My life is about to change. It´s the biggest change I have made. And one of the hardest choices I have done. But one thing is sure, the people I have talked too are right. Sweden will be here, the once I love and care about will still be here and I will only be one phone call away. I have so much anxiety about this and I know I shoulder´t have but I guess thats the thing. I need to show myself I can beat it. That I can follow my dream that I´ve been dreaming about for nine years now. It´s time for me to do this. And if it doesn't work? I will come home, but than I at least follow my dream and did something for myself.
For once in my life, I'm choosing me. And this time I really am! In some ways I feel like a total moron for doing this, I mean I`m leaving everything. My family, friends and my boyfriend, and I feel so bad about it. But I have to do it. Do it for myself. I need to go out on my own adventures, to see the world. Try my own wings. And thats what I´m going to do. But I wouldn't have been even near to do this without my family, friend and my amazing boyfriend. They have all been so supportive and pushing. And even though some took it harder than others i have never felt so much support from them all.
I had my last day at my job last Friday. And it was more than one tear going down my face when I left. I LOVED my job! My colleagues, the company and my boss. I could never have asked for anything better than what I had there. And I am truly sad about leaving them but I need to do this. I need to see what else there is out there. I need to get away from the town I grew up in. I need to see something else than the things I have seen for the last 22 years.
I will update you on how it´s going. But for now, I just want to be home with the one I love.
All my love // Daniella