About a half a year ago, my best friend committed suicide.
I never knew why she did it. She never left a note, never gave anyone a call. She just did. It has always made me think, why would you ever want to leave those who love you? I think I have finally found my answer; maybe not to the full reason why she did it, but maybe the general feelings most of them have. In my opinion, people have suicidal thoughts to try and see what makes the pain easier or go away faster. It's a permanent "solution" to a temporary problem. Believe me, she knew what she was doing, my little angel. She was smart, independant, beautiful, and stubborn. I don't think she understood the reality of it. The reality of having to look at your loved ones grieve. Having to wonder what your future would have been. Never being able to experience the new beginnings and endings of certain points in her life. Therefore, she chose this path for her. I do believe there are greater things beyond physical living. Just maybe she is living the experiences that she would never be able to do here, now. Maybe even better. She has no hurt, no bullies, and most importantly she is finally happy. Her being happy is all I wanted for her. Through everything she has gone through, she deserves every last bit of happiness. As I miss her dearly, she will always be a part of me.