I have been reading a book for a long time. It's called Emotional Intelligence. I have learned that a sign of being emotionally intelligent is being able to motivate yourself, to take defeats not only as setbacks but as a lesson to do better next time, to be able to separate your failures from your character and realize that it is more a matter of preparation in order to become good at a specific task when you don't get it the first time.
There are so many interesting topics that define what kind of personality and character a person could have as an adult from examining the way they were raised. That has been setting tones of questions in my head: when I have kids of my own, how would I raise them? Part of being altruistic is embedded in us from the moment we are born and is defined by the way we're raised, our surroundings and people we're surrounded by from an early age and in all kinds of stages in life. Feeling empathy or indifference towards people or situations can only tell so much not only about the individual in question but about his parents too. And unexpected details from the way we're treated by our parents whether we're a boy or a girl, the youngest or oldest sibling, the financial stability of our household, our parents previous traumatic experiences in life... And from examining the way a person carries themselves in the later stages of life, say, adulthood, you can tell so much of them, even predict certain illnesses they would tend to have later in life. Say, if we live with someone who suffer from anxiety attacks and we have been affected by these episodes, we have a slight higher chance to suffer from cardiac failures or respiratory complications than those who live a steadier kind of lifestyle.
I am so amazed by the study of human behavior, so I have been considering that field of study instead.
I happen to like so many things in life. Not one or two things interest me, but many, and in great ways. And it occurs that, the more I learn, the more i read, the more I expand my knowledge, the less I appear to know, but the more I appear to be drawn to. And so I get overwhelmed and need to take a step back again and look at the world, and ultimately at my own little universe, and so I feel at home again.