When waking up in a world seemingly not prepared for the thoughts I want to voice, communication becomes a multi-leveled challenge forcing the core to.. jump.. to scream.. to laugh. It forces my soul to LOVE . The heart gets ripped open time and again. This life demands presence! It craves improvement! It forces a person to be R E A L.
To understand what is happening with/for and to me; to interpret what's coming my way; to identify WHO I am ~ WHY I'm here ~ WHAT my purpose is, I have to learn to focus my being; be prepared to put in the effort to work for it; and learn to automatically decipher e v e r y t h i n g.
Be attentive. *I* am in control here. THIS is my Journey.
Deciphering the Kaleidoscope is my attempt to explain how I'm continuously working on doing it, and the Journey to every day be as mindful of it as I can. Coming out of life so far with multiple traumas and PTSD as a consequence, I need to have it as open and constantly conscious as possible in order to be healthy, be happy and move forward.
We're dealt a hand that we didn't really choose and within those parameters, we have the obligation to ourselves to make it right by us. Where I'm coming from doesn't define me; it presented tools to become me. Move away from fear and limitations, towards goals, dreams and progress.
In my way, my pace, and at my will.