I've been thinking a lot about what it's like when you first move to a new place, and then what it's like after you've been there a few years. 3 years ago I was counting the days, I was so excited about the move, about a new life. When I first got to LA this city was everything I'd ever wanted it to be, even better. I found the feeling I had been looking for for so long, it felt great, but does it stay that way forever? Or does it fade away?

Starting over can feel absolutely great or absolutely miserable. I've always happened to love change so to me it felt really good starting a new chapter. Everything was new, fresh and the best part of it all: It was a place without problems. I had no past here what so ever. My friends were new friends, I had a brand new apartment, I went to a complete new school. Every day felt like a vacation to me, even the days I spent in class. Acting was so much fun, I did a student film for the first time. I found a really cool group to collaborate with and we ended up filming together, we even traveled together. For so long I looked at LA as if it was the best place on earth.

I will always have the love for LA, for a reason I don't even understand. It just feels home. But one important thing to have in mind when you move to a new place is the fact that nothing stays perfect forever, because life will never be perfect. Wherever you go, if you stay long enough, you will experience harder times. Problems will very fast catch up with you and new once will appear. There are good sides and bad sides to everything. School didn't actually teach me a lot about the acting industry, I had to learn the hard way. By bumping in to assholes who claims to wanna help you with your career, but what they really want is to get into you pants. By seeing how older men in the industry takes advantage of younger girls who doesn't yet know the business. By constantly being categorized and typecast. By learning that look means more than talent.

I've always seen the best in people, never seen a reason to why someone would ever lie to me or wanna hurt me. Trust me, LA was a slap in the face. Luckily I've never ended up in a really bad situation where someone was taken advantage of me but many people sure have tried. And that's sad enough to me. There's so many things that are going on in this industry, there's this really dark side to it that I never ever want to get to know. On top of that, being from Sweden makes a lot of other places feel like a downgrade when it comes to health care, school etc. All these things are for sure gonna affect your little dreamworld. It has effected mine. Do I still like LA? Yes I do, but I don't see things the same way I saw them when I first came here.

I'm more aware now, which means it's easier for me to stay away from situations I don't wanna be involved in. This city has made me so much stronger, and if someone ever brags about all the stuff they've been working on and how they now can boost my career I turn around and walk the other way. It still affects me though, the bad sides of this place. How shallow people can be. It's hard to stay real in a world that is very fake. I loved living in my dreamworld, where LA was nothing but perfect, but what I like even more is to live in the reality. To see LA for what it really is, both good and bad. It's amazing and it has flaws.

Back to my question, does it ever fade? The feeling of being on top of the world, unstoppable and the feeling where everything feels new and fresh? I don't know if ''fades'' is the right word, but it changes, that's for sure. The feelings changes. I have days where I still feel like I'm on top of the world and I have days where I just want to pack my bags and get out of this town. The bottom line is, what place isn't like that? Sure there are places better than others but as long as you are where you want to be, do what you want to do and stay true to yourself, that's really all you can do. Because no matter where you are or what you do life will never just be a dance on roses.

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Had the best low key Thanksgiving yesterday. As much as I love big dinner parties this was exactly what I needed, just a calm and cosy night together with my best friend. We didn't have a lot to cook since we realized way too late that Trader Joe's is closed on Thanksgiving. We realized this on thanksgiving morning. Luckily we had some food in the fridge and ingredients at home so we still managed to pull it off!

It became a vegetarian thanksgiving since neither me or Yas likes turkey very much. I made a potato gratin for the first time, it actually came out really good. We also made some vegetables in the oven, pancakes and of course pumpkin pie! So yeah, nothing advanced, just super simple. Over all it was a perfect thanksgiving, and I like having a new holiday to celebrate since we don't celebrate this one in Sweden. We should though, or just some sort of Holiday where we get together to celebrate all the good things we have in our lives.

Hope you all had a great thanksgiving!


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Today I spend the day in Down Town LA. Had a casual photo day with Yas, strolled around, made a quick stop at Acne Studios, then we shared a pizza at the Grand Central market. Today was a really cosy day, now I'm super exhausted and and super tempted to go to bed even though it's only 8pm. So that's exactly what I'm gonna do now. I'm gonna find a good forest/rain list on Spotify and enjoy the feeling of slowly falling asleep.


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Had dinner at Olive and Thyme. Enjoyed it but felt bad at the same time. Then again, I need to find some way to entertain myself during this time. Some escape. It's for sure the most cosy and homey place to be during the holidays and the food is delicious.

Speaking of Holidays. This will be the first christmas I won't spend together with my mom. It makes me want to cry. So I sat at Olive and Thyme tonight trying to figure out why I can't be happy with what I have right here right now, why I'm even complaining when my life is so good. Am I that person who's just never going to be satisfied? That kind of person you never can keep up with or keep in your life for too long because I'm always going from place to place? In one way, that's the person I want to be. In one way, that's the person I am. I'm also the person who loves her family and misses them more than anything on this earth, and all I can think of is how much I want to be there, and here, at the same time.

It'll be okay, I know that, life has a funny way of figuring itself out.

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Not knowing what you want in life hurts, knowing what you want in life hurts. I've only ever been on one side, I've always known. Knowing what you want in life is both a blessing and a curse, and I guess it's the same the other way around. It's a blessing because you know exactly where you wanna get, there's no question about it, and you know that there isn't another option. It feels like a curse when you feel the pain of not knowing how to get there, when you spend days-years working hard for something while it feels like you're getting nowhere. Though I don't believe that you can spend years working hard and get absolutely nowhere. Though it sure can feel like it.

Knowing what you want doesn't mean you actually know what you are doing half of the time. It's a rollercoaster. Sometimes you're up really high, then you fall down fast as hell, then everything is more still for a while and then it starts getting bumpy again. It's a rollercoaster of emotions. I can get so high on life sometimes, my goals and visions are carrying me away to another world and I love it. Then it can get really low, when nothing is happening and it feels like the whole world is standing still. Wanting something so much it hurts and feeling lost and stuck is probably one of the worst things for someone who knows what they want. If we know what we want, why can't we just get there? Well obviously, we wouldn't learn anything from it and it would take away all the fun.

It's hard to depend on that one thing to make you happy, it's hard to find a balance with all these love/hate emotions. I'm in a place right now where I feel stuck and unhappy, but I know that if I would ever quit I'd be unhappy too. I feel like I'm missing out on things in life, but missing out on a dream is not any better. That's what I mean with a blessing and a curse, it's a blessing to feel so much, to want so much, but it's a curse when you feel miserable because of it.

I guess it really is about the balance, I guess it's about not putting your happy into just one place. I think that's what people are talking about when they tell you to enjoy the journey. That you should live on the way, not put your life on hold and wait for better times to come along. Just live, in every way possible. So that when life takes different turns, turns you didn't expect, you know you'll be just fine.

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On December 15th all my sisters are arriving to LA! How fun?? I haven't seen any of them for over two years which is totally crazy if you think about it. I thought I would have to celebrate christmas without family this year so it was such a surprise finding out that all of them are coming here.

I have the best and most generous family in the world. When I talked to mom today she asked me if we all wanted to go to Las Vegas since they haven't been there. So mammi bought this whole trip for us and I'm so excited cause we've never done anything like it. I mean we did lots of family vacations when we were kids, but this time it's just us sisters, and this time we're all adults. Last time we all went somewhere together me and Emma were super young and probably super annoying haha! I remember us in the backseat of the car, putting our feet in Molly and Polly's faces and making up super silly songs about them. Good times good times! Well this time we might be a bit more mature, or not...

The most awesome thing about Vegas are obviously the hotels and the fact that you can get a really nice one for a good price. This time it was really cheap for some reason, some of the hotels on the strip were only 30 dollars per night. When I was in Vegas with Mathias the other week we went into one of the Italian hotels ''Palazzo''. I was like ''I need to live here next time'', and since the prices were so low I could actually get us a suite. Like Emma said, it will make our rich alter egos happy haha! 

Anyway, super thankful for my sisters and the rest of my family. Love u lots!


Pictures taken from google.

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So sometimes I just get an idea in my head and I'm like ''Yeah I really want to do this''. Lately I've been obsessing about snowboarding and snowboarding outfits. Don't ask me why, I've never even been skiing nor snowboarding. Maybe it has something to do with the fact that my boyfriend is super into it and that we went to Burton in Las Vegas and tried on really awesome winter gear. Or maybe, just maybe, I'm incredibly tired of the heat and need some winter in my life. Maybe it's a little bit of everything.

I've decided to try out new hobbies. God knows, there might be so many other things out there that we would enjoy doing. I've decided that I'm going to try my best to find new fun hobbies. I might actually love snowboarding, but I won't know until I try. So that's for sure on the top of my bucket list right now. We should try out new things right? There's probably so much that we don't know about ourselves that we could easily find by doing something we've never done before. The thought of that makes me really excited, I love getting to know new parts of myself.

My challenge to you: Do something completely random and see if you love it.

All pictures are taken from Pinterest

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It's almost been a year since I started working in the studio with Haskel. Being able to write and record and just develop as an artist has probably been the biggest highlight of my year. I've been going back and forth with what I want to do. Do I want to get my music out there? Do I just want to do it for me, just for fun? What kind of music do I want to write and preform? I don't want to release something and not feel a 100% good about it. I want my music to be a 100% me.

So my big question for the last couple of months has been: Who is ''me''? Who am I as a person and who am I as an artist? Going up on stage and just be yourself is harder than you think so I've been trying to find an image to hide behind. I felt like maybe it would be easier to just be two different people after all, Linnea in real life and Linnea the artist.

That's not who I am, that's not who I want to be. I don't want to be two different people I just want to be me. So I realized that that's my real image. I am Linnea and I am a bunch of different things, not just one. I want to be real, I want my music to reflect that, I want it to be about who I really am and how I really feel. No cover up. So when you finally get to hear my music and when I finally get to preform it that's all it will be. It will be my music and my feelings, and it will be real.

That's why I'm making a Piano EP. Stripped down and simple. When I write that's what I tend to go to, the piano. I've always loved making ballads so why fight it? I love it, I love that kind of music. Sad and meaningful. After that we will see what happens. I'd love to write all kinds of music, but this is where I will start. It feels good to finally know what I want to do. So let's do it!

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Here in Los Angeles the Christmas celebrations have already started. It actually started right the day after Halloween was over. I don't mind at all, this is my favorite season of the year and the longer I can celebrate it the better. November and December are such great months. I didn't used to think so when I lived in Sweden, I just saw it all as cold and gray, but now I would love to have a little more of that in my life.

So how do you find that cosy Christmas feeling while living in LA? Especially when you associate Christmas with snow and cold dark weather? Well I can tell you this: After over 2 years in LA 15 c starts feeling like freezing cold. So yes you actually feel like you get to experience some cold cosy weather for a month or so. Then I think it's a lot about the vibe you put out there yourself. Having warm drinks, buying holiday candles and just listen to christmas music at least makes me feel the Christmas vibe.

Today on Rodeo Drive they played Christmas music and the Christmas lights were already up. All the stores were filled with Christmas and Thanksgiving decorations and it was really cosy just strolling around in the stores. That for sure got me more into the Christmas spirit.

By the way have you guys noticed how amazing the sunsets in LA have been the last couple of days? So beautiful.

With that said, I'm welcoming the winter with open arms. How I've been waiting for you!

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It's crazy how fast a week can go. You pick him up at the airport and then time just disappears. The best part of time flying by so fast is knowing that I soon get to go to Sweden to see him and the rest of my family again. It's like I get jealous of everything they do, even when they just happen to be at a restaurant I love. I look at their lives and it all seems so great, and then I look at mine, not so great. Then again it is, it is great, really. Why is it so hard to see what's right there in front of us? Why do I look at Sweden the way I used to look at America? Like it's the greatest thing in the world? I guess I really am the person who wants the cake and eat it too. I can't stand life being slow and not exactly how I want it to be. I want my life to be the most interesting thing there is, I don't want my days to be anything alike. It's a thin line, wanting life to be crazy exciting at the same time as you want to feel some sort of safety. No wonder I'm always confused.

But last week wasn't confusing at all. Last week was fun, super cosy, safe and exciting. All at once. Thank you for that.


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I don't think anyone ever has it all completely ''figured out''. I don't think it matters if you're 20, 30, 40 or even 50. I still don't think anyone ever feels like they have it all under control. I feel like people are always looking for the new next thing, and on top of that life keeps changing its course whether we want it to or not. Challenges and obstacles will always be thrown our way no matter what age we're at. So waiting for the day when everything is going to make complete sense is a waste of time if you ask me.

It's funny how you can look back at your life, look back at times that were actually really hard to get through, and now it all just seems like a piece of cake. It sure wasn't a pice of cake back then, it was probably hell. Still it doesn't feel that way anymore, because you got through it. I don't think anything is impossible to get through, some things are of course harder than others to get over, and some things you just never forget, still the one remaining fact is that life goes on anyway. To me that's like a bittersweet feeling. It terrifies me that the world can go on while mine is falling apart, but it also makes me feel very safe knowing that no matter what happens to me the world will still go on.

Looking for things to be perfect, looking for a specific destination, those are not the things that makes us happy. It's a great thing to get to where you want to be in life, but once I get there I'm sure there's going to be something else that I want. Perspective people, it's really just about that. We always want more out of life, we will always find ourselves feeling lost once in a while. It doesn't mean you're actually lost, just that maybe it's time for a change, or that you have a few big decisions that you need to make. So why wait for things to fall into place? Things are always going to fall in and out of place anyway, might as well enjoy the bumpy ride.

''Life is hard'' my mom said to me today. She's right, life is freaking hard, but isn't that what makes it all so worth it? Great stuff comes out of hard and difficult situations. Sometimes it's necessary to feel a little lost. So if you don't have it all figured out yet, it really only means you're human. It means that you have a bunch of stuff you need to go through for god knows what reason. We all know hard times are waiting ahead but so are the good times. I think that's how it will always be, which means that no matter how old we get there really isn't a destination. There are milestones of course, and I think that dreams and goals play a very important part in our lives, but the best part about life is that there isn't just one thing that can make us happy. No matter where you are heading, no matter if you know exactly what you want or literately have no clue, there's always this, the present, and it's up to us to choose what we'll make of it.


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Throwback to a beautiful day in September. Two Ice coffees in Central Park, some shopping at Henri Bendel, constant sunshine and a mother by my side. I miss her, I miss this, I miss the city. What a perfect day it was.

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A daily dose of happiness. From The little things in life to the big things in life. New York, nature, coffee, music, animals, fashion, love, you name it. There are so many things to be happy about every single day. I might not be exactly where I want to be, but I'm still so happy just to be here. I'm letting the rest go now, it's time to start focusing on how freaking happy I actually am.


All pics from Pinterest.

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Yesterday I got inspired by a girl on Instagram who made this super simple but very delicious meal. It was just a picture of some vegetables and potatoes on a plate, but it caught my eye as the big food lover I've always been. So while running some other errands this morning I passed by the grocery store to get some potatoes and vegetables, I decided to make my own version of it though. Colors are always fun so why the heck not get some purple potatoes and carrots? I don't know what it is about pretty looking food, but it sure makes it more fun to eat right? I also put some broccoli in there knowing it's really good for you. I LOVE cauliflower and zucchini so that got thrown in there as well. A little olive oil and some seasoning on top of that and then just about 30 min in the oven and then it's done! I also bought some fresh chives and used it in the sauce.

Haskel showed me the app pinterest where you can find a bunch of good recipes. It's always fun trying out new stuff and I'll probably be trying out some new recipes shortly.

When food is life!

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