I'm working a lot right now but when I opened @ work yesterday the weather was incredible! It always boosts my mood when the sun is shining. Just thought I should share it haha!
I spenat my entire monday very sick, i couldn't get up out of bed. Can't remember the last time I was that sick! And I was still sick on Tuesday but my bestie asked if I wanted to grab a coffee with her after she got off work so I did that. But when we had finished our coffee everything was closed in our town (except for like McDonald's etc) but we didn't wanna go back home so we drove to a town nearby and ate at Max, like a Swedish fresher version of McDonald's I guess!
A thing about me is that I love being in a car? Which is hella weird because I love it, but it's also one of my biggest fairs. Like I'm terrified and get anxiety on all sorts of levels when I'm in a car. It all just depends on my mood and who's with me etc. so when I'm in the mood I love being in the car, therefore driving to the town nearby is perfect!
(Shouldn't have eaten anything tho cause I felt bad again after. And I only ate half a kids-cheeseburger and a few fries)
The hospital always scares me, so before my last session I had there I went for a walk in the basement. I figured that I should face my fear, I mean what could happen? And that's just it, nothing happened. I got a bit freaked out and stressed but that's all. I didn't have a panic attack like I was expecting to. I didn't start crying. I just stood there, and stared. For several minutes. But I didn't cry. And I am so proud of myself.
Picture from prom when I got to be the queen for a day. People keep talking about how prom makes you feel like a princess but that's never been my dream. I don't want to be a princess - I want to be a queen. And I got to feel like it for a day. I went with one of my closest friends and we had a great time!
I haven't worked out in forever but I'm gonna start again in a few days and realized that I have to buy something to wear. Found this set on H&Ms webpage, it's adorable!! Makes me a little bit more motivated!
It's no secret that I go to the hospital for therapy, and it's no secret that I'm scared of a few things. One of them being riding in a car when someone other than myself is driving. So yesterday when I was at the hospital we decided that we're going out for a drive next session.
To be honest I didn't think I would find it that big of a deal, I got a bit of anxiety when I was there but for some ridiculous reason I tried my best to hide it from her. Then around 11pm it hit me and I freaked out. I can't cope with the thought of being stuck in the car without being in control. It's not that I don't trust her, cause I mean I tell her a lot of things about myself but when it comes to being in a car, I don't know... I'm sure she's a great driver but that doesn't help my anxiety. And as soon as I think about it I stop breathing for a while and then my breath gets really slow and I have to force myself to take a new breath. And it's over a week left until I should start getting worried but here I am, freaked out.
Anyways, I just thought that I should let you in on this side of me as well, since I've gotten a few comments on Instagram and my cc that I seem to be so happy and like a perfect life I decided to start sharing just how "perfect" my life is. Seeing how I think of it in every other way than as being perfect.
No picture in this post because I felt like none of my pictures went well with it.
Went to see fifty shades darker with my best friend last night and it was just such an amazing movie! A thousand times better than the first one!! I just felt like Christian was a manipulative abuser in the first one where in the second one he becomes a person who likes a little bdsm! I totally recommend this movie!