Sweden, Thinking out loud, Bali (/Indonesia)
Vansbro, Dalarna
Nusa Ceningan, Bali

Pictures from 2016 and 2017 in the same time period. The one's at the top are from the last day, hanging out with my friend Fanny in her home town in Dalarna. After work this Friday I left Stockholm with the train to get away for a couple of days, mostly to slow down and chill. I've been a bit stressed the last month, giving me stomach ache, insomnia, less appetite and so on... I've had these troubles before, when I went to school. But in Vansbro I always let my guard down and relax. I think it's mostly because Fanny lives there and her family and her are some of the most open-minded and nice people I know. I always feel welcomed. It's almost like a home away from home, if you understand what I mean?

Right now I think the symptoms are consequences of trying to always be at my best; at work, at the gym, with friends, at home, with myself etc. Right before my big test in the science course I took October-December I was very sick. Because of this I was all out and couldn't study to the last hour, I pretty much slept all day for a couple of days. Even though I slept for almost more than 16 hours I felt the stress in my chest and my stomach - what if I wouldn't do or make the test? I don't think my thoughts and behavior since that time has left yet, which keeps me stressed even though I'm finished with the course. On top of this I've had much in my head at work and also been planning with the trip to South Africa in three weeks.

Anyway! To show you something I'm also showing you pictures from 2016 the same time period as now, as I wrote earlier. Why? Well, it's not only because the pictures are nice to look at and the fact that I'm almost always longing to go to an exotic place. It's because even though the climates are different in these pictures, I'm wearing different clothes, doing different everyday routines and hanging out with different people I'm actually not in a better place in Nusa Ceningan, Bali, than here at the moment. I mean, I'm in a better place since I'm feeling very very safe and I surround myself with friends and family I love. But even though I was in Nusa Ceningan, in this magical scenery, I was feeling very alone. I wanted to see the island, and the person I wanted to see it with didn't want to follow. Luckily I met up with one of my best friend's sister! On the other side of the world, the exact same weekend - what are the odds? Anyway. I was feeling very troubled on this island, missing people from home, not being sure about where or if I should stay in Bali, not sure if I would continue with a relation to a person I started some month earlier. I think I was pretty upset and heart broken.


Why am I telling you this? Well, I think I'm trying to tell you something you've probably heard many times before: just because the pictures are beautiful and you think people on social media are super happy and better than ever - there's always a story behind the person in front or, or holding, the camera. With that said: when scrolling on instagram or other social media and starting to feel low since everyone seems to live a happier and more exciting life than yourself - remember to think that everyone's fighting their own battle and there's no problem with you if your pictures don't look as happy or exciting. What matters are if you're comfortable in your life situation. If you are - Congratulations! Stay strong and remember you're right where you want to be. If not - try to see how you can change your patterns, what do you want to do? Then go do it!! When at your happiest and most comfortable times these pictures will no longer bother you.

Take care of each other and let's start next week with being nice to ourselves.

Love and light,

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Sweden, Thinking out loud, Who am I

Pictures taken during the day: morning - Year review of 2016 in Swedish national TV. Daytime - having a bite and some sparkling wine with the one and only Malin. Night - New Year's Eve party at Matilda's and Niclas' apartment with a group of wonderful people. In the last picture Ella, Matilda's sister, and me are getting ready for the famous "Moranisse" shots.

Hello 2017!

Since Christmas I've been thinking a lot about the year that has passed, with all of its good and bad. Even though there has been some tough, angry and sad moments during the year I feel like I've learned from all of it and because of it I'm bringing a healthier, more open, mind in to the new year. Except of those times I've also had some "time of my life" moments. I've realized how much my family means to me, I've met a lot of new close friends, traveled and gained more understandning. Last but not least I've now worked more than six months with something I love and I wouldn't trade any of my colleagues for anything in the world.

When chatting with friends about the last year it's almost impossible to not notice a scary change in the world. 2016 was a tough year in all areas and it's hard to keep up a good mood when entering 2017. I feel like I'm obligated to do the things I can to get the world back on its feet - be nice, do the best I can to take care of our environment and all of the people living in our world. I'll also keep working on my attitude and courage to actively work for the women of our society - to not give up until I always feel safe and have the same rights as men. The last couple of months, if not years, there's been a lump in y stomach and chest when watching men "behave" in the everyday life. I've felt ignored, uncomfortable and like I'm an inferior. This has, in the end, caused an anger inside which I have a problem letting out, except the occasional deadly stare and heated discussion....

Let's talk more about the inner change in me as a person the last year. I've had many experiences which has showed me more and more who I am and what I care for. I know I love to be around people, friends and family but that I also sometimes love to be alone with myself and my thoughts. I've been a lot better at forgiving, when it's the best thing to do in the situation. I've learned how to control myself when I'm feeling stressed and how important it is to just let it go sometimes. The most important thing is that I've started to believe in myself and trust my own decisions and instincts - because who is supposed to be better at deciding for me than me?

For the year of 2017 I haven't made any promises. I never do, but still. I'm going to keep trusting my instincts and just do my own race. There's no goal, nothing I really want to change for the better or worst. I'm just going to keep reading, doing yoga and meditation, sipping tea, traveling, talking forever with friends, laugh, dance and whatever I feel like doing. This year I'm entering with an open heart and an open mind. Let's all make at least one promise to each other: to treat each other with love and care and always try to see the situations we get in from different perspectives. Let's learn and not continue to do the same mistakes.

Tomorrow's Monday and also Appreciation Day here on the blog! Think while you're reading: What am I extra thankful for this moment?

Love and light,

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Everyday life, Sweden

Since I'm a big sucker for beautiful, warm and "organized chaos" homes I thought I'd share three pictures from my friend Malin's apartment. Every time I've been there I just want to snuggle up, listen to some music and eat food forever and ever since Malin never disappoint with her skills in the kitchen.

Christmas time! Since we celebrate with our families the 24th of December here in Sweden, yesterday was filled with food, time spent with relatives and the family, love and laughter (to be cheesy.) Also these last couple of days has been filled with a lot of movies and sleep. I realized I hadn't blogged all December, not a single post since I left Iceland, and decided I have to at least say hello to some new (and old) followers. Merry Christmas!!

December has been festive, fun, focused and stressed. I've been studying a lot and working, but guess what: I'M DONE WITH SCHOOL!! At least for a while. And wow - it feels great to have done it but I think I'll wait a while more before I start studying more. Now when it's over I'm really proud to have handled it and actually done it pretty much all by myself since I was studying without a classroom, a teacher and real lectures. Instead I've been sitting in my apartment, with friends and sometimes alone at friend's houses (one time only) to finish different lab reports, essays and tests. On the internet (with some assistance from dear friend's when I don't understand.) Whenever I'm free. But OK - I'm going to drop it now. I'M FREE. Sorry. Now I've dropped it.

The idea is to fill the coming weeks with things I haven't had time for during these last months: spend more time with friends, move, actually use my gym card (which I already pay for every month... maybe not too unusual.) Also relax and breathe. Get back to yoga as it used to be: fun and exciting. Last but not least: I'm going to think about South Africa and get ready for the coolest girl power-roadtrip of the year of 2017! I really can't wait.

If I won't write anything until 2017 - Happy New Year! Otherwise - you'll here from me soon. Take care of each other and always remember to breathe - everything else will fall to place.

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Traveling, Iceland

Both of these pictures are from yesterday when we went around the so called "Golden Circle". The sunrise was amazing and the landscape... wow.

These are all from our roadtrip on Friday. This amazing place is called Jökulsárlón and is a glacier lagoon. It's in the southern part of the island and right under the huge Vatnajökull glacier. We arrived right when the sun was setting and I think we all got a little bit emotional, it was definitely one of the most beautiful places I've seen. In the freezing water there were free seals in their natural habitat, playing around and watching us.

Black Sand Beach, in the city of Vík. We've heard you should be very careful while spending time here (there were a lot of signs warning tourist that you shouldn't camp near the beach. The waves are very rough and unpredictable and sadly enough the girl in tourist information told us that a tourist died there last year.

The waterfall Skógafoss, one of our first stops this Friday. It was such a powerful waterfall! If you walked the stairs to the top of the fall you had a view of the glacier and mountains behind it and also the river under the fall that lead to the ocean.

The Strokkur geyser in the Geysir-area. What a power!! Burned my foot while walking over some of the water from it though... the water is about 80-90 degrees celsius. The area is included in the Golden circle.

Last but not least the Gullfoss waterfall!! It was really slippery over there since the water in the air immediately froze to ice everyone (it was freezing cold and a bit windy.) This place is also on the way around the Golden circle.

Here are some pictures from our road trips on Friday and Saturday. Both days we've started before sunrise and gotten home after sunset. But it's been worth every minute of it. The landscape here never seems to stop impressing with its greatness. Here's a summery of our Friday and Saturday:

Friday
This day we drove about 800km. We left home around 8am to drive to our first stop Seljalandsfoss, a real small nice waterfall. After the fall the glaciers started showing up on our way to Skógafoss which has a lot of more action. At Skógafoss you could-a walk up a bunch of stairs (felt like thousands of them, I have to admit) to get to the top of the waterfall. The view from there was stunning, you could se the mountains and glaciers on one side and the lake from the waterfall on the other one. The lake went through a sun lit flat landscape until it reached the ocean. Later we drove to the small town Vík and walked a bit on their Black sand beach before we had some lunch at a local grill. Then it was time for a looong drive to the Jökulsárlón glacier lagoon. We drove pretty much (at least) four hours in total front and back from Vík to see this place - and my lord it was worth it! It's located right underneath the Vatnajökull glacier which is huuuge (have a look on a map of Iceland - you can't miss it.) Since it was between the glacier and the ocean it was real windy and freezing cold but since we've learned that layers is life here on Iceland we were well prepared. I even had some time to just sit down and take it all in for a while. Except the amazing view is was also sunset and free seals were swimming around i the lagoon playing with each other and looking at the (stupid) tourists. It's the first time in my life I've seen free seals this close by, and so many of them! Jökulsárlón is definitely a place I would recommend everyone to go to. If you're better at planning than us you can book a 2-3 hour guided your around the glacier and get to climb inside of ice caves in the area!! I'm so sad we didn't know that earlier. After the glacier lagoon the looong drive home to Reykjavík waited. As a treat for staying up and having an awesome day we then went out on town for a pizza and some icelandic beer.

Saturday
Since we weren't going as far this day we left around 10 am (I think) for the Golden circle which took us through an amazing landscape with prairies and in the distance: mountains everywhere. Since the sun rose while we were driving it felt like the landscape were opening up more and more for us every minute. We stopped at the Geysir-area and saw the Strokkur geyser erupt a couple of times (the real Geysir was resting for that time.) Later we drove just a couple of more kilometres away to the Gullfoss waterfall which was huge. It was real slippery though since a lot of the water splashing from the waterfall immediately freezes to ice in this time of the year. We had some lunch at their café which has mostly sandwiches and a soup of the day (also coffee and tea which is much needed in the cold.) They also have a big tourist shop where my mum managed to buy a hat for 10.000 icelandic crowns (about 800 swedish crowns.) It was real nice though!! But anyway... we then left for our last "target": the Secret Lagoon (Gamla Laugin in Flúðir.) We were all on board on the though of going to a lagoon while here in Iceland but we were unsure about the Blue Lagoon and also we found out that you had to book it a couples of weeks ahead which we hadn't done and therefor it was fully booked until December. The Secret Lagoon was real nice though! It was cheaper and felt very natural, and oh my t was hot... We had some beer in the lagoon and after 1,5 hour I was more red than anyone there and felt like I was about to pass out haha. Which isn't that surprising since it was like I've been in a sauna for 1,5 hours and well... I didn't drink any water. Big warning!!: don't dip your head if you've got sensitive skin. I had a face mask the same night and my face completely flipped out (it was horrible, hurt a lot and on the top of that I looked like the nose of Rudolph the red nosed reindeer. I used the same face mask a week earlier and then it was no problem. It became an evil circle: I cried because it hurt so much and then it hurt even more since I cried tears on my cheeks (which somehow triggered the rash.) Summery: just be careful.

Today was our last day and we've mainly been hanging out in the city since the weather was nice and we've have spent a lot of time on the road (we're all a bit tired.) I'll update you more about Reykjavík later. Tomorrow we're leaving for Sweden again.

Love and light,

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Traveling, Iceland

Pictures in order from the top (and then the right): 1. Sunset while out in the harbor, finally a small sight of what's hiding on the other side of the water from Reykjavík (it's been cloudy all day.) 2. One of maaaaany cool and really good graffiti/artist work in this town. 3&6. Inside of Harpa Concert Hall. 4&5. Inside of Hallgrímskirkja. 7. Found Reyjkavíks smallest yoga studio!! They only have one or two classes every day but I'm going to try to make to at least one. 8. A cold (and speaking as usual...) Victoria with her latte in skólavörðustígur with a nice look at the outside of Hallgrímskirkja.

Dear readers, I've arrived to Iceland!! Yesterday my parents and I took a flight from Stockholm to Keflavík airport, Iceland. We're renting a car to take us around the island with our base in Reykjavík. Since it's been real rainy, cloudy and windy today we decided to stay in our apartment in the Laugavegur area and explore the city centre of Reykjavík. Even though the weather was tough we put on our biggest smiles and walked all over town. There are many many small shops, cafés and restaurants all over the place. We also had a look at some of the "highlights" and I stumbled across a really cozy book store with a café on the second floor. For lunch we tried the restaurant Gló - vegetarian food with vegan and raw food options. It was a hit! And the hummus... there are no words. Right now we're all exhausted and tomorrow we're going to drive through the southern parts of the island to see more nature. Hopefully the weather is going to be much better!!

Stay updated for more pictures during the next couple of days.

Love and light,

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Everyday life, Thinking out loud, Who am I
Had a long sleep in and had breakfast in bed on top of that. It doesn't happen too often, but when it does it's very needed. The left picture is from a couple of minutes ago, in front of one of my new favorite series: Suits. The right one is after my morning yoga at the harbor in Koh Rong Samloem, Cambodia. I miss walking around in shorts and being bare foot all the time.

It's Saturday and It's sunny. And snow outside. It's super beautiful and all I've been doing today is have coffee in my bed and watching Suits. And it's OK. This is my first free weekend in three weeks and when I left work this Thursday I felt excited about everything I would do this weekend. I was going to study, hang out with friends all the time, go to the gym, shop some food and celebrate being 20 etc etc. But you know what? When I finally got the time I decided that I can finally do absolutely nothing. And that's exactly what I needed. Malin came over for a couple of glasses of wine after work Thursday and yesterday I spent the evening with my cousin Wera and her Tommy. We watched Swedish Idol and played some games. Otherwise I've been studying. Even though I hang out with friends and do what I need to do (study) I feel like I'm not doing enough. Because when you're watching instagram and facebook and other social medias you get the idea that everyone else are doing thousand of things everyday. They get up at 7, have breakfast in bed and then at 9 they're at the gym, they go shopping, make super good and healthy food and then hang out with friends, spend more money and last but not least party all night. How is that even possible? Am I the only one who can't get the hang of that? The thing is that earlier in life I've been stressed out by not getting the hang of that. I've thought there's been something minor wrong with me because I couldn't do all of those things - or mostly because I didn't have the urge to do all of those things. I enjoyed taking it slow and I felt lazy if I spent a free day doing something I love - watching TV-series and hanging out with friends just doing nothing.

But there comes a point where you just have to let your guard down and say: Hey, I'm not like that and it's OK. If I want to stay here all day and that makes me happy then that's exactly what I'm going to do. Because sometimes you need to push yourself to do something you want but that doesn't mean you always have to push yourself. First of all you always have to follow your heart (to be cheesy.)

I hope you're all having a great Saturday and enjoy the sun (either if you're inside or outside). I'm going to try and do some yoga (after my neighbor is done with his or her rock concert on the other side of the wall haha) and watch some more Suits before meeting up with the one and only Emma.

Love and light,

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Sweden, Thinking out loud, Who am I

Today in pictures. 3 of 4 are of train stations and the last one is my view right now while writing this post. I'm in lotus position in my bed, writing and overlooking the lit candles and the snow falling outside of my windows.

When I woke up today and opened the blinds my heart started pounding. It has been snowing a little bit earlier but today was CRAZY. Crazy good. One of the few things I like about winter is the snow, the light in the darkness and it's one of the most beautiful things I know. Since I "skipped" winter last year (October - March) this fall and winter is extra special for me. I'm going to spend Christmas day with my family and hopefully my grand parents, I'm going to work on Christmas Eve-day (which I weird enough actually is looking forward to??) and the 23rd of December I write my final exam in the course I'm studying which will give me a lot of free time in Christmas. I'm hoping for a real loving winter land.

Let's talk about love, bort towards people and yourself. Earlier years I've had some kind of anxiety towards being "alone" (single) during this time of the year. This year I've been waiting for the feeling to hit but it hasn't. I'm alone a lot, since I'm living alone, but that silence and that calm surrounding is perfect for me. Since I'm a big thinker and like to philosophize, I can spend a lot of time of doing just that (I'm also good at eating a lot of snacks and watch a whole lot of TV-series episodes but that's something else.) Don't misunderstand me - I love hanging out with my friends but sometimes coming home to an empty apartment is exactly what I need. It's life my safe zone - where I can relax, sort my thoughts out and do whatever I want. Now maybe you might think that I'm overly excited about being alone. The thing is that I AM. Earlier in life I've been clinging onto people like crazy because I was afraid of being alone. I think I didn't trust myself and didn't think I could take care of myself. Like I was meant to hang out with someone all the time. When I've gotten into relationships I've been in that mode. It feels like I can't take care of myself and that I need someone else to show me I'm good as I am. Of course I've been in love too (twice already! What a wonderful life, haha) but these feelings has always been coming along after a while. And when things just don't work out and a relationship falls apart I'm left feeling half. Like just me isn't enough. Those times I've been very upset, it doesn't matter what I though about the relationship ending, I'm upset because I don't know where to start with myself. Because I've been clinging onto people also so I didn't have to get to know myself. Other people's thoughts of me have been more important than my own. Therefor I've been feeling like I've been left with a stranger when a relationship has ended, when I've actually been left with myself.

I don't know when it happened but suddenly I started to care more about myself and my needs. I realized being alone for a while doesn't mean being alone forever and that spending time with yourself isn't a result of being a lonely person. I need my Victoria-time to work, to get up in the morning and know what I want. Know what I need. Feel the day and everything that comes with it. And that is just amazing! I've finally gotten to know myself and I'm soo excited to just spend time alone sometimes.

With that being said: dear friends, I love you and just because I've found a new friend (me) doesn't mean you guys mean anything less. Have an beautiful evening!

Love and light,

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Everyday life, Sweden, Traveling, Bali (/Indonesia), Cambodia

Three beautiful handmade tree animals bought in a local market in the Kwazulu-Natal area in South Africa. I think I bought them in the trip 2014 but I'm not sure if it was then or earlier...

My small board where I at the moment store different offers (trying to have a good economy...) and the periodical system (getting a bit nerdy I know, but I like it!). To the right is the number one rice hat from Canggu, Bali. Almost a year from today, at Christmas, I got it as a gift from my roommate over there. I think I saw it in a small shed/store about a month earlier and I fell in love with it right away.

This beauty I bought in the Temples of Angkor-area in Cambodia. I remembered I bought two canvas paintings the day before and when I saw this one I felt like "shit shit no why" because I couldn't let go of it. The Chinese and Canadian girls I was traveling with for the day told me it was too pricey but well... I didn't have enough money at the time so the girl selling it delivered it to my hostel later that night. Been loving it ever since. Some how it just brings out a lot of feelings every time I look at it. And look at the colours!! Mmmmm


Right now I'm on my way to work (surprise) and even though this is a Monday it feels like a Friday for me because today I end my five day-week and tomorrow I've got a day off for my studies.

I was walking around in my apartment and noticed how many details I have from my earlier travels. These are just some of them and I'm looking forward to collect more of them in the future. It's very important for me to collect memories, not only in my heart and mind, on my adventures. It reminds me of what I've gotten to experience, the people I've gotten to know through my travels and the feelings I've had on the road. These are some of the bigger details, I also have smaller - maybe I'll upload them next time.

Yesterday when I woke up the roads and everything was white. That's right - the snow is here! It feels like I've been up in the sky ever since. In general I'm not a snow person (maybe I've changed) but since I spent my winter in Indonesia, Malaysia and Cambodia last year I'm overly excited about everything that has to do with winter and Christmas this year. I'll let you in on a secret: ive bought my first own Christmas towels and have been starting to listen to Christmas music.... ssscchhh. It's only between you guys and me. Imagine if that got out, I would get an angry mob after me... anyway. You'll hear from me soon again.


Love and light,

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Appreciation day, Everyday life

It's Monday and you know what that means: appreciation day! If you don't know the concept, check the previous posts with the Appreciation day-tag. OK - here we go.

It's been a really nice weather the last couple of days. I'm surrounded by truly awesome friends. Both yesterday and today I've had long calm mornings before work. Then at work I've had fun and at the same time it's been going really good. I'm going to Iceland in less than a month! I bought a knitted sweater and now I'm not freezing anymore.

Let's leave it there for today. Even though there's a lot more I'm thankful for. What would you say you appreciate a bit extra today? Don't be shy, blurt it all out. Sometimes all you need to feel happy is to remind yourself of this. Say it out loud or write it down - either way it's meant for you.

Now I'm going to blast some good mood music in my earplugs and try to study a little bit on the train to work. Have a nice day!

Love and light,

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Everyday life

This really is a ​mellow morning​. I was supposed to work this weekend but I switched weekend with a colleague and now I'm free. It turned out this free day was needed bad. This Monday I started studying, which I told you, and I'm supposed to study about 20 hours/week but I actually think I've been studying more. I'm a bit pedantic, when it comes to much, and turns out (it's not a surprise really) that I never feel finished with an assignment - which makes it hard to finish five of them in one week. The thing is that my grade in this course will not make too much of a difference. I just need it to get to study what I want later. But guess what - I've finally gotten interested in science!! It may have taken me 20 years to get there but when I'm reading and starting to see connections between things I feel truly interested. I actually think I will have some "fun" this course! It could've been the other way around.

Anyway, today I haven't moved much from my bed yet - except to fix coffee and breakfast. I can't remember last time I just cuddled up in bed and didn't feel any need to go ​do something​. It must've been weeks ago. Feels like ages ago. I'm not going to lay here all day (sadly), I'm trying to get in at a yoga class at 6pm (really excited, but it's full... hopefully not so much longer.) If I don't, well then I might go to a zumba class or something, because admit it - zumba is sooo much fun. But hopefully people are so hungover today that they regret signing up for a yoga class, at least I've gone from number 19 to 10 on the waiting list in two hours.

Be sure to take care of each other this Sunday, end the week with love and start the next one with an open mind and a smile.

Love and light,

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