So we are having a great summer so far. Im loving the slow pace. Lazy mornings, no have-to-doos, coffee on the porch in the morning sunshine, Walking down to the sea for a swim and charging up on vitamin D. Bbq in the warm sunset, sauna and evening swimming, the dogs enjoying the freedom of no leashes, and of course the kids are having the best time ever. They love love LOVE being here. Even though they have several cuts, bruises, splinters and so on; from life on the countryside.. 😊 But mostly from solving their sibling fights in a very non verbal way 😝 Gräsö will always be one of my fondest childhood memories and I hope it will have a special place in my childrens hearts as well ❤
We had not planned to stay here for this long. But life here is so much easier than at home in the appartment. I swear I will live close to nature one day. Water, woods, rivers and mountains. My heart is saving a space for what will one day be my homestead.
A hearth to keep feet warm.
A pillow to rest my head.
A garden to grow fresh corn.
A porch to sit and wonder when starry skyes are up above.
A little goes a long way.
Nature is my true love.
I'm both dreading and looking forward to life after things get back to "normal". Rutines, school, daycare, riding lessons, therapy, beginning an internship to slowly get back to work, and so on and so forth. There are alot of changes going to take place this fall and winter and I am hoping they will bear sweet fruit in the future.
I know I am not alone. I am blessed with having friends and family who are strong, true, honest and loving. You bring me light, laughter and understanding. I thank you for your patience, your never ending support and for listening. Having me as a friend or family member is a challenge and at times a struggle, you probably dont understand me, dont get what and why I do or say the things I do. You may just want to give up and turn your back on me. I get it. Maybe I hurt you without being concious about it. And I know one of the challenging things of being my friend is my long absence from contact. All I can say is that Im working on it. And sometimes I just need you to barge in. Say 'hey, Im coming over today' 😊 Im writing this to my closest friends and relatives. You know who you are. I love you ❤
My days are always a struggle, even during good times I have a constant deep doubt about my own worth.
Living with myself feels like a coach with crazy horses galloping across the wild west, the wagoner is shot dead, the coach has a hidden chest of gold inside and I'm being chased by my own highwaymen.
But hey, you who really know me, you will hopefully (😝) agree when I say that I am not only a challenge.. I am also a good friend, daughter, sister, niece.. I will always listen, and try my best to not judge you, but only support. I will be honest, loving and true. We are one people, sharing the same existence. And no one can ever build anything without the help from others. ✌