Dear future me
There's only a few hours left of 2016, six to be precise, and I couldn't be more excited for a new year... I sincerely hope that you feel the same about 2018, but for other reasons.
This year has been crazy, litteraly insane, a mayhem. I was expecting a year filled with love, happiness and adventures. But I was wrong, that never happened, or maybe it did, just not in the way I expected.
When I look back at this year, it hurts. Like hell. It hurts to think about all the near and dear that has passed away. It hurts to think about Darcy, Alice, Lilly and Ophelia. And of course, my precious Bella. It hurts to think about all the heartbreaks and the dissapointments, all the failures I have experienced. It hurts to see what has happened to France, Aleppo, America, the entire world. It hurts to see all the people who are fighting and fleeing for their lives, all the people who has died, not only in war zones, but in countries where war is non existent. It hurts to think about Alan Rickman, Prince, David Bowie, Carrie Fisher and so many others. Let 2017 be good to everyone who needs it, including me.
But I also remember all those moments of joy I spent with my best friends, with my mother and sister, with my father, with all the people I never thought would break my heart but actually did. We all had some beautiful moments together. I loved London, France and Amsterdam. I loved Christmas and other holidays. I loved school and the work load. I loved so many parts of the year, but I am ready to move on.
Move on to brighter days and happier times. Despite the fact that I loved so many things this year, they cannot cover the fact of how bad this year has been, both personally and globally.
I hope that when you read this, future me, that 2017 is filled with all the things that we love and that it lacks all the things that hurts. I wish that when you look back on the year, that you are proud of the things you have accomplished and that you are happy. We deserve it.
I only have one thing left to sat, and it's probably the most important thing of all. That is what would be my onlly New Year's Eve resolution; love more. Love yourself more, love other people more, love everythiin more. Only do things with love, because if there is something I have learnt from this year, is that nothing that you cannot put your heart and soul in doing, is not worth doing.
With love, Ida