The picture in the middle (taken outside) doesn't really show the true color, my hair is now gray with a hint of lilac in it and I'm OBSESSED. It's so shimmery and like metallic I just ughhhh
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I spent April 1st with my two closest friends. First me and S went out for a bit of shopping and lunch. Then we went back to our town, picked up J and went back to the larger town again for dinner (which S bought for us cause me and J have both turned 20 now, so cute of her!) and then we went to a show by a Swedish comedian or whatever he goes by, William Spetz, it was great!! Oh and at dinner S took that pic of me and I had to post it here cause how cute is it that she took a picture and posted it on her mystory! Like that's what I want if I ever have a relationship (which I most likely won't but anyways), someone taking cute pictures of you to brag to their friends?? Adorable!
The reason I've been MIA the past week or so is because I found out that my dog had to move. I didn't think that this would tear me apart as much as it did but I've been crying for a week now and today was just horrible. I know that to many people this is just "a dog" or "a pet" and people give their pets away/have them taken from them all the time but this isn't like that. She was there with me when I was at my lowest. She was there when I started having suicidal thoughts a few years back. She was there when I hurt myself and she was there when my baby sister passed away. She's basically what I feel like (and this can sound harsh but I don't mean it like that) is the only stable think in my life. She was always there. When I was all alone and didn't have anyone she was there. And even though I didn't have the energy to take care of her she meant, and still means, the world to me. She is one of two good things to have happened to me. Doris and my baby sister Tyra. And now they're both gone.
Just thought I should tell you.
I thought I should tell you how my last few days have been. I haven't updated much because of this and I hate hiding but that's what I do. I always hide whenever I'm sad or depressing of having anxiety.
Two days ago I spent 3 hours crying and forcing my mind to push myself down. Making me look bad in my own eyes. Thinking poorly of myself. Forcing the anxiety to arise. Yesterday I went to my moms place (I'm currently living on my own, only temporarily) and that was just what I needed. My baby brother was so happy to see me and that warmed my heart. We had "dinner" at like 4.30 and then I took my dog and went back home.
Right now it's 12.45pm and I spent the entire night last night with just being a terrible person and quite frankly bullying myself. I can't explain what it's like when I do this cause it's hard to grasp, but right now I feel terrible and all I can think of is how easy it would be if I just wasn't here. My mind keeps playing these tricks on me and I end up hurting myself so much that I go back to the way I used to be. And it's been 228 days since I last Physically (mark the word) self harmed. And I'm so proud that I haven't since then but now that my mind is doing this I want to go back to my old ways. Mentally self harming is just as bad as physical but I don't think people think of it that way since you can't see it. The scars are there, but you can't see them.
I may or may not share more about this later on, depends on how I feel about the response I get from this.
Today has so far been terrible so now I hope it'll change. Just writing about it can help me so I hope it does this time.
These are some of the things I got from my mothers family. A cactus cause I don't like flowers but I want something green in my bedroom window, but somehow I always end up killing the flowers so apparently a cactus is life proof and Julia-proof! Amazing.
The tiny frame saying "Always be yourself, unless you can be JLo, then always be JLo" and I honest to God think I like that the most, haha!!
A speaker from my mom and her husband that gives 360* angles of sound, and it's also a multi-room speaker so I can buy more later if I want one for each room when I've moved away from home!
The rest you can see, and I also got a lot of gift-cards for IKEA so I can buy myself furniture when I move!
Tomorrow is my birthday but I'm actually going away over the day so we celebrated me and my mom with our family today and I got a lot of great things, I'll show that later in another post, promise! Right before everyone showed up here I felt a little hungry so I just cut up some kiwi and added just a few raisins before dinner!
Tune in later for pictures of what I got from my mothers side of the family!
Hey guys! I hope you had a good day yesterday, mine was amazing in so many ways. I went to Stockholm with my bestfriend because in one month and two days we are Finally flying to Barcelona!!! And since I'm a Norwegian living in Sweden (I'm like half and half or whatever but my passport is Norwegian) I have to go to Norways Royal Embassy in Stockholm to get a new passport. And it had to be valid for at least 6 months after I've arrived in Barcelona for them to let me in the country, and mine was expiring in just a month I had to book an appointment before the trip. And my BF was nice enough to go with me and make a day of it!
We took the train there and then had to change to a subway and then a bus to get to the embassy and it took us forever, we left sooo early in the morning! Then we spent some (a lot) of time there to fix my passport etc and then we took the buss back into the city, grabbed something to just eat and then took the sub to Mall Of Scandinavia. We have a friend who work at Lush there so we talked other for a while and then we went to a few stores in there.
One of the stores we went to was Of Course (!!) the Disney Store. And I didn't cry this time (yes, I cried when I saw the Disney store in London and the whole way inside) but I was so emotional, Disney just holds such a special place in my heart.
When we went back to the city we went to this very beautiful church that we've been to before a couple of times just because of how beautiful it is. The ceiling is amazing and I love the gold details.
After that we went in to the mall just real quick and then we went to T.G.I. Friday in Kungsträdgården (where by the way the waitress was rude there and her boss didn't seem to care so I can't say I'm going back) and I had a glass of red wine and Johanna had a drink that legit tasted like if you were eating a strawberry that you just picked in your garden, it was so good!!! Recommend recommend right (if you know, you know).
One of my closest friends met us outside T.G.I. Friday a little later and we went out for dinner with her and just talked, and god have I missed her. She moved to Stockholm a while after we graduated and we can't meet as often as I would want us too. But that makes the times we actually Do meet so special! And I almost cry every time we have to separate again, haha!
In other words, my day was great! Today I've been out and about with mom and then I went to the gym, I think the night will just contain a lot of tv and series per usual!
- Sneakers or flip-flops?
- Heels or flats?
- Coat or jacket?
- Piercings or tattoos? (I don't really like piercings)
- T-Shirt or button-up?
- Nightgown or pajamas? (I don't sleep in anything)
- Curly or straight?
- Short nails or long? (I'm the worst gay ever)
- Black or white?
- Shorts or pants?
- Dress up or dress down?
- Facial hair or clean shaven? (I HATE HAIR WHEN IT'S NOT ON TOP OF YOUR HEAD.)
- Mansion or cabin in the mountains?
- Smoking or non-smoking?
- Bar soap or liquid soap?
- Subway or car?
- Facebook or Twitter? (follow me @JuliaLyngmo)
- Calendar or cell phone alerts? (I use both!!!)
- Apartment or house?
- Personal chef or personal fitness trainer?
- Abs or chest?
- Boobs or butts?
- Hands or feet?
- Early bird or night owl? (both, I barely sleep)
- Introvert or extrovert?
- Hugs or kisses?
- Fix it yourself or call a professional?
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- Smile or eyes?
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- Older or younger? (yessssss)
- Roses or lilies?
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- Sinful or righteous?
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- Alone or in a crowd?
- Secretive or open? (according to my 'psychiatrist' I'm the most open secretive person she's ever met so I don't know to be honest!)
- Locked or unlocked?
- Murder or suicide?
- Touch or taste?