There is no worse feeling for me, than this.
It's like you can't breathe yet here you are, all your thoughts blacken and become so, so grim.
As if there wasn't anything in the world that could make you feel different.
I just wanna call someone, but then all the feelings and emotions starts to cloud my mind.
So i stop myself from calling someone i know can calm me down.
I wanna call my sister/-s just to hear her reassuring words.
I wanna call my bestfriend, because i know she in the end will always understand.
I wanna call chibi just to let her know i'll be okey and say sorry for being a muppet.
I want to call my boyfriend, because he of all people would tell me to get my shit together.
To stop thinking useless thoughts, that everything will be alright in the end.
Because somehow at the end of my day it's always his words i hear in my head.
Whenever im stressed i just think about that ridiculus smile of his, that smile that always gets to me.
Always..
When im mad and snap with him, that smile makes me forget why i even was mad to begin with.
It's just so silly and stupid.
How his freaking smile can turn my world upside down.
And his laugh, man it's like a drug.
I can be so annoyed, yet he just starts laughing at me, not taking me seriously because he knows im not.
He just laughs and i can't help but laugh with him.
It's addicting, i don't even know why.
He makes me feel so many different things.
Feelings i never understood before.
I let him see sides of myself that i kept hidden from everyone else.
Sides i didn't wan't to be seen. Yet around him i could just naturally exist.
No need to hide myself behind a mask.
I don't even know if you read my blog anymore... hopefully not.
But if you do, I love you A.
You stupid wack-a-doodle.
When my own words are eating me up from the inside, somehow you make it all go away.
I really do hope i won't ever have to lose you.
Don't mind the distance, it won't be there forever.
I'll make sure of that.
So please don't forget about me.

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Breathe out, breathe in
American oxygen
Every breath I breathe
Chasin' this American Dream
We sweat for a nickel and a dime
Turn it into an empire
Breathe in, this feeling
American, American oxygen
American oxygen
Breathe in, this feeling
American, American oxygen


Oh say can you see, this is the American Dream
Young girl, hustlin'
On the other side of the ocean
You can be anything at all
In America, America
I say, can't see
Just close your eyes and breathe

Breathe out, breathe in
American oxygen
Every breath I breathe
Chasin' this American Dream
We sweat for a nickel and a dime
Turn it into an empire
Breathe in, this feeling
American, American oxygen
American oxygen
Breathe in, this feeling
American, American oxygen
American oxygen
Breathe in, this feeling
American, American oxygen

Oh say can you see, this is the American Dream
Young boy, hustlin'
Tryna get the wheels in motion
But he can be anything at all
In America, America
I say, can't see
Just close your eyes and breathe

Breathe out, breathe in
American oxygen
Every breath I breathe
Chasin' this American Dream
We sweat for a nickel and a dime
Turn it into an empire
Breathe in, this feeling
American, American oxygen

This is the new America
We are the new America

Breathe out, breathe in
American oxygen
Every breath I breathe
Chasin' this American Dream
We sweat for a nickel and a dime
Turn it into an empire
Breathe in, this feeling
American, American oxygen
American oxygen
Breathe in, this feeling
American, American oxygen
American oxygen
Breathe in, this feeling
American, American oxygen

This is the new America
We are the new America

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Hate Me - Eurielle

He says save me, save me
She says maybe, maybe…
She starts to turn away when he says…

Hate me
Break me
Let me feel as hurt as you
Push me
Crush me
But promise me you’ll never let us go

Hate me
Break me
Then save me, save me
Push me
Crush me
Then save me, save me

She stops walking, walking
He stops falling, falling
He looks her in the eyes and he says…

Hate me…

Hate me…
He says save me, save me
She says maybe, maybe…

He says… Hate me…
Fade Out
Never let us go

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If I told you this was only gonna hurt

If I warned you that the fire's gonna burn
Would you walk in?
Would you let me do it first?
Do it all in the name of love
Would you let me lead you even when you're blind?
In the darkness, in the middle of the night
In the silence, when there's no one by your side
Would you call in the name of love?

In the name of love, name of love
In the name of love, name of love

In the name of, in the name, name
In the name, name

If I told you we could bathe in all the lights
Would you rise up, come and meet me in the sky?
Would you trust me when you're jumping from the heights?
Would you fall in the name of love?
When there's madness, when there's poison in your head
When the sadness leaves you broken in your bed
I will hold you in the depths of your despair
And it's all in the name of love

In the name of love, name of love
In the name of love, name of love

In the name of, in the name, name
In the name, name

I wanna testify
Scream in the holy light
You bring me back to life
And it's all in the name of love
I wanna testify
Scream in the holy light
You bring me back to life
And it's all in the name of love

In the name of love, name of love
In the name of love, name of love

In the name of, in the name, name
In the name, name, in the name of
In the name, name, in the name of

In the name of love

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Typing and typing.
Delete..
Type again, repeat and once more repeat and delete.
Once or twice i can't.
Im trying but i keep falling down.
I keep crying but nothing comes out.
I wanted to play tough, thought i could do all this on my own.
Your love lifts me up like helium.
Your love lifts m
e up when im down.
When i've hit the ground you are all i need.
Im stronger now and im lucky to have you around.
Now i don't have to play tough.
Now i can just be me.

But even the normal me has an evil side.
I lash out at the people whom i hold closest to my heart.
Thinking they'll be alright..
Not thinking twice about their own emotions and how they don't need to hear that.
Im a little bit unsteady.
So...
Thank you for listening anyway.
Thank you for telling me about what my actions have caused.
Because sometimes im too blind to see.
To see what i've done, because fear got the best of me.
Im awful at keeping people in my life, but im hellah good at shutting them out and never talking to them ever again.
But, you are the only person i don't want to hurt, the only person i don't want to throw anything at.
I don't want to show you all these ugly sides of me.
Only the good ones.
But that can't be done.
Because i've already done so.
You deserve the best of what this world can offer to you.




Words from:
Mama - Empire cast and Helium - Sia.

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I never thought i'd hear it from you of all people.
Today you looked me in the eyes while telling me that you won't let me go.
I wasn't allowed to go according to you.
Your words shut a part of my dream down.
Your words made me hesitate, doubt and start to rethink.

You have no idea about the power your words hold.
You are capable of shutting us down in a heartbeat.
Why would you do that, is it because you care about us?
Is it because you think that we don't know any better?
Why won't you listen to our reasons before you start to judge us.

You say that the path you follow, is one that will always gracefully accept and never judge peoples choices.
Yet you are so quick to judge.
"It'll never last, you should give up now instead. Before you hurt your heart.."
"Why would you do that to them, they are your family.."
"You need to leave her alone, karma will turn on you."
"You'll get fooled, you are much too naive to travel alone."
"I only want to add another choice to that small list you have."
"Seem like you might need a voice of reason."
"Love never lasts in your age"
"You are just a kid, you don't know what love is"

Please, just shut up..
You don't know either.
So stop pretending like you do.
Weren't you the one that taught me to always trust my guts.
Well that's what i did right now.
Because it is what has led me this far.
Thanks to instincts and good judgement.
You said that you would respect my choices and not judge them.
But what is it that you are doing right now then.
Can't you just trust me on this one?

Please...
Just trust me on this one, i know what i am doing and what im feeling for the first time in my life.
Don't tell me "NO" just because you are scared.
I need to travel, explore and be free.
Why won't you see that.
If i don't bet 100% on this and take the risk, i'll never get anywhere in life.
Because i'll be to afraid to move on.

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The dead silence is spreading through me, sending chills down my spine.

All this confusion, all this hatred, the anger.
It will consume us in the end.
For we know no better than to blame.
We are innocent, we haven't done anything wrong.
We are the ones who have been wrongfully accused.

All we wanted was a touch of heavenly light, a breath of life.
So that we could dream again, with a little vision of the sun in our head.
We believed it could be.
But the fever is spreading, throughout our bodies and into our hearts.
What we looked for can no longer be found.
Because we are searching in the past for something that which no longer exist.

We failed to see that, what we were feeling wasn't anger... It was disappointment.
What we want isn't there anymore.
We have to accept the truth for what it is.
Even if it hurts us the most as we are beings that need to live in the present.
Not in the shadows of our past.

There are times when i wish i could just go back in time.
Make it all come undone.
Make it so that it never happened.
But i can't, things happen for a reason and who am i to question them.
I died for the dream only to realise that it was just a dream and something that could never be real, so i died again for the truth of my reality.

Just wished that i would've known earlier...

Being evil has a price.

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Flying high in the sky.
One last time.
Before falling to despair, choking on the air.
That was supposed to keep her alive.
Swirling mist of black and blue.
Nowhere to be found.
Nothing inside.
She was falling, but now she's crawling.
The ground scorched beneath her.
Hands blistered and bruised.
Her tears dried up long ago.
Inhaling poison.
Choking on the air again.
Trying to exhale, blood filling her mouth.
Dead since long ago.

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