I never thought I'd be writing this post. Never thought I would've filmed this video. To have made it all this way considering all that has happened since I left home, I never ever thought I would still be here, but here I am. 500 days have passsed since I waved goodbye to my parents and brother at the airport in Stockholm. 500 days since I left my comfortzone to start my, without a doubt, biggest adventure ever.
I cannot tell who I would have been without this journey. It has shaped me from tip to toe, and all in a good way. Today, I am not as afraid of speaking my mind, I put myself first every once in a while, I understand the difficulties we face, being far away from home and having no one around us. I came here alone, and ultimately I'll also leave alone. I've met people along the way that has changed my life forever. I want to dedicate a very special thank you to them. To all my Cali girls, my former host kids, Ruth, my current host family, Mary, my little swedish crew, Patricia and everyone else who I've met and that has made me feel so lucky to be here, to be alive.
The past 500 days have given me more pain and devestation than my last year back home did. We've had two deaths in the family, one very recently and it was someone very close and dear to me. The pain you feel when something like that happens and you are all across the world, there are no words to explain it. It hurts, that is all I can say. It really really hurts, but even so I stand here today. I am still here and I am working through the pain. I would've not been able to deal with this loss in the beginning of my first year as I was not as strong and I was in a worse place emotionally than I am today.
Through all the rain and the clouds though, there has been so many rays of sunshine. Like I said, all the people I have been lucky enough to meet, but also places I've seen, trips I've been on, american experiences I've taken part in such as holidays and sports. All of this together makes for the greatest experience of my life. I will never forget these two years and I will never stop being thankful for the opportunity of coming here.
Lastly, I wanted to say thank you to every single one of you out there. Friends, family, old classmates, colleagues, who ever you may be, thank you. Without my wonderful support system I would not have been able to stay here for as long as I have. So thank you thank you, for sticking by me, my blog, my long videos and my social media. You guys are the absolute best. I have no more words but thank you. I hope at least some of you enjoy the video and that you watch at least some of it!
Until next time everyone!!