​I'm ecstatic. 

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​As I'm thinking to myself, the thought hit me that I never told you guys where I applied. Well, Columbia, duh. But here is a list of the other schools I applied to.





UC Berkeley









I think that's it...



Hey GUYS!!

So I haven't updated in a very long time. I didn't even write about the most exciting part of the college process, aka me submitting my applications?? Anyways, that is over now and I have gotten responses from 4/14 colleges, so I have ten to go(I think). I'm sure you're all curious on if I got accepted/waitlisted/rejected, well, I will tell you.

Out of the four I have gotten responses from, I have been accepted to three and rejected from one. I was even lucky enough to get in as an honour student in one of the three with a nice scholarship. However, the one I got rejected from hit hard on me. I knew decisions would be released at 1AM my time, so I went to sleep, woke up at 4AM for some reason, checked my admission: denied. At the time, I didn't really cry or anything, I mean, I was tired and couldn't be bothered. But every time I think about it now a lump forms in my stomach. It sucks. To be blatant. It sucks to get rejected, but at the end of the day there is nothing that can be done. So yes, it is okay to grieve and to be sad, but don't let it get to you.

And if you're brain isn't destroyed by college as mine is, then you wouldn't know that ivy day is March 30th. I knew this two years ago and I made sure to check social medias on that date last year, that's how college takes over your life.




So my absence has no reason really. I've been very busy and I'm still very busy. College applications and SAT is my number one priority. Being president in various committees takes a lot of effort and time, so I've been doing that. My SAT is okay. I did the math (no calc) section like yesterday and got a 23/25, not too bad. I was reading through my blog and it's quite interesting to see when my SAT math sucked. It's nice to see progress! My SAT score has risen too, but it's still not high enough. Oh, and remember that super good teacher I was talking about? Yeah, she's teaching me now and I love her. Unfortunately she's pregnant and will be leaving soon, but I'm so glad I got to know her for some weeks. I'll probably ask for a recommendation letter from her since I need one from a teacher teaching one of the core subjects. 

Not that much to say, bye!



​Forgot to mention my SAT score! I got an average score around 50%. My best score was Critical Reading, which came as a surprise to me and the worst was writing, no surprise. Don't really know how to feel. Just know that I need to study for the next test.



​This is a letter to a good teacher.

A good teacher is, according to me; someone who understands and makes time for the student. Of course the teaching part is important too but so is the bond between the student and the teacher. Today I spoke to a good teacher. She doesn't teach me in any subject yet but she took the time to meet me and talk about the course and other stuff. I could just tell her genuine interest and kindness and it felt so good. So good to finally get a teacher who truly cares about the students academics and life. I felt like I'd visited heaven after the meeting because that's how rare good teachers are. In my current school I can honestly say that I've had one good teacher out of ten, and it saddens me. A teacher is everything to the course and it matters so much. I can't wait until next year when she teaches me. 

To all good teachers; thank you.



​So my first SAT is tomorrow. I'm a bit nervous, but at the same time I've accepted the fact that I probably won't get a good score the first time. I've been studying like crazy; doing the Blue Book, Barrons and Khan Academy. School also started and I have a whole course exam - which is an exam that allows me to eliminate one course in order for me to go on to the next one - in two weeks. Oh, I'm also training gymnastics on Wednesday and my gymnastics team on Saturdays so I'm juggling many things at once. To be honest, I've tried to cope with it in a way where I'm thinking of it as a test to test my time management, white fun huh. I wanna do well on everything which is a itsy tiny bit of the reason why I'm stressed. 


- Pray I'll do fairly well on my SATs.

- Pray I'll nail my WCE(Whole Course Exam).

- Pray I'll survive.



This is just an update from my previous math-rage post... I've come to the conclusion that the arithmetic was the most frustrating part, although I'm still struggling a bit, the rest is going... better.




I'm currently studying the math section of the SAT and never felt so frustrated. There are so many new things that I'm learning and it's stressing me out. I thought the SAT was a test to test your current knowledge. But as I'm doing some practice questions I don't understand anything. American math is so different from Swedish, and I know that by experience. The thought process is different and so are the techniques. I went to an English school before, and the math was so different compared to what I do now. It was very confusing in the start, but now I'm used to it; but taking this step again in and adapting to the "American math" in some weeks is too much. I feel like I don't understand anything and simply feel stupid. My mentality is that I'm going to get really bad scores and my plan, everything besides the testing skills that I've built up and worked for will be thrown into the bin.

​My stream of consciousness of the day :)



Thinking, fast and slow - Daniel Kahneman

Wuthering Heights - Emily Bronte

Pride and Prejduice - Jane Austen

Moonwalking with Einstein - Joshua Foer

Cat’s Cradle - Kurt Vonnegut

In Cold Blood - Truman Capote

A Brief History of Time - Stephen Hawking

1984 - George Orwell

Zen and The Art of Motorcycle Maintenance - Robert M. Pirsig

Dirty Pretty Things - Michael Faduet

; (Semicolon) - x q

All The Things I Never Said - Mae Krell

I Wrote This for You: Just the Words - pleasefindthis

Lullabies and Love & Misadventure - Lang Leav

Curious - Ian Leslie

Currently dying to read these books when I get the time.