Despite not being on this earth for too long, there are many things that I have learned during my 16 years of existence, and I feel like I should share some things. So listen up

Not everyone is going to like you.
And that's fine. What's important is that you like yourself. Now I don't mean that you should go around and be a bad person as long as you think that it's okay behavior. What I'm saying is that just like you don't like some people, some people won't like you. And it isn't always personal, no matter how strange that sounds, sometimes people are just plain bitter. Don't get hung up on it, be at peace with it and move on. Period.

Don't take yourself too seriously.
Have fun in your teen years. Don't spend a vast majority of your time thinking about something critical someone said. Lord knows I have spent many nights imagining a fight with someone just because they said something about me that I found slightly rude or unnecessary. Take everything with a pinch of salt, live with humor at the tip of your tongue and laugh just like you breathe. Of course if someone tries to cross you in a genuinely harsh way or if they're just downright mean, stand up for yourself.

Not everything needs a response.
I myself seemed to have some kind of need to always respond to everything, even if it wasn't directed towards me. I responded to things like snarky comments, someone else (according to me) dumb opinions, questions that weren't mine to answer, actions that bothered me and just genuinely put my two cents in when it wasn't even my business. Now when I look back I see how annoying it was when other people did it and how annoying it must've been when I did it. Learn from mistakes frens, and remember, a look says more that a thousand words.

Words can't hurt you.
A very bright person by the name of Jinkx Monsoon once said "Words can't hurt you. Only your own perception of those words." Meaning, don't let someone else words bring you down, what's really hurting you is the way you handle and take those words. The most important voice in your life will always be your own, a voice is a weapon and that's why it should be handled with care. Remember, anything that brings you down is simply just

There is no definition of beauty
Beauty is not something that should come with a picture as reference. TV and magazines will build an ideal picture of what they define as "beauty" to sell or plug products, and people eat it up. Beautiful isn't just something you are, it's something you do. There is just as much beauty in action as there is in simplicity, a sunrise or in spotted skin. Your own perception of beauty is the one you do what you want with.

There is no hurry.
With the years I see more and more younger kids tryna rush the aging process. They want to be "grown up", they wanna go out with their friends and wear makeup and they start swearing and think that drinking an energy drink makes them look cool. I have never understood why they are in such a rush to grow up. You age and get older every single second, you have the rest of your life to be an adult but you only get one childhood, you're a kid only once. You have no place to be, so why hurry. The world turns slowly, you should do the same.

Asking for help does not mean you are weak.
Asking for help in a hard situation does not mean that you are weak and can't handle life on your own, it simply means that you are aware enough to know that some extra help could make things easier. Assistance is not something you should fear, both asking for help and helping is as natural as breathing, so why would you not do it. I understand that there might be a thought in the back of your head saying that it will be a such a "heavy burden" but believe me, there are many people who would gladly help you at all times.

That was all my frens, perhaps a lil short but I hope you found something you could either apply to your life or relate to. Have a great weekend darlings 💐💛

(SONGS OF THE NIGHT! I've been listening to the album TAXIDERMY by the fabulous (and complete genius) Sharon Needles all week. I recommend the songs Hollywoodn't, Taxidermy and Dracula now that we are getting closer to spooky halloween week👻🎃 Check it out on Spotify, iTunes and YouTube!)

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5 things I'm unable to do🙅

  1. Think for myself.
    Other peoples perception of things often get in the way of my own thinking and I find myself not being able to form my own opinion on people and things.
  2. Prioritize.
    "Study for this important assignment or rewatch an entire season of this mediocre show that I'm not even that into?" LET'S WATCH THIS SHULTZ!
  3. Let (some) things go.
    Anyone that has ever had a dispute with me knows that I hold a grudge until the grave but if I really can't be bothered I will find it in me to let it go eventually. I'm also terrible at, even though it sounds cliché, let things and people that I love go.
  4. Pick good role models.
    Inspiring people come and go, during my time growing up I have found many people to look up to and idolize but at one point or another many of them have fallen for fame or let things go to their head and they have turned to downright lunatics. Every time it breaks my heart.
  5. Keep track of time.
    I legitimately have no idea when to stop watching a show and go to bed. I need counseling.

5 things that bring me joy😄

  1. The color pink.
  2. Tattoos.
  3. A greatly assembled outfit.
  4. Making people laugh.
  5. Convenient rain.

5 underrated people💛

  1. John Oliver.
    Comedian that deals with social issues in a humorous way.
  2. Alaska Thunderf*ck 5000
    One of the most positive, influential and
    joyful individuals I have ever come across. Puts a smile on my face all the time.
  3. My year 6-9 teacher Daniel.
    Coolest man ever, will never be able to thank him enough for all the gifts he's given me. Truly a saint.
  4. The mothers of my best friends.
    Just like aunts to me, love them with all of my heart for blessing me with their children and giving me the honor of knowing them as well.
  5. Lil' Poundcake
    If you know why then you know why. I'm not explaining this one. I C O N I C !

5 songs that make me happy💃

  1. No Future - Blink-182
  2. Puppet - Alaska Thunderf*ck 5000
  3. Sissy That Walk - RuPaul
  4. Controlla - Drake
  5. Jump In The Line - Harry Belafonte

5 phrases that piss me off😒

  1. "I just feel like it's not really that feminine to…"
  2. "Being gay is definitely a choice."
  3. "Are you really gonna eat all that?"
  4. "Where are you from?" "Sweden?" "No but like, where are you really from?"
  5. "I'm not a racist but…"

5 favorite responses👽

  1. "Sickening!"
  2. "I've had it!" / "I'm sick of it!"
  3. "Girl. Giiiiiiiirl"
  4. "Vallbybron."
  5. "EAT IT!"

5 favorite TV shows 📺

  1. Big Bang Theory
  2. Stranger Things
  3. RuPauls Dragrace
  4. Bob's Burgers
  5. Fresh Prince of Bel Air

5 favorite meme-




Sometimes, life is really into lemons. So life decides "Hey! This person would love some lemons!" and so, life gives you lemons. But you don't want lemons, no not at all. In fact, the last thing you want to hold at the moment is a bunch of lemons. But you still have to do something with all of these lemons in your hands, so naturally, you make lemonade.

Going through a hard time should not be seen as a form of punishment from the universe, keep in mind that, no matter how cliché it may sound, you must face the rain to get to see the rainbow. Where I am at in my life right now is in the middle of a giant and messy hurricane. But the hurricane came to me oh so quietly. There was no warning or sign of it, it came tip toeing around a dark corner and grabbed me and my company by our sweating necks.
I thought, how will I not choke on my own misery after this?

I was afraid to wipe anyones tears as I thought my fingers were razors. The only thing I wanted was to know how to breath, every intake of air felt like the first after spending an hour under water and moving my eyes from the same dirt spot on the white wall gave me a thunder of a headache.

My firend, have you ever felt like this?
While I want to say I don't want to be alone with having this feeling, I also would never wish it on my worst enemy.
I have to find a way to look after myself, I have to learn how to pull myself out of the dirt. Because taking a shower feels like a chore, my room hasn't been cleaned in 6 days, I've been in the same sweatpants and too-warm shirt for the past week and the circles under my eyes are bigger than my will to be awake.

I feel lost, confused, betrayed by the universe, I feel empty of tears but can't seem to stop crying. I feel like there is a big animated grey could with thunder and a storm right over my head and all I can seem to do is sit in this uncomfortable hospital chair and let it rain on me. If you were to take my pulse you could only do it by grabbing my cold feet because my heart has dropped and I feel like it's about to stop every time someone comes out of that white, disinfectant smelling, beeping room. When I take walks I look up at the gloomy sky and I get the same feeling I get when I see an old friend who did me wrong. All I wonder is, what did we do to deserve this hell?

In the eye of the hurricane, there is quiet, for just a moment. My friend if you are going through hell well then keep going. Rise and rise again until the lamb in you becomes a lion, take no SHIT from the world but do no harm. Be your own damn hurricane. You are not alone, not now, not ever. You will always have me, my strong lion.




As I'm writing this I lay sick in bed, covered in tissues and blankets watching my new friends' snapchat stories (add me on snapchat guys niki_ghxssemi) from last night, smiling at their silliness and pretty grins. I think to myself, how adorable and gorgeous aren't they? The memory of seeing them in the streets, hugging them and just being in their presence puts a warmth in my body that just won't leave.

In the midst of it all I catch myself off guard, a thought pops up,

when I started my old school 4 years ago, did I feel like this about those new people after just 4 weeks as I do with these new individuals in my life?

When I think long and hard about it, I don't think I did. I would even go as far as saying I didn't feel really at home with my old classmates until my last year, in reality it took three years, but I was so in love with the thought of having a class that felt like a family I completely got lost in the illusion. Now, I don't want anyone thinking I disliked my old class or classmates, all I am saying is that it's never taken just a single month for me to find so many people to connect with and so many smiles that calm me down. These people are gorgeous inside and out.
Some of you might read that and roll your eyes, maybe your thinking "smh she's literally just known them for a month she a fake" but I am telling you, these people are so genuine, understanding and kindhearted. I feel like my heart has grown and I feel so at peace with how my surroundings look at the moment.

Now I ask myself, how did it come to this? How did it only take a month this time? I ponder over it and come to the conclusion that this time, I was accepting, I felt more okay with finding new friends, more friends. Yes, I admit, the first week was filled with guilt over finding new friends, I thought of my best friends and it all just felt like cheating, but I learned to accept, and in a way, move on. I tell myself that I will never grow if I do not learn how to adapt to the changes, the world is turning and it will not wait for anyone. I did not turn the pages to this new chapter in my life only to chicken out and re-read the last chapter.

These new individuals, these new souls, they will walk next to me, dance with me, and share laughs with me for many years to come, and we shall share love like never before because things have changed, and that is alright. My heart feels like it beats intact with this three story building and my eyes have never been more open to new times and new faces. I walk down a street on a Saturday and every few steps I recognize a sunny face and they smile and I smile and I get warm and it's all golden.

I'm overwhelmed with emotions and don't know how to end this post, I'm sorry for being gone for so long, I will really try to find time for this blog and genuinely hope you enjoyed this post.

Remember to stay hydrated and make this your week my frens!




I've been feeling very solid with my choice of music during my alone-time this weekend and I felt like being generous and decided to share some of this weekends top hand-picked songs just for you. So this is 10 songs I'm recommending for those angsty dancing sessions in your room at 11 pm, from me to you 🎧🙏

Bang Bang - Green Day
(They're back! Green Day returns with their brand new single Bang Bang, a raw, old-sounding song about gun violence with a sound that takes you back to those Green Day peak days!)

The Rock Show - blink-182
(Fun story! The bands manager asked "Where's the summer happy Blink 182 fun time?" and so Mark Hoppus replied with "You want a f*cking single? I'll write you the cheesiest f*cking throwaway single ever!" and wrote this song in about 10 minutes out of pure spite, yet it's still a complete jam)

Mother Mary - Foxboro Hot Tubs
(The Foxboro Hot Tubs was a side project/band that Green Day formed 2007, and it was a damn hit! Check out my favorite FHT song right here!)

We don't have to dance - Andy Black
Frontman of BVB, Andy Biersack, announced to Kerrang! in 2014 that he was doing a solo side project outside of the band with a much more different sound, getting his inspirations from 80's synth- and gothmusic. He worked with (the man, the myth, the absolute legend) producer John Feldman)

My Friends Over You - New Found Glory
(The amount of nostalgia that comes with this song is unbelievable! Not much to say about this song, the ultimate TBT, still a song that makes you play air guitar and throw yourself on your dirty floor whenever it comes on)

Alpha Omega - MGK
Kudos to AP and my friend for introducing me to MGK, this song in particular makes me feel like I'm in a alleyway at 4am giving side glances to the people who wronged me…and I'm wearing a bandana around my face…and it's black and white…and angsty)

Kill the DJ - Green Day
(wow, tons of GD on this list, I'll just let this one go without an explanation, it's good, it's angsty, it makes me do finger guns at the ceiling, listen to it)

Sledgehammer - Rihanna
(This song was written by Sia for the new Star Trek movie, and you really get that nice Sia vibe from it, but Rihanna's powerful vocals is what makes this song. It's that kind of song that you dance like Loreen to. And of course the amazing music video that it comes with is just a bonus)

Ocean Avenue - Yellowcard
(The song that went double platinum 10 years after it was released, truly iconic. It was the song that put Yellowcard on the radio on loop for the majority of 2004 and gave them some heavy MTV screen time and scored countless award nominations, needless to say, it's a true anthem for any pop-punk fan.

Bored to Death - blink-182
(AAAHHHH!!!! BLIIIIIINNKKK!!!! They're back with their newest album "California" and y'all…my dudes…it's so GOOD! People like to nag about 'bleh…hurr durr…the old blink was better! they're sellouts man!' but they LIE!

There you go! Check out some of these songs why don't you👍 Don't forget to comment if you feel like sharing some of your own weekend favorites😊

Stay hydrated and make sure you get enough sleep my frens!




I wanna start off with saying sorry for not updating the past couple of days but I just started school and since it's all very new I had to really focus on getting ready for that, and I've also been to a teamwork-kinda-camp for the past three days, BUT I'M BACK!
In the spirit of back to school season (ugh) I have decided to make this post about how the first days of a new school with new people felt for me, I'll also try to maybe share some tips during the post on how to deal with some of this stuff.

The first day I was surprisingly enough not as scared or nervous as I thought I would be, the days prior to this day I was shaking with nerves but I calmed down when I realized that I was going to this school with some of my closest friends, and a thought that really helped me going into that room full of new people at 8 am that morning was 'this is just as new for them as it for you'. There is no need to think that you are the only one who is scared here, everyone's just as nervous as you are and no one is gonna pay the wrong kind of attention to you, they just want to see the people they're gonna be hanging with for the next few years, stop over analyzing stuff.

There was one thing I caught myself doing that I would say is pretty bad, you see, I really love the majority of the people in my old class, and leaving them was a really hard thing for me to do and I had tons of separation anxiety over it. The first day at my new school I connected every new person I met to one of my friends at my old school. I would meet a girl that reminded me of one of my girlfriends and I would remember this new girl that way, which I realized isn't really fair or smart. It's not fair to this new person I'm meeting because all I'm gonna be thinking about us my old fiend and how they were, I won't get to know this person for them. And it's not smart because it doesn't help me move on from the past. And when I say "move on" I don't mean "completely forget my old friends" but more like "it's time to open up to more people". Having anxiety over such a thing as seeing your friends less is something I'm sure some of you can relate to, and it's normal man, going from seeing your friends 5 out of 7 days of the week to seeing them here and there during the month is a big change, and some people aren't too keen on big changes. And even now in my new school I still feel a pull towards the friends I brought with me from the old school and when I'm with them it feels like my setting never changed, they are all my safe place and comfort zone, but we all know how important it is to step out of your comfort zone. Get pushed out of it if you need to. And you can't expect to become best friends with everyone the first day, not everyone is gonna open up, and you have to be patient and give them time, getting out of ones comfort zone takes different time for different people.

Another thing that happened was that I was extremely upset over having to leave some of my absolute best friends behind, but my best friends mom (Hi second mom Ullis hope you're reading this!) told me something really important, she said that:
"It's time to move on, but you have to believe me that your story goes on, sometimes with some big pauses. In my case it is 10 or 20 years but when you see each other again everything is the same, just better. It's never 'goodbye' it's just 'Have fun, see you later!'"

You have to remember that even though it feels like

reuniting with them will still be like

But it wasn't even half as hard as I thought it would be to get to know these people, I was so lucky and was placed in a class with super nice and interesting people and after just knowing them for four days I know that I'll find a home in each and every one of these individuals. Showing ones true colors takes time, but I know I will be patient and let these people take their time just the way I will need them to be patient with me.

Anyways, I'm sorry if this post didn't live up to your standards but I'll just hope you all enjoyed it, it's in the middle of the night as I'm writing this and I've been going on 4 hours of sleep the whole day, so I'm gonna stop this now.

I wish you all an amazing school start and a huge good luck with your studies and social life, take things step by step and do things at your own pace.

Stay hydrated and make it your weekend my frens!




I have so many amazing friends, I really do, I'm a lucky bastard y'all know I am. And I have a lot of people to thank for a lot of things, here is just a fraction of it all. (WARNING! Sh*t gets sappy)

Thank you to my friend who always says good morning to me. Every. Singel. Morning. Do not think I take you for granted, when I wake up before you I wait for you to pick up your phone to tell me "Good morning!" and "How did you sleep?". I'm blessed to have such a good friend who cares about me the way you do. Also thank you for never getting mad at me when I tell you to piss off after a sleepless night. +Thank you for always sending half bad memes to me whenever i ask you too. I'm blessed to have you.

Thank you to my friends who let me freak out in the group chat over small things they don't really care about but support me anyways. Thank you for being enthusiastic and asking me about it, thanks for never asking me to calm down and thanks for not ignoring me. I know it takes a lot of patience to deal with me in the midst of a mental breakdown when i think my favorite band i reuniting. You have never neglected me or made any of my interests seem dumb or any of my problems seem small. You are all saints.

Thank you to my friend who just lets me give him ridiculous nicknames and just rolls with whatever weird stuff I decide to throw at him depending on my mood that day. You always take my attitude with a straight face and deal with it by sending those emoticons you know will piss me off even more. You make my day slightly better when you send me those articles and pictures you find oh so entertaining. You're my own personal tiny sun who warms up my ice cold heart slightly more every day.

Thank you to my friend who's always on a good mood when i see him. Thank you for being a true champ and carrying my extremely heavy bad that one time without me needing to ask you. You're the most spontaneous friend I have ever had and every time I get to hang out with you is a golden core memory as you make everything into your own little adventure. I really lucked out when i got to be your friend and I'm blessed to get more time with you.

Thank you to my friend who always rants with me about our favorite shows, bands, youtubers and people. Never once have you not supported me in a mental breakdown because of our favorite show, you're such an angel who warns me about some episodes and never have you ever left me to drown in self pity because my favorite character died. You are also, without a doubt, the absolute funniest person I know, you lighten up my day every time you tag me in something you find funny (or extremely rude) on instagram and you never fail to make me feel special. Thank you for all the smiles you've blessed me with.

Thank you to my friend whose so good at everything you make it your duty to help me and your other friends out when we don't understand something. You never make us feel less than, you don't call us dumb for not getting it, you make sure to tell us in a way we understand and you don't stop until we've gotten it, and for that I thank you. You're an overall amazing person, you're extremely exciting to be around and I can't help but find myself smiling whenever I'm around you. I love the way you get over-excited when you find a clip that went viral 5 years ago and I love the way you never let anyone walk over you. We all admire you so much.

Thank you to my friend who never shames me for being extremely lazy and not wanting to get out of the bed at 2 pm when you've been out there in the rain running laps for the past two hours. You always make sure to tell me to do things at my own pace and always make sure I eat well and get enough sleep (sorry I never listen to you and sleep too little and skip breakfast at times). Thank you for never keeping quiet about any bumps in the road you may have, thank you for always letting me be there for you. You have helped me grow as a person and you have had an amazing impact on my life.

Thank you to my friend who not only looks out for me at all times, but looks out for all of us in our little friend group. Thank you for always finding ways for all of us to hangout and thank you for needing us as much as we need you. I can't recall a time where I needed you and you weren't there. You always made sure every one was included and made us all feel special and welcome in any setting. You are my anchor and you keep me grounded when my thoughts go running wild, and I hope I have helped you in the ways you have helped me.

Thank you to my friend who never lets me do anything crazy…by myself. Thank you for always joining me in my way-too-loud laughing on the bus, thank you for dancing with me in the middle of a clothing stores, thank you for sharing your food with me. Thank you for the times you talked to me until we both fell asleep, thank you for never letting it be truly quiet since you always filled even silence with love and happiness. Thank you for never getting truly mad when I sing the songs you hate and bring back those old memories you find so embarrassing. Thank you for never forcing me to delete a photo of you because you know how much i like capturing our memories. You are the center of every parallel universe there is.

I'm not really sure how to end this as I am overcome with sappyness and emotion so I'm just gonna go and hope y'all enjoyed reading this (not sorry if you didn't (: )

Stay hydrated and make it a great day my frens!




In honor of yesterday being International Book Lovers Day I decided to tell y'all about my top 3 all time favorite books in order, so here you go!

1. Outsiders by S.E Hinton, 1967
Outsiders is a coming-of-age novel that Hinton started writing when she was just 15 years old, but she did the majority of the writing when she was 16 and finally published the book at 18 years. The novel focuses on two rival groups, the rebels called Greasers with their dirt cover faces, jeans jackets and foul language and the higher standard group called Socs (Socials), the west side rich kids with their expensive cars, sports jackets and khaki pants. The two groups are divided by their socioeconomic status which is made extremely clear in the book. When I started reading the book I finished it in one day, and I read it three more times that same week. I was hooked, it was so fascinating. It's told in first person narrative by protagonist Ponyboy Curtis, the youngest of the 3 Curtis brothers. It's such flowing book, if that makes sense. There wasn't a single part in the book where i felt that it was becoming hard to read or keep up or that it was becoming boring and low on action and suspense. The end of every page leaves you throwing yourself at the next and you end up with 20 paper cuts and your nose an inch from the book. You'll also change favorite character every single time you read the book, trust me. When you're sad and reading the book you focus on Johnny, when you're feeling rebellious you think more about P
onyboy, if you're angry-reading you'll find a home in Darrel (Darry) Curtis, if you're feeling extremely loving and gentle Sodapop Curtis is the character for you! I've lost count on how many times i've recommended this book to friends and family. This is the best book i've ever had the honor of reading. It makes you feel like a kid in the 60's at the peak of your angsty rebellion phase sticking it to the man.

2. Gray by Pete Went
Gray is a novel by lyricist and bassist Pete Wentz that was published in 2013. It has in it's time being received as much good critique as bad, and I (as a fan of the book) can see how some people would not enjoy or understand it. His writing style for one is not one you find in many books. It's self pitying, self indulgent, narcissistic and full of sentences so long you completely zone out halfway through and have to read it all again. It's such a Pete Wentz way of writing. Beautiful, poetic, graceful, charming, capturing. The book is about a man dealing with pill abuse, suicidal thoughts and mental illness while at the same time touring with his up and coming band. He deals with looking for a place to call home, not knowing if it is with his bandmates in their smelly van, in the beds of strangers or with his controlling on and off girlfriend in her tiny apartment. The thing about this book is the fact that we have seen so many failed attempts at authors who have never been trough things like depression or suicidal thoughts try to write it down on paper, try to write it in a way that is relatable to people who can find themselves in those specific situations. It often ends up with something extremely generic that cliché authors think they can fix by throwing in a typical girlfriend or boyfriend in the mix like "oh hurr durr I hate everything cry cry oh wait a hot white guy oh i love him kiss kiss i'm cured!" and it pisses me off because they write it in a way that gives off the vibe that all mental illness can be "loved" away.

But Pete Wentz isn't a cliché author, and he has experience with this exact topic. His failed suicide attempt in 2005 (while Fall Out Boy was finishing up their album "from under the cork tree) was one of the most talked about mishaps of that year and he has since then talked about his overdose on Ativan many times. Wentz doesn't leave a single thing to the imagination, he is such an honest writer it leaves you gobsmacked or with tear brimmed eyes, at points you find yourself debating wether he's oversharing or not. He is so honest with everything he writes and points out every single flaw of every single person, but he compensates with never giving away their names and instead giving them nicknames (ex. Animal, Her, Disaster) since the book is entirely based off of his own life an his own real life friends. It leaves you feeling like an intruder, peeking through the window of the narrators enemy's room while he whispers dirty secrets about them.

3. A Thousand Splendid Suns by Khaled Hosseini
"A Thousand Splendid Suns is a 2007 novel by Afghan-American author Khaled Hosseini. It is his second, following his bestselling 2003 debut, The Kite Runner. Mariam is an illegitimate child, and suffers from both the stigma surrounding her birth along with the abuse she faces throughout her marriage. Laila, born a generation later, is comparatively privileged during her youth until their lives intersect and she is also forced to accept a marriage proposal from Rasheed, Mariam's husband." (Wikipedia)

I decided against writing about the plot as i would rather spend time writing about why I adore this book and my thoughts reading it. The first Hosseini book I read was Kite Runner for an assignment, and the second i picked up that book i didn't put it down unless it was absolutely necessary (I brought it to the bathroom with me no joke it was serious business). When I was done with Kite Runner i knew i had to get my hand on another Khaled Hosseini book, and it just so happened to be his next best seller A Thousand Splendid Suns. Both of these books were unlike anything I had ever read before, and I think that might've been the reason I loved them so much. Hosseini paints a picture of suffering many of us never have and never will see, it deals with issues we didn't even know could be issues and shows us that the devil comes in many forms and hides around many allies. Not many actions in books leave me gasping with a hand slapped across my mouth or screaming at a character and throwing my book at the wall. No matter how emotional the book leaves you and how much it hurts reading it, the ending is nothing less than perfect. You have to give this book a chance as even I can admit the beginning was a bit slow, but it's all worth reading once you get into it.
In the end, closing the book after the last page is like taking a big breath of air after being under water for too long.

​I hope you liked this post and I advice all of you to at least give one of these books a chance as they are all a must read according to me, I'm sure you can find number ​1​ and ​3 ​at your local library but number ​2​ is a bit harder to get your hands on. 

Make sure to share ​your​ favorite books in the comments!

Stay hydrated and make it a great day my frens!




Meeting a new person does't scare me, I actually like making a new friends here and there.
But meeting large groups of unknown people!? Yeah no thanks I'd rather not.
Starting a new school, joining a sports team, signing up for a book club, stuff that acquires meeting and impressing many people at once puts pure fear in my bones and gives me shivers. Yet I still find myself talking to complete strangers more often than less. I once talked to an elderly lady for 20
minutes about camera phones on the bus without any problems, I sat down with a 20 year old girl at the coffee shop just because she was sitting by herself and I wanted to see if she was up for a conversation. I actually enjoy talking to strangers at times, but then it trips me out how I get panic-stricken when facing a group of 10 people whom I've never seen before. I find myself wondering why I'm like that, why my friends, parents and teachers describe me as "deadly social" when now that I am 1 week away from starting upper secondary school with about 82 kids whom I don't know I lay awake at night and think about how I should say hi (Hello? Hi? Hey there? Aye wassup?) and if I should be my usual loud self or more laid back.

But then it hit me, I figured out why I'm so quick to talk to strangers but deathly afraid of meeting a group of new people I'll be stuck with...

It's the whole "being stuck with" part! When I talk to strangers in boutiques or in coffee shops it's because I know I'll probably never see them again, I don't have to impress them or make a good first impression because there is a fraction of a chance I'll ever interact with them again! But with sports teams or a new school you have to make a great first impression so that you get on everyones good side. I'm an irrational person who's not so good with thinking before I speak, I always feel the need to react to everything even though some things are better without a reaction, I open my mouth before I open my mind. And the fact that I'm so self aware of these things makes me scared of how I'll behave in front of new people I'll be stuck with seeing every day or week. This summer i've tried to work on thinking before I speak, but it is still a art I have yet to master, but I refuse to give up because thinking before you speak is a skill you'll need to conquer the world dude, I'm not exaggerating!

So that's it, that's a little story of my ongoing journey to self discovery. Hope you found it slightly amusing.

Stay hydrated and make it a great day fren!



Hello! Since this is my first actual post I have decided to make it about something I'm passionate about, music. This is the beginning of a segment I am going to call "2 ALBUMS!". The thought is that whenever i feel the need to, I'll chose 2 albums that I enjoy or feel like other people would enjoy and talk about them and give my opinions and I'll pick out one or two songs I enjoy a bit more on each album! So let's get started!

⏩Vessel, Twenty One Pilots

Vessel was released January 8th 2013, under the record label Fueled by Ramen. It was the bands third album but their frist studio recorded one. It was their debut album and was the album that got the band really out there for the public to see as they were formerly known as "the underground scenes best kept secret". It didn't go higher than 119 on the 2015 billboard album chart but was still a big hit as it sold platinum in the US. It features some of the bands most popular songs, such as "Car Radio", "Guns for hands" and "Holding on to you". For me this album is their best album without a doubt, it was the album that made me absolutely fall in love with their upbeat tempo songs with deep hidden meanings. The bands frontman Tyler Joseph (lyrics, vocals, ukulele, bass, etc.) has a way with words that captures the listener and forces you to listen to certain songs over and over again just so you can find a new favorite sentence or phrase to use as edgy tumblr bio. Every song is even deeper, darker and better than the one before and you find yourself sitting on your bed with socks in your hand completely in trance when you were actually supposed to be cleaning your room. But of course the album wouldn't be the least bit of the artwork it is if it weren't for the outstanding beats of member Joshua Dun (drums, trumpet, professional at doing backflips off of drums). Josh provides an amazing rhythm and the sickest beats that makes me use a makeup brush and a marker to jam out on my desk and head-bang like crazy. Blurryface ain't got shit on Vessel.
Favorite song/s: y'all can't ask me this lmao move along

Electra Heart, Marina and the Diamonds

Electra Heart was released April 27th 2012 under the labels 679 and Atlantic Records. The album was Marinas second studio recorded album and became a bigger hit 2013 than it was on it's release year. It hit number 14 on the US Dance/Electronics album Billboard chart 2013 and went Gold in the UK. It contains some of her most popular songs such as "Teen idle" and "Primadonna". Almost all of the tracks have background noise to perfectly stimulate the vibe that track is trying to give but in the end it is Marinas amazing and sultry voice that ties it all together. Her powerful vocals can go from outraged to heartbroken to carefree in mere seconds and it leaves the listener in hysteria as you can't decide if you're gonna play air guitar on the floor and scream or mess up your hair as you jump up and down on your bed as if you were in a Cyndi Lauper music video. The album has a song for every occasion imaginable and Marina Diamonds deserves all of the fame and success she has.
Favorite song/s: Teen Idle, Starring Role

That's all for this post! Hope you enjoyed it and I totally think y'all should check out both albums and I hope you find a good jam!

Stay hydrated and make it a great day!