I do modelling for Toni and Guy! I love it, I get my hair fixed for free 😂 and I get to do something I love at the same time
Are we dating? Are we fucking?
Are we best friends? Are we something in between that?
They always say the first kiss will reveal true chemistry, but I beg to differ. The first touch, the eye contact that seems so nervous at first but then so intense, the brush of a hand whilst walking beside the other and that grin that doesn't drop from your face even after you met, to me that's true chemistry.
You can meet so many people that you click and connect with on so many different levels, one that shows you the world, one who makes you laugh, the one that inspires you to new interests, the 'one', the family person, the one who disappoints you. That's the great thing with the world, every experience is a lesson. There's no shame to be greedy enough to want to get. glimpse of everything, I mean it's only human nature to be curious.
I have been on dates with people I have planned children with in my head (no joke), then I have been out with someone who I have fantastic drunk dances with, I have met people I never want to see again in my life, but I want more, I want to believe in romance and passion and yeah, I believe there is someone out there for everybody.
Recently, I went through the worst brekaup I could imagine; I felt like the world was going to end, there was no happiness left on this fucking planet. But then I realised I was in love with the memories not the person anymore and it was time to move on. It will hurt and it will suck, but once you accept to deserve the love you should get back from someone who really does love you it will feel much better.
The past days have been hectic, I have handed in papers, gone through my first exam and finished realising the world really does not end. Partied with my girlfriends and sam, met the NBA team and partied some more. All in all had a great week.
I just got home from The box after dinner and drinks then a night out with the girls who are visiting from Sweee and Ariane;and early mornings always get me up in my feelings to write. I got a horrible text and call tonight from a friend of mine who had encountered a person threatening him when he was out having a good time in a club. It reminded me of how hard it is to break out of a pattern when you are emotionally abused everyday. Emotional abuse is one of those things thats not visible, it grows everyday, it takes over your soul and body and you are left paralysed because you trick yourself into thinking you cant do better. This person who had threatened him was the same person I put up with everyday thinking this is what love is. If you are reading this and you are thinking you are being emotionally abused, leave. it's the best blessing you will ever do for yourself for the long run.
Nobody should taunt you, manipulate, lie, cheat or control you. you are your own person and you deserve everything you wish and want for yourself. I plan on getting my heartbroken before I settle many more times, I plan on traveling places in the world I still haven't heard off, meeting people who open my eyes up everyday and learn along the way because if it's something to realise is that life is so short and there is no chance in hell I'm planning on spending it unhappy. I've changed my mindset, and just that commitment has made me happier than I have been for years!
This week I have the whole week off! I'm thinking of relaxing, going to the gym as much as my body allows me, eating lot's of yummy food and I even have a special date planned which I am really looking forward too! :)
I hope everybody takes care of themselves, watches Eat, pray, Love and remembers to love who they are.
Purple kisses on her neck, thinkin bout the day we met
Body drippin sweat, eat that, eat that pussy wet
Purple silhouettes, purple drank and cigarettesShe is my addiction, need a Nicorette
Travis never stops suprising me....wow