Today was one of those days... You get up ,wash your face, listens to some music and gets some shit done. You fell alright not good but alright. The day goes by and you think "mabye I`m gonna be fine". Thats when it happens.
The anxiety kicks in. Your head starts to spin and you start feeling drained. I know that you are supposed to stay positive but it is just so damn hard when it feels like your dying. Everything around you is turning grey and nothing matters.
You get all cold and angry and everything and everyone pisses you off. You can´t sleep and in the middle of the night you start crying... You feel like mabye death wouldn´t be so bad. After a while you fall asleep. Then you wake up in your own personal hellhole.
Thats how I´ve been "living" for the past 8 years, in my personal hellhole.