My perspective on life has almost always been "the glass is half full", even during difficult moments. I never thought that depression would be something that might affect me. My limited understanding about depression was that someone felt bad or sad; however, I never really thought about the personal impact of depression. My lack of knowledge about depression - its symptoms, effects, impacts, and treatment options -would later prove to be troublesome for me.
I was a full-time hard-working stay-up-late-and-get-it-done kind of person. You could always reach me by phone or email. I never said no.
But during a few month of trying to handle work and private life as good as i could - My life started to feel so different, completely different.
Then the waterworks started. I sat at home on phone with my mom and couldnt stop crying. All she asked me Was "why" and I could only say “I don’t know.” I felt embarrassed and weak. I had no clue what I was doing or feeling anymore. I felt so stupid!
Here I was, this motivated career woman, that felt like a failure. I wasn’t enjoying my work or life anymore. I hated every minute. I was stressed out from that and from the lack of sleep! Ive totally lost memories, time frames and the way ive loved my life as a happy girl! A girl who loved being around friends and enjoying every second i spend wherever in the world! Suddenly i felt lost, lonely and i didnt even want to put a smile on my face. Couldnt be THE daughter and not even THE good friend i i used to be - i had nothing to share or either love & happiness to spread! Ive been in the dark!
I needed help ASAP - but it took a while for Me to understand and accept that fact!
Nobody has to struggle alone, as there's always someone who is willing to provide assistance. The challenge for me was to give someone an opportunity to help.
"How can i explain whats going on in My mind?"
If a statue falls and is broken into many pieces it is those who are closest that try to put it back together again.
And it turned out my very friends tried to understand my situation and handled it! Honestly i have no words to describe all the help and support ive got - i wanna thank all of you from the bottom of my heart! Its not possible for me sharing as much hugs and kisses to you guys to show how thankfull i really am! I Love you to the moon and back! Thank you for beeing EXACTLY you! ❤️
Im not back on track yet - but i try to focus on one fact - its worth it to fight this challenge! Life gives the hardest battles to the strongest soldiers! Try to think im one and its ment to be! Soon im back with a better version of me!
Remember , no matter the length of your journey, don't forget to be your best! - so do i ❤️😘