. But when I do the best I can, with the situation I have at hand, I feel so much better. Keeping your expectations low and accepting every situation makes my mind feel so much better. I can have some initial idea of what to do every day, but if it does not happen the way I imagined, I try to accept it and move on. Seems like an easy thing to do, but it's not when I like to be in control.
Lastly, time flies when you become a parent. Almost 6 weeks and it feels like 2 or 3 weeks. She grows so fast and I really want to try and capture the time as well as I can.
Have a great day,