Så det här var något jag skrev till min agentur om min tid här, en kort beskrivning av mitt år, vad jag gjort och hur jag känt. Den är lite anpassad för att andra au pairer ska läsa och få en blick över hur en au pair upplevelse kan se ut, men jag tänkte ändå publicera den här. För er att läsa och för mig att komma ihåg. Dock på engelska men ni som inte kan får väl ta hjälp av vår allas bästa vän Google translate ;)
After years of dreaming about becoming an au pair I finally fulfilled my dream and moved to Málaga, Spain. I had finally found an agency in Spain and a hostfamily that were just as excited as I was. The first week I spent getting to know the family while they still were on vacations. But after one week I had still not found any other au pair or friend in my age and I started to panic a bit. I knew that with just some time and effort I would find someone to have fun with, but I guess being so far away from home for the first time without knowing the city, country, language or any people, made me a bit afraid. But just a few days later I met two au pairs that know have become very good friends of mine and we have seen a lot of Spain together.
So the school started and so did my "work". For a start everything was good and since this was my first experience far away from home and my family I did not really see the signs that I was not feeling well living with this family. It took me 3 months until I realized that I could not keep living with them for another 6 months. Except for saying some things that really made me feel bad, they did not treat me bad or anything like this, it was simply that I didn't feel comfortable living and being around them all day long. I talked a lot about this to my friends, both here in Spain and back home, with my family and I also wrote a long email to the au pair agency. I also gathered all my courage and talked to my hostdad. I don't think that he understood what I felt, but when I told them a few days later that I didn't want to come back after christmas (I had flight tickets home to spend christmas with my family) at least they accepted my choice.
During the two weeks back home I talked to a few more families and 5 days before I had my flight back to Spain I found a new hostfamily. A single mom with a 3-year old girl living in Madrid. Thinking back on this I am so glad that I had the courage to start over after a not so good experience with my first hostfamily, instead of being afraid and stay home.
The new family welcomed me with open arms and it did not take long until I felt like one in the family. I have now spent almost 8 months with them and it has been the best months of my life. I now have an extra family and a home away from home. I don't know what else to say about them because all I can say is that they are my family and that I am so thankful that they made my au pair experience to the perfect one.
I kept exploring cities and places in Spain, with my friends from Málaga, with new friends that I got to know in Madrid and also with friends and family from home that came to visit me. Madrid is such a beautiful city, especially on the spring and summer. I highly recommend Madrid if you want to be an au pair in Spain. They speak good spanish (and most of the people here speak at least a little english), the people are friendly, it's easy to meet new friends and you have lot of things to do and see. And once again, it's a beautiful city.
So after one year in Spain what have I achieved? First of all, I am almost fluent in Spanish, which was one of my goals. Second and most important, I have grown SO much as a person. Although I was already grown up and responsible etc before I came here, I still feel that this year made a lot of impact on me. I had to take a lot of difficult decisions on my own, I have travelled alone, explored new cities along, I have lived far away from my family and stepped outside my comfort zone and you know what, it is not scary at all. And I do not regret anything. If I hadn't started my year in Málaga I would never had met my friends, that I know will be friends for life, and I would never had changed family to this wonderful family. There's a lot of things that would not had happened and although my dream didn't start at all as I had imagined it, it sure ended way better then I could ever imagine.
So, if you think of going abroud as an au pair, don't be afraid, DO IT!!