I'm gonna start with something very deep and quite dark - depression.

I think I have it. I don't know. I'm not sure. I feel like I might be depressed, but I don't really know why. You don't need to have a reason for being depressed or sad. I don't. I also have major trust issues for, again, no reason, or at least I don't think so. I haven't had my heart broken or being back stabbed by a friend. Nothing huge has happened in my life, but I always expects the worst of people.

I have no faith in humanity, basically.

I kind of wished I had some traumatizing experience so I would actually have a reason for feeling the things I feel, but I don't. And it sucks. I know, I know. I'm lucky. I had a good childhood, I have many amazing friends and nothing bad has really happened in my life. Nothing more than normal. I realize I sound like an asshole, sitting here and writing I wished something would have happened to me BUT it's only because then things would make sense. If I had my heart broken, if someone broke my trust, it would make sense that I don't trust people, because no shit! But nothing has happened. Nothing big. But, maybe it's all the little things that's being build up in my head and becoming bigger and bigger? I don't know.

If anyone in the world is reading this, have you ever experienced anything like this? Being sad for no reason? Not trusting people, always expecting the worst in people and situations? Please, let me now.

Human x

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