You are now 14 years old and all you can think about is food and exercise. When you wake up in the morning it is the first thing on your mind, your whole day is planned, so you can get as much time as possible to exercise. Your friends are leaving you, or are you actually leaving them? Your family tries to stop you, but you trick them, it is getting easier to lie because you tell yourself that you have no other choise. You go to school, but its hard to concentrate.
You are now 15 years old, you know you are sick, but you won't admit it. Your mom tries to "wake you up" and stop you, but you refuse to listen. You tell yourself: "Im not sick, I just live healthy and I aren't even hungry" and focus on the "good" pain from your legs during your second run today. You dont have your menstruation anymore, but you doesn't care because your bones are evident. You starv yourself during the day, and let yourself eat between 19:30-20:15 but only if you have done your daily exercise! You are not happy, sad or angry because you do not show feelings anymore, you are just walking around drained of energy. The happy girl is gone, but you continue.
You are in treatment and it is going the right way, finally. You are started at a dietitian and she is amazing. You gain energy like never before, and you dont do as much exercise anymore. Your friends is lost, but you still have a few and you try to prioritize them - but its not easy. Your family is amazing and helps you, even though you can see how much energy it drains from them. You are getting stronger, but the ed is not giving up.
You have to keep going, you have to keep fighting and you HAVE to beat this disorder! You will succes, you always do, and this time is no exception. It might be the hardest thing you have ever done, BUT you will make it! Life is so much more than food and exercise and you deserve so much more.