10 Perfect days passed. we put together some videos and picture from our time together. We will for sure get better to take videos and post. this is just a little start. hope you like it!
Its saturday evening and im sitting down and waiting for the time to pass. Waiting for the time to pass so that i finally can be connected with my love again. There is only 3 days left of this waiting but 3 days can honestly feel like years when you are waiting for something big like this!
I feel like a child because im so exited for him to finally come. I miss him amazingly much, i even miss the small moments like when we brush our teeths, when we make food together and when we lay down and talk in bed. I diddnt know it was possible to miss somebody as much as this before i met him. Being away from him is making me feel a lack, a lack of the happiness in my life.
Finally he will come here soon and i will be in the place were i belong, in his arms!
Everyday while im going to school i see this tree, I started out taking picture of it one day because i thought the colors was so pretty. After some time i recogonized how much it had changed. Then i got the idea, to take picture of it while it was changing. So here you have the result, all pictures are taken in same time, just one of them is 30 min later then the others.
2016 is almost over, and it have been a year full of new experiences. i started my Ambulance education, school is challenging but when you see that you success, you feel that the hard working was worth it. I have had a year full of love from my friends, family and especially from my boyfriend. This year have learned me new things and i have had my ups and downs as normal people have to. 2016 was a good year but im sure 2017 will be even better for me. I have many things to look forward to this year, i will keep you updated when things are happening.
My New Year's resolution for 2017
🌸Save money: Its something i have been good at the past years and i wanna keep doing it. I will save money to buy my own car, to travle and to make memories with the people i love and for future appartment/house with my boyfriend.
🌸Step up my workout: i will take my workout more seriouse, i have had a good workoutschedule but it started to fade the last month. I have Physical Demands that I must pass to become an Ambulanse apprentice. so new year new motivation.
🌸Learn Turkish as much as i can: Learning turkish is one of my biggest goals this year, school comes first but i will try my very best to learn it as good as possible. I have already started but i need to put even more effort, to be able to talk it and understand people. Luckily Evrim is willing to help me.
🌸drink more water to stay hydrated, water is the best drink for you, i will drink water instead of other types of drinks. for sure not all the time but most of the time.
🌸Enjoy my life more: Reduce the time i use in social media, especially when im with people. i wanna live in the moment and forget my phone for a while. This is something me and Evrim are good at, we always put our phones away, to spend our time together and not on our phones.
Have a happy new year!
Recently i have been dealing with a heavy sickness, a cold with many sides. High temperature, pain from my throwt, headache and throwing up. I have had this sickness going on for around two weeks, and I am still having it. I am trying everything i can to get better and have some energy back. Because right now Im getting tired amazingly fast and my energy is almost all gone.
In this times i can say that having Evrim with me is really helping. He is doing everything he is able to do through a screen. I can see how much he cares for me and how its affecting him to. It makes me feel better because i know that he loves me and that he will be by my side to help me even more in the future when he is living with me. Its good to know that you are in good hands if something happends. Listening his voice makes me feel warm inside and i still have butterflies everytime i see him. I know that he loves me in every situation. Im comming to skype looking like a sickMonster, but he still tells me how much he loves me and that im his beauty. It melts my heart i cant belive that i found you Evrim, you are my soulmate and my life partner!👫
This blog post was not to complain about my sickness or something it was more about telling how much one person can make you feel better even tho you are bad. I know there is people out there dealing with much tougher sicknesses than my cold. People are fighting for their life and all respect to all of them! I hope you all take care of people around you, make them feel as confertable as possible and feel that somebody is caring them, its so important!
I wish we could be together right now, i would sleep in your arms feeling all protected. Luckily i know we will have it in the future. I will take care of you and be by your side through sickness and health! I promise
Its wierd how one person can make your life so perfect, just by being there. Make you laugh and smile everyday, even tho you are maybe having a bad day. I have never had a person in my life that made me feel like this, until i met Evrim. He changed my life, in a so good way. From the day we decided to be together 24 of July 2015, til now. He makes me feel like a princess, he always put a smile on my face and make me laugh. To be this much connected with a person is something special, he fits me, and he make me the better version of myself. After we met i have had more motivation in life to succsess and more happiness. We loved everyday, talked for hours and i diddnt get bored one single moment. Some people ask how we can spend so much time in skype with each other without being bored, or to run out of things to talk about. The answer is, i cant get bored of him, i can even just sit and look at him and still not be bored at all. i adore him.
Days were we dont talk much and maybe dont have time for skype, i feel a lack of something. He is the one who compleats me, i can really say that. If i am sad, he knows it, without me even telling him, he just tell me that he can see/feel that something is wrong. Nobody have had this much connection with me. We talk our problems together and it makes it so much easier, just knowing he is by my side to support me is a so good feeling.
I dont really know were i want to go with this blog pot but i just felt like i wanted to write some feelings. I have been thinking and thinking of him for all evening. Having a long distance relationship can be tough cuz you just want to hug and kiss that person. I wish to be with him more than everything!! Some evenings are harder than others, i can just sit down and think and imagine how good it would be if he would be here to with me. The good thing about long distance relationship is the meetings and the time we spend together, its the time i appreciate the most, jut being us two. I feel in safe with him, i want to go to bed and sleep with his arms around me, it is the best feeling i can have. Knowing that he will be there, if i wake up after a bad dream i can just hug him and sleep in peace again. ahhh as i miss ittt..
Luckily its not much time between our meetings. Hopefully we will start our life together in Norway as soon as we can, i dont know if it will be 6 months or 1-2 years. but hopefully as soon as possible. I could have waited a life time for this to happend so i can for sure wait this time.
I love you so much Evrim, you and me!
As i yesterday were writing about how good christams is and how much i love it, i started thinking about those who is having a fear of christmas. The holliday is for many people the best time in the year, but it is important to remember that not everybody is having a so good time. for example loss of people, christmas brings up many family related things and also many memories. Some people are having a hard time passing christmastimes becuse they are always reminded the close people that passed away, and im sure they all would wish they could be there to spend the holliday together.
Not ever child is exited for Christmas. I know that there are children who associate Christmas with something negative. It may be because of alcohol, and that there are many parents who drink too much that day. Some people have a tendency to drink more, to treat themselves with an extra glass of wine. im not saying its bad to take a glass of wine or what ever, but just drink carefully and know that there is childrens around. christams should be a good time with family, happiness and love.
Christmas is also the time with more accidents, mostly because of drunk driving or heavy weather. As an ambulancestudent i have seen many horrible video tapes from reality or heard histories. In one of the lectures we had they showed us this video as you see bellow, ita a strong film with some real photos and some made up, but it is all things that is happening in real.
December is finally here, its easy for people that knows me well to say that i love christmas. Christmas has always been my favourite time of the year beacuse its a time where you spend much time with family, you eat good food, have more big familymeetings and everything is just so peacefull and cosy. December is the time to chill and spend quality time with friends and family.
As much as i wish Evrim could be here to spend christmas with us, does he unfortunately not have time cuz of school this year. this is one of the bad parts of comming from different cultures, they dont have same hollidays as us. i have tried my best to explane him what we do in christmas and what traditions we have, and he is starting to have a good idea of how it is, but he needs to join and see it in real to really understand fully. And im pretty sure he will love it. it wont be this year but lets hope for next year:)
In my family we have old traditions through the christmastime that we follow each year. its always the same just some small adjustments. i cant wait for the time when im living with Evrim and we will make our own christmas traditions together. Hopfully keep some of the traditions i already have but also create new once. it will be great, just imagining it makes me smile like an idiot.
Merry christmas everybody! be safe:)
I am coming back to my country again. Totally 9000 km and 25 hours to see my other half and to come back to 'home'. I know we will hang up all obstacles and be together, but this process is just so hard. It needs sacrifice, it needs time, it needs a strong character but most importantly it needs a huge love.
When your tears start dropping not because of how you feel, but how she feels, you understand that you really love her. She will come home from school and wont see me in home, wont be able to hug and kiss me again till i come back in 1.5 months. Knowing this is giving me pain most. Her goodness is my priority.
Love guys, love. It gives pain and takes everything you have, but it also gives the real happiness to your life.
Goodnight my baby, this time without my kisses and our hugs. Try to sleep well even though it is hard. When i come back, i will make all these alone nights, i promise you. I love you so much Monica, even after my last breathe, my love will be existing for you.
Being in a long distance relationship can be hard some times. expecially saying goodbye after having time together. Evrim just left today, i thought i would get more and more used to this, i mean more used to saying goodbye. but its not like that. Im having a hard time saying goodbye everytime, my eyes are all read and sencitive. it feels so empty and alone when he leaves, and i cant hold back the tears that are pushing on. Luckily Evrim knows how to make me calm and feel better, he really knows what to say. He is so strong, caring and loving. I adore everything he do. nobody can ever make me feel this good just by talking to me and hugging me. he is so valuable to me, and no one is as good as him, im so lucky to say that he is just mine.
Long distance relationship is not bad, its sooo beautifull. we have such a different connection than other couples. this distance means that you need to trust your partner, show tolerance, have good comunication and appreciate the time you have together. having a relationship like this means that you needs to know what you want and you have to stand for what you belive in. people will come to you, and tell their opinion. Your family may discourage it, other people will tell you to be carefull incase you get your heart broken. in this situations its important to do what you feel, stand up for yourself. I personally diddnt have much problem about these things, we both have good people around us that supports us.
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