New year, new opportunities. I walked in to the new year with Evrim. it was the most perfect start. It was not as the normal new years eve celebration, but it was our own one. We watched movie made pizza and watched the fireworks together. Having his arms wrapped around me while the new year were starting made me so peacefull. nobody gives me the peace he does.
2018 will be a good year, i wrote down some goals for myself to reach through the year. One of my biggest motivation to go on and to make 2018 a good year is, knowing that Evrim will come here permanently hopefully in summer. It gives me so much motivation, to work hard and pass the last time we have appart from each other.
One of my new year resolution is to learn how to write and speak turkish.I wanna learn so that i can have a better relationship with his family, and sure for myself. i would love to be able to understand and talk the same language that my love grwe up with. learning a new language is not something so easy, but i will put my all effort in to it and with great help from Evrim i think i will be able to reach my goal.
Im trying to put my mind on work and my everyday, but there is something in my mind that is taking me away. the feeling of missng. Everytime he goes back to Turkey my heart breaks. I try to remind myself that it is not a goodbye for real, its just for some time. Even tho i try to hold in, it breaks through some times. i miss every single thing, his smell, his actions, his voice...