So I just woke up from a 5 hour nap, because anything under 6 hours, to me, is considered a nap and not an actual sleep. I don't know why, but I'm still tired and no matter how hard I try I cannot fall back to sleep. It makes no sense, my room is completely dark(because it is actually night time now) and my body is telling me 'no human I want to be awake and wonder around and do stuff. The only time I'm ever up this early, are the nights I have to work, but my sleep schedule is so messed up I thought I would at least sleep for another two hours tonight so I can get more than my usual 5 hour power naps.
My first official blog post is going to be a rant hopefully a small one, but I want to apologize in advance I start to ramble on.
So my boyfriend and I are currently gauging our ears. He's always been one step ahead of me but because of his recent incarceration (long story for for something he didn't even do) I have now caught up to him. I was at a 6g a few days ago until I decided to go up to a 4g. I had forgotten out previous agreement where I would wait for him to get out and we would go up in sizes together. Tuesday night I said fuck it and went ahead and went up to 4g and I was kinda excited to tell him I finally went up a size without it hurting. So I told him, I know it's not really something to be excited about but when you work graveyard shifts and your daytime is cut short so we don't really have a lot to talk about. He got really pissed at me and told me I didn't love him and that I was leaving him behind and I was just gonna leave him like anyone else. I know for a fact that isn't what he's thinking he was saying because he's scared in there that when he gets out we won't be where we were or hell together at all. But no matter what I told him, no matter what truth I told him he wouldn't believe me and continued to bitch at me until I got pissed off. He then decided to make a complete 360 and played the innocent card making me out to be the bad guy and the reason he's like this. It just makes me so insanely mad that I can't even take it!!!! Oh my god.
So I'm new to this whole blogging thing so I hope for the time being that the people who find this blog can forgive me. This may also be a place where I rant or just talk about my day to day happenings, but who knows. With the weather getting warmer her in the US I'm hoping to be able to get out and do more. With that being said I hope my work schedule somehow allows me to do this, but working a graveyard shift (8pm-6am) sometimes normal daily activities are next to impossible for me. But anyway! I just wanted to start this blog by saying hello, so hey ;) haha.