Time goes by too fast... I mean soon it's December. I'm so happy for gaga's new album!! I had to buy it the first day they released it in the stores. What else.. I have tons of schoolwork but that is stuffed that I'm used to. Stuff I'm not used to is people who get pregnant in my age...Yeah, one of my friends is expecting her first baby and she and her boyfriend are studying so I'm kind of wondering how that is going to turn out.. 😄 anyhow I've been thinking how it'd be if it happened to me and how terrified I would be of the thought. I do have a thought of first study-then work for a while and then kids.... maybe. Life is so unpredictable it freaks me out a bit. Also the fact that people can say that they want to have kids before a certain age makes me irritated. Just live your life here and now.. don't be so future fixated for heaven's sake..
Another thing I've been thinking about is panic attacks. Why I have them more often when I'm drunk rather than when I'm sober. The first time I had one attack was sober at the gym... Back then I thought it was a heart attack. The difference between these to is the crying. I cry during the panic attack when I'm drunk. Not that 'I cry cause I want sympathy" kind of cry. It's rather the kind of cry where it feels like your out of breath and just want somebody to come and hug you. I don't know why I'm telling you all this but it calmes me knowing that I'm not the only one having this kind of problem. So that's why I write about it, rather than be ashamed about it.