Have you ever wondered 'why me?' Well let me just tell you I had a big moment like that, yesterday. Things that can go wrong always seems to go wrong for me. Sometimes I feel like I have this aura around me 🙈 I'm sure what I'm about to explain you will not happen to any of you! So don't get too scared by this.
(Just so you know I'm going to go into very explicit details after this. You have been warned ;))
So yesterday, I went to my doctor, well technically I went to a medical in training and I'm beginning to think that was a bad idea. Anyway, since I've turned 23 and all women in Denmark are offered a free screening that looks for change in the cells according to the HPV virus, I went to have my first ever gynaecological examination, and let me just tell you it was terrible. Everything that could go wrong went wrong. I am by no means trying to scare you, (there is a point with this blog post) however it just did not go well. She had told me she had had another girl earlier that day who had never tried it before either and it had gone by smoothly. Of course, I'm just never that lucky. So she examines me and tells me that everything looks fine. She tells me where my uterus and ovaries are and I think this is not too bad. (If I'd only known). So she takes some gel and puts it on a speculum before she moves it inside. Now what I thought would be over quickly is not. She keeps moving the speculum and turns it,and it feels like she's opening and closing it. Now this process goes on for longer than I'd like and I'm not kidding but it felt like she was cutting me. I was sure I was gonna bleed (which often happens), but I didn't. Imagine being cut inside. Not a pleasant feeling at all. She then tells me she can't find my uterus, like wtf? She just felt it. Then she tells me she needs to use another speculum. So she walks out of the room while I'm lying with my bottom half naked. She finally comes back with another speculum made of plastic, and I'm thinking this will be over soon. (Not!)
Suddenly, the head torch is not working. And she needs that to see what she's doing inside of me. And of course she can't get it to work. So she leaves, again! And once again I'm just lying with my legs up with a naked bottom half. After some minutes she comes back with batteries. And while she changes them, I just lie waiting. And to my luck the head torch still isn't working. So she leaves a third time, while I haven't moved at all. Still just lying in the same spot. She is hoping to find another head torch. Apparently somehow that's not possible, so she comes back and tells me we have to change rooms. So of course I have to dress myself again and then undress myself once more once were inside the other room. Then she can finally use the plastic speculum, which was so not painful compared to the other one. And then she gets to do what I came there for. But she still sounds very uncertain of whether or not she is taking a sample from the right place. At least, she did not sound confident, and apparently the whole situation had made her nervous too. (So not what I needed). What should have taken like 5 minutes took more like 20 if not more.
Hopefully, she got what she needed. I'm so not going back here in two weeks l.
It turns out that I have a retroverted uterus (20-25 % of women have this), and that has given her some complications with finding my uterus. Of course, I'm also tense by the whole thing, which does not help either.
However, she tells me that a retroverted uterus does not mean anything for pregnancies or birth. But then I talk to some girlfriends and they are like but it is not the norm, so it must mean something.
And as I do in practically every situation I google it. Some websites say not to worry about it. And I know if there really had been something bad about it, the doctor would have told me. But it is mentioned that you should be careful during sex and that hard sex especially if the girl is on top can cause pain, and you can actually end up injuring or tearing the ligaments surrounding the uterus. And then I think to myself, why has no one ever told us girls about this? Why has this never been mentioned in school or anything? I'd be nice to know before something bad happens. Also, some people are born with this (it can be genetic), but for others a retroverted uterus might be due to endometriosis and can cause period pain.
I'm not trying to scare any of you with my bad experience at the doctor's, but to let you know that there might be things about your body you know nothing about, and if you have period pain this could be a reason. So go to the doctor. Get yourself checked if you're ever worried about anything, and if you're worried about the examination, you can let them know you'd like the smallest speculum or one of plastic (though not all doctors have these).
Being partly naked in front of your doctor was the easy part. I know it might seem scary or awkward to some people but I did not mind that part until I had to undress again. Also try to relax as best as possible that should help, although I know it's easier said than done.