an older text I wanted to share here... Sorry I've been away from here, I thought for a while I didn't want to "be a part" of this blog anymore, I thought of deleting it. Impulsive Maria makes stupid decisions sometimes, but luckily I didn't delete this space. I love a blog, and I want to continue Life Right Now without shame, without regret, and with an open heart. Documenting my thoughts is one of the best things I know, so I shall continue. Join me for the ride!
Anywhosen, this is an older text I wanted to share here...
It's a calm evening at work. Very silent. I'm sitting at the office, kicked off my shoes, and I wanted to take a second to just express my gratitude.
Man, I'm grateful.
You'll see this word on my blog quite a lot. It seems like I always end a post with that: Saying I'm grateful. I suppose my writing reflects how I live my life, as well.
I like to finish a yoga practice giving thanks. End the long day by giving thanks. And as much as I don't want to be repetitive on here, I truly believe you can't say it too many times. If people complain, stop writing it everywhere and keep it to yourself!
Gratitude can really be like medicine. It guides me back to the present moment. It reminds me of what is really important. It can help shift my mood like a light switch.
But hey, sometimes your mood just is what it is. And one thought may not cure your day, but if anything it can be a reminder. The dark will not defeat the light. The light is stronger than the dark.
Being thankful doesn't neccessarily mean you are happy about everything, joyous or in love with everything. Let's keep it real. Expressing gratitude, for me, means acknowledging my blessings. Acknowledging the good stuff. It's easy to get lost in the chaos, the mind tends to focus on what's going wrong, or what could be better. Perhaps it's hard for you to think about situations in your life right now. Perhaps you ask yourself "but what do I have to be grateful for? I have nothing".
Wrong, my friend. Here's one thing: You have you.
It may seem corny, and corny it might be. But you can simply take a moment to be grateful for being alive today. For breathing. In the challenges we encounter and hardships we meet, gratitude is grounding. Remain present in this moment, and count your blessings instead of your problems. That is not ignoring your problems, and I'm not claiming they don't exist or matter. But here it is again, re-focus. Turn yourself towards the light. Acknowledge your blessings and know that you are loved. The universe sees you.
Now, I'll take a moment here and express my most sincere gratitude for a few things I thought of tonight.
Firstly, my job. I do not take my employment for granted. This job is so special for me, and I never want to seem ungrateful for it.
My honors and gratitude to my family and friends, those who have always been there, always supported me and my dreams. And you know what? Thanks to the people who let me down as well. You've played a part in my life and helped me grow.
I am thankful for my family that raised me. They gave me a foundation to prosper out of. They've allowed me to find my independence, and taught me so much that have led me to this point. They continue to support and respect me as I continue to grow, which is everything I could ever ask for.
Without these people in my life (you know who you are), I don't know where I'd be. My utmost gratitude and RESPECT to those who handle my shit and stay with me through thick and thin. I'm not the craziest bitch in town,
but I can be crazy sometimes.
Thank you. Thank you thank you thank you.
And thank you for reading this post.