The reason why I fell hard with you, it was because I looked at you and I saw this beauty wherein I felt home in paradise, your arms was the one holding me and your smile was the warmest smile I ever saw, so far in my life all I see is beauty from within but the best one I’ve seen was you
I fell hard in the arms of someone who gave me so much more, who was my comfort and who was always there, carrying my inner wounds, who gave me confidence despite my low-self-esteem, who made me laugh and the one who regained my smile
You felt like home and in there I stayed, I stayed not because I couldn’t love myself, I stayed because you were there, you loved me at my worst and my best, loved my flaws, my thinking that I wasn’t good enough and the way I see myself. You loved all of it
The arms that I was yearning for, the home that I was hoping to stay so long and maybe forever, the smile that made me fall so hard, the laugh that made me think I couldn’t ask for more, the touch that I wished to never forget
But the home that I was in love with, fell apart and went to a different direction. It just vanished, collapsed in front of me, and I still stayed. Reconstructing every pieces that I could do, didn’t gave up and stayed by his side
Until the home that I was constructing was no longer willing to be fixed, no matter how much I tried to fix it. The home that I wanted to stay so much, was no longer there. I tried my best I tried everything to be with him but he was no longer willing
And he didn’t exist anymore. My home left me.